trying to widen the margins for once

yerrey

gave perference to the lower-case indicators that would illustrate his innate insignficance
with margins too wide
the larger room for error that he avoided
now enclosed suffocating
wondering if it'll stop

put together against his wishes
if he were god he would go back
to disessemble the life he never wanted
but what good are "what if's?" now
he is not god
but with standards of one

he is breathing today
wondering it'll ever stop
he would tie the noose himself if he could
but too afraid to miss out
maybe today he can use that same thread as a way out from this hell
regardless if he ever reaches the light
so as long as he can feel a little alive for once...
is that asking for too much?
if i were god i would know
but then again i'm not
what if
oh what if
the question to answer all of life's miseries
with just a simple response
but it seems that the connection to the sky does not exist
as my voice echoes
hoping for a response from someone that's alive

coleen

thanks so much for posting this. i can relate and i know it doesn't resolve whatever has you out there hanging on your thread, but know that i'm hanging alongside you and we'll both work on climbing out together. deal?

DopeBeastie

nice yerrey... nice to see the contemplation turning now toward new directions... directions toward self (if i may be so bold... and if not, well then pooh...)

always good to read


thanks

yerrey

thanks....it sucks..but good thing i have this outlet...

DopeBeastie

it IS nice to have, I agree...

and as for this sucking? i dunno, my opinion, but... sometimes the complexities of our questions can't be decanted into some smooth oversweet liqueur...

and i tend to like a sour/heady brew from time to time