7pm And I'm Hoping Those Sins Aren't Deadly!
Being Enlightened
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At first I didn't know what to say,
Knotty tongue tied, twisted torture,
But now it's 7 o'clock
And I'm hoping all is well.
And remembering a day.
A day when I had wanted to die.
Had prepared a drink of Draino and orange juice.
Had a pretty full bottle of Tylenol.
And oh how I was crying,
Inside, outside, indside, on dying
To be rid of my wretched self!
And I don't need to tell you the reasons,
You already know the reasons.
It's for all the same reasons you feel this way, right now.
And I know that blood is NOT thicker than water.
Well, I took a sip of that horrid concoction.
Just one little sip.
I guess I wasn't as serious just that second...
And then the phone rang??!!??!!
And I certainly wouldn't have wanted anyone to wake up,
So I answered and I knew it was going to be for me,
And I never did drink that poison down...
And I'm still glad that I didn't!
And life is definately not perfect, or forgiving, or fair...
In fact, sometimes it's downright miserable!
BUT, that's the deal!
And you've got to play with what you're dealt.
And you must remember that there is goodness!
And I'm talking about basic goodness,
I'm talking about seeing the little good things,
The things you over-look on a daily basis,
Like a bird singing softly and sweetly outside your window...
Like the sun setting, sending that radiant red across the skies...
Like a beautiful poem bursting forth from your beautiful brain...
These are good things!
Things that should make you feel glad to be alive,
To be able to enjoy such simple beauty in everything,
In every breath, every step, sight, sound, smell, taste, touch...
Relish those small things that shine a light into your heart!
How will you ever know where your heart will take you,
If you never give it the chance to get there?
And there is beauty and goodness in you too!!!
And even if you can't see it, others see it!!!!
Learn to see through their eyes sometimes,
Look at yourself in a different light,
A kinder, gentler light.
And be good to yourself.
Don't cheat yourself.
Sadness, pain, hurt and depression are natural feelings,
We all feel them at different points in life,
You can't let those feelings consume you!
You have to make room for some happiness!
You deserve it!
You have to learn to love yourself completely!
No one else can do that for you, it's a goal YOU must achieve!
You need to share the miracle that is you with the world,
Each and every day, each and every way.
Trust me, you have a purpose, even if it is a mystery to you!!!!!
LOVE LIFE!!!!!
We need your loving light to shine oh-so-bright!!!!
Knotty tongue tied, twisted torture,
But now it's 7 o'clock
And I'm hoping all is well.
And remembering a day.
A day when I had wanted to die.
Had prepared a drink of Draino and orange juice.
Had a pretty full bottle of Tylenol.
And oh how I was crying,
Inside, outside, indside, on dying
To be rid of my wretched self!
And I don't need to tell you the reasons,
You already know the reasons.
It's for all the same reasons you feel this way, right now.
And I know that blood is NOT thicker than water.
Well, I took a sip of that horrid concoction.
Just one little sip.
I guess I wasn't as serious just that second...
And then the phone rang??!!??!!
And I certainly wouldn't have wanted anyone to wake up,
So I answered and I knew it was going to be for me,
And I never did drink that poison down...
And I'm still glad that I didn't!
And life is definately not perfect, or forgiving, or fair...
In fact, sometimes it's downright miserable!
BUT, that's the deal!
And you've got to play with what you're dealt.
And you must remember that there is goodness!
And I'm talking about basic goodness,
I'm talking about seeing the little good things,
The things you over-look on a daily basis,
Like a bird singing softly and sweetly outside your window...
Like the sun setting, sending that radiant red across the skies...
Like a beautiful poem bursting forth from your beautiful brain...
These are good things!
Things that should make you feel glad to be alive,
To be able to enjoy such simple beauty in everything,
In every breath, every step, sight, sound, smell, taste, touch...
Relish those small things that shine a light into your heart!
How will you ever know where your heart will take you,
If you never give it the chance to get there?
And there is beauty and goodness in you too!!!
And even if you can't see it, others see it!!!!
Learn to see through their eyes sometimes,
Look at yourself in a different light,
A kinder, gentler light.
And be good to yourself.
Don't cheat yourself.
Sadness, pain, hurt and depression are natural feelings,
We all feel them at different points in life,
You can't let those feelings consume you!
You have to make room for some happiness!
You deserve it!
You have to learn to love yourself completely!
No one else can do that for you, it's a goal YOU must achieve!
You need to share the miracle that is you with the world,
Each and every day, each and every way.
Trust me, you have a purpose, even if it is a mystery to you!!!!!
LOVE LIFE!!!!!
We need your loving light to shine oh-so-bright!!!!
Forget your perfect offering, there is a crack in everything, that's how the light gets in. - Leonard Cohen
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promise
~love
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Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy
real , simple and absolutely intelligent.
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God bless you. "- jayscott
and for the muse that inspired her to write this.
wishing that the truth and the love in these lines reaches and holds and infuses the spirit with the light of hope.
please.
believe.
INTER-FUCKING-MISSION!!!
Newcastle-Riverside 02/22/92!!!
E.rutherford New Jersey 01/06/06
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Wembley 18/06/07- no words- just smiles!
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"Living well is the BEST revenge"
and that's how i intend to make the big "fuck you" to the world work to my karmic advantage... (and if i'm fucking that up jsut by saying it out loud, well.... shit LOL) there are people in this small world that would relish in their rightness while they watch me fall... they can't help it, and i can't blame them
there are also people... family even, who are too wrapped up in their own daily melodrama to see plainly, that I need them to reach out to me... but that, too is okay. my living well would be credit to at least their good intent, because I know they love me, they are just too busy to say so.
i have said so in pm, but i'll say it here... you are an excellent poet... raw and fierce, and the images you lay down, and the twisted contexts of thought both amaze and enlighten me... that poem about "lay with me and draw sad circles in the carpet"? i know i paraphrase poorly, but shazzam batman!... dat be some gooooood chit.
i am sorry for your hell, and hope the cloudbursts you write help vent your kettle, and continue to do so everysingleday...
much love and hugs....
secondly, i send up mad props to the directive delight Being Enlightened lays down... you my dear, are a FINE woman.
you know that I am somewhere to reach should you need and I will leave it at that.
you know I've been there, and you know I care.
you just let me know when you need all this, and it shall be done.
marc-o
YOU, dear boy, are very, very welcome!
I have faith in you!!!! You WILL overcome!!!! You will rise above!!! You will continue to shine!!!
Come to think of it, it seems as if many of us have faith in you...Time to start having some faith in yourself!!!!
We're here if you need us!
Love to you!
B.E.