it's a new day today

trappedinmyradio

here, i guess i'm the asshole
...and, i'm ugly
i thought it was just the latter
holding me back from smiling
...from happiness
but, it's the total package
i'm the fucking loser
that could never be with you

yeah, it's one of those days.

Countess Elizabeth B

Many days like that myself.

The person that chooses not to be with you is losing out--the real loser--in my opinion.

Try to remember that. And I will try too.

trappedinmyradio

Countess Elizabeth B wrote:

Many days like that myself.

The person that chooses not to be with you is losing out--the real loser--in my opinion.

Try to remember that. And I will try too.

"i'll close my eyes really tight...and make you all go away..."

Countess Elizabeth B

trappedinmyradio wrote:

"i'll close my eyes really tight...and make you all go away..."

Oh, how easy and wonderful that would be. If only.

trappedinmyradio

Countess Elizabeth B wrote:

Oh, how easy and wonderful that would be. If only.

you have a house - a room - a phone - order your food...shut your door - and never come out -

Countess Elizabeth B

trappedinmyradio wrote:

you have a house - a room - a phone - order your food...shut your door - and never come out -

Well, it doesn't always work that simply. But it does sound like heaven right now.

trappedinmyradio

Countess Elizabeth B wrote:

Well, it doesn't always work that simply. But it does sound like heaven right now.

it goes back to the old sayin, "easier said than done", which is probably why i am still stuck on whatever the above "poem" is about...

Countess Elizabeth B

trappedinmyradio wrote:

it goes back to the old sayin, "easier said than done", which is probably why i am still stuck on whatever the above "poem" is about...

Oh, I hear you, my friend...I hear you loud and clear.

anxietyplease

Is it a situation of her being with someone already or that she's a dumbass and won't open her eyes? And I feel for you either way. Sorry.

trappedinmyradio

anxietyplease wrote:

Is it a situation of her being with someone already or that she's a dumbass and won't open her eyes? And I feel for you either way. Sorry.

maybe she just realizes both of the above characterizations of myself are true and is just too nice, maybe, to come out and say how she really feels...

Being Enlightened

Aw man! :( Don't be so down on yourself!!!!!!! Now, how's any gal supposed to love ya if you can't love yourself??? Give it a try. Try to forgive yourself, try to just be okay with you and work from there. If you can't see something beautiful within yourself, how are you ever going to portray that beauty to anyone else?

I may speak only for myself when I say this, but looks are NOT everything and many of my friends, although we'll talk a big storm over a "hot" guy, prefer and date kind, gentle and loving men, no matter what's on the outside!

We all go through that feeling ugly thing, I think that's normal, but if you're feeling this way all the time, you need to change that!

And don't base YOUR happiness on other's opinions of you! Try to find things to do that YOU enjoy and that make YOU happy. Come on, let's see that winning , trappedinmyradio! Stop hiding away, thinking you're an asshole--that's no way to see yourself and only you can stop being an "asshole" and start being the good person that I'm sure is inside you---let him out--let him shine---let him !!!!!!

Good luck to you! I hope you can find happiness!

violet ray

i've felt like that
way too many times


but dude...
i met you on a sidewalk in nyc, remember?
you are SO not ugly, what are you even talking about?

and knowing more about you from the other place, reading what comes across as your personality...you have a lot to offer.

don't be so down on yourself because of one person.

ha. i can't take my own advice...but still, from what i can see, you have yourself all wrong.

trappedinmyradio

we met on the sidewalk in NYC? hmmmmm...same girl...it's the same girl that i probably ran away to talk to that night...which put me on the sidewalk drinking beers in the wide open...now, you have to tell me who you are...cause i met so many people that night.

and thanks - it means a lot. it does.

violet ray wrote:

i've felt like that
way too many times


but dude...
i met you on a sidewalk in nyc, remember?
you are SO not ugly, what are you even talking about?

and knowing more about you from the other place, reading what comes across as your personality...you have a lot to offer.

don't be so down on yourself because of one person.

ha. i can't take my own advice...but still, from what i can see, you have yourself all wrong.

monkeyman

I to have been cursed by the lucky ones
They see beyond the the covers I masquerade
They see inside what I cannot; and I'm afraid to look
Because I know wihin the deep
There is an ugly beyond the cover
It is within and will never leave you
Like the rising sun it radiates for all to see
It even peirces and burns like the sun
But its not the sun at all
It is that uglines from years of toture
That you can do nothing about
Then it encompassing all your being
And then they read all the pages
And then you are ugly no matter wht you do
"And then every one gos away in the end"

anxietyplease

trappedinmyradio wrote:

maybe she just realizes both of the above characterizations of myself are true and is just too nice, maybe, to come out and say how she really feels...

or maybe yer just being to easy on her. sometimes its more affective to demand an answer so you can cut yer loses. whatta dumbass she is....i wish i knew someone that wished they could be mine. geez.

violet ray

trappedinmyradio wrote:

we met on the sidewalk in NYC? hmmmmm...same girl...it's the same girl that i probably ran away to talk to that night...which put me on the sidewalk drinking beers in the wide open...now, you have to tell me who you are...cause i met so many people that night.

and thanks - it means a lot. it does.

we discussed this recently actually
but you wouldn't recognize me under this name.
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