such a selfish little

mccreadyisgod

You are such a selfish little asshole;

Thinking you know what's right for me
Telling me what to do, where to go,
How to spend my days, weeks, years.

What is it upon which you feed?
Praise, success, accomplishment,
That sense of one overcoming all...

Are you so special that I can't live
Without your presence, your wit,
Your desire to sabatoge my every dream?

I would sever you like I would sever my hand,
Saw away to spite the pain, remove
The slightest indication you existed.

You were there the day I was born,
You grew as I grew, you gained as I gained,
You refused any defeat whenever I lost.

What an ego... what sense of self...
What ever-present desire to succeed...
To prove (to my father?) to everyone.

You are such a selfish little asshole;
And I hate you for being me.

ISN

can really relate to this....as the selfish little asshole......hehehehehe....:D......watched Gattaca the other night....and as usual made me think of my brothers.....especially my younger brother.....and his envy of me......my older brother said I used big words to make him look bad.....and that I didn't really 'read' the books I read so fast......they could never figure out that just because I was better than them at school and all that shit.....it wasn't some malicious plan to show them up......they displayed their hatred of me for this with such an openness as to make it seem ordinary.....(my father never stopped loving me and I took care of him when they stuck him in a nursing home)