If I told you

justam
justam Posts: 21,415
edited May 2006 in Poetry, Prose, Music & Art
If I told you my fears would it help?
I want you to be with me
I need you, can't you tell?
and I don’t know how to get there
with all your stuff in the way
and with my own boys keeping me so busy

but I want nothing more than you
and I want to get there somehow
I’m afraid I’m taking too long
and that you're getting upset
I’m worried you’ll give up
and go on without me
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  • perditionsend
    perditionsend Posts: 16
    justam wrote:
    If I told you my fears would it help?
    I want you to be with me
    I need you, can't you tell?
    and I don’t know how to get there
    with all your stuff in the way
    and with my own boys keeping me so busy

    but I want nothing more than you
    and I want to get there somehow
    I’m afraid I’m taking too long
    and that you're getting upset
    I’m worried you’ll give up
    and go on without me

    Tell me your fears... I long to hear, it would help
    I want u to be with me
    I need you can't u tell
    I don't know how to make u see
    What you're doing to u & me
    I'm lost & worried,... Will u go on without me?
    I long for nothin' more than u ...
    Take the time u need...I'm here, so please proceed......
    Don't ever worry babe & don't give up
    Take Care of what U need...
    But Baby just don't go out one me!
    As a wise man walks through the sands of time... He asks himself "Is it 'God' I'm trying to find?...or myself?"
  • vitalpj10
    vitalpj10 Posts: 142
    justam wrote:
    If I told you my fears would it help?
    I want you to be with me
    I need you, can't you tell?
    and I don’t know how to get there
    with all your stuff in the way
    and with my own boys keeping me so busy

    but I want nothing more than you
    and I want to get there somehow
    I’m afraid I’m taking too long
    and that you're getting upset
    I’m worried you’ll give up
    and go on without me

    If I told you you had a beautiful body, would you hold it against me?
    ...I thought the world, turns out the word thought me
  • electronblue
    electronblue Posts: 3,503
    justam wrote:
    If I told you my fears would it help?
    I want you to be with me
    I need you, can't you tell?
    and I don’t know how to get there
    with all your stuff in the way
    and with my own boys keeping me so busy

    but I want nothing more than you
    and I want to get there somehow
    I’m afraid I’m taking too long
    and that you're getting upset
    I’m worried you’ll give up
    and go on without me





    .. your heart is simply aglow,...~

    :)
    ********************************
    "Forgive every being,
    the bad feelings 
    it's just me"


  • justam
    justam Posts: 21,415
    eddie's Tone rocks wrote:
    .. your heart is simply aglow,...~

    :)

    Yeah. Not always comfortable, but always warm. :D
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  • twin1
    twin1 Posts: 902
    you are so sweet and such a caring soul justam...good things come to those who wait
    Our love must not be just words, but True Love, which shows itself in action,
    No one needs a smile more than someone who fails to give one,
    After you die...you know how to LIVE!
  • justam
    justam Posts: 21,415
    twin1 wrote:
    you are so sweet and such a caring soul justam...good things come to those who wait

    Thank you for the kind words. :)
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  • riantLoVEsu
    riantLoVEsu Posts: 74
    Hi Justam...can I add some thoughts here?? smiles..yes or no, here they go..lol...


    Lost in time and space
    slow build precipitation
    engulfs
    my mind, my place, my sanity of me
    and i try
    to reach,,,to remember
    but,
    it doesnt make any sense
    to me,,,
    all this feeling
    ..and i dont
    dont know what
    ~to
    do~
    ~with
    this~
    ~Monster - this thing~~
    born into me from a dream~~
    so what are u doing she questions?
    are u so stupid to thinkits a love your feeling??
    awake now in the middle of the day?
    (what are you doing anyway, dumbshit?)
    will u please clean up this mess
    once again from your fuckedup head
    look around u
    since when does love birth a new poverty
  • justam
    justam Posts: 21,415
    But riantLoVEsu...you and I are not feeling it at all the same!!

    Love motivates me to change and feel more energy, but not anger! :)

    It makes me want to wake up, open up, and move. :D
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  • riantLoVEsu
    riantLoVEsu Posts: 74
    hi justam...

    perhaps you have never truly lost your soul to love??

    (...Sounds like you wanna go?)

    But Mad mad is the slide ...
    <ok. may be different for a woman tho..

    Heartbreak is the eventual destintation
    A thousand pieces of woe...

    Still sure ya wanna go?

    smiles@you......... :):)
  • justam
    justam Posts: 21,415
    riantLoVEsu wrote:
    hi justam...

    perhaps you have never truly lost your soul to love??

    (...Sounds like you wanna go?)

    But Mad mad is the slide ...
    <ok. may be different for a woman tho..

    Heartbreak is the eventual destintation
    A thousand pieces of woe...

    Still sure ya wanna go?

    smiles@you......... :):)

    You're a wild one who ever you are! :D

    I'm in the middle of falling in love and it's all new to me.

    Different than before, so today is probably not the day to ask me anything... I'm learning new stuff and it's interesting. :)
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  • justam
    justam Posts: 21,415
    Btw, riant, I'm a woman too. If you think I'm a man, you're WRONG, WRONG, WRONG.
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  • riantLoVEsu
    riantLoVEsu Posts: 74
    justam wrote:
    Btw, riant, I'm a woman too. If you think I'm a man, you're WRONG, WRONG, WRONG.

    okay. But how do u call it love and find yourself worrying?? Somehow that doesnt ring true to me. That is usually what a boy will do. You know when youre going head over heels you dont usually see well enuf in front of you to worry so soon..... :)

    So how do u like this song?

    Save Me ~ Aimee Mann

    You look like... a perfect fit,
    For a girl in need... of a tourniquet.
    But can you save me?
    Come on and save me...
    If you could save me,
    From the ranks of the freaks, Who suspect they could never love anyone.

    'Cause I can tell... you know what it's like.
    A long farewell... of the hunger strike.
    But can you save me?
    Come on and save me...
    If you could save me,
    From the ranks of the freaks,
    Who suspect they could never love anyone.

    You struck me dumb, Like radium
    Like Peter Pan, or Superman,
    You have come... to save me.
    Come on and save me...
    If you could save me,
    From the ranks of the freaks,
    Who suspect they could never love anyone,
    Except the freaks,
    Who suspect they could never love anyone,
    But the freaks,
    Who suspect they could never love anyone.
  • justam
    justam Posts: 21,415
    I find these lyrics and things you put up not really relevant to the threads you put them in.

    I'm sorry.

    I'm trying to be kind to you, but I think you're barking up the wrong tree.
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  • twin1
    twin1 Posts: 902
    I can tell you something about love. I was with my significant other 14 years and we had 2 kids together. I left because he became violent, was too wrapped up in money and refused to get help. We are now back together, expecting another child and go to counseling. We both did alot of work inside of ourselves separately to try to get closer to the "same page" and understanding ourselves and each other better. Fairytale love with white knights in shining armour are nice stories and if you are lucky enough to get that more power to you. What I have learned about love is that when you put your whole heart and soul into it you are vunerable and they will hurt you and you will hurt them. Nothing and no one is perfect and the expectations we put on others can't work, they aren't us and were not made to be. Unselfish love works because if you focus on them and they focus on you the give and take is more balanced and natural. To me it is like 2 birds flying beside each other - together but apart, balanced. Love that endures is not made of roses, there are thorns and many obstacles but it takes a commitment to weather them, a commitment needed by both parties. I think it is wonderful when people fall in love and sad when they can't make it work but I think they need to go into it realistically and accept that it is hard work. Good luck to you justam! :):)
    Our love must not be just words, but True Love, which shows itself in action,
    No one needs a smile more than someone who fails to give one,
    After you die...you know how to LIVE!
  • riantLoVEsu
    riantLoVEsu Posts: 74
    I find these lyrics and things you put up not really relevant to the threads you put them in. I'm sorry. I'm trying to be kind to you, but I think you're barking up the wrong tree.
    __________________

    Well justam, I will laugh at that (that is my name here.) I surmise I am older than you and have had if not just as difficult curves thrown my way, at least some you might be (might not) be able to relate. You know why I posted that song and why i thought it relevant? Because sometimes we get so caught up in the feelings of love and the ideals of it, and in a certain mood to me, it often time strikes me that is NOT the reality of love but just a freak thing we create in and around ourselves, out of our own needs.

    Thats what I was trying to say in maybe an awkward round about way, but I gather you dont understand. Thats ok. Thanks for trying to be kind, but you can say anything you want to me...at this point I am not offended by much of anything. But do know that in my way, I too, was trying to be kind to you...I think and you can get mad if you want ( i know i dont like anyboy telling me anything about what 'I feel' either)...but anybody can see all the stuff you post...and to not see the build up to let down,... you'd have to be some kind of blind. But I wont post to you anymore. I dont want to upset you.

    Riant.
  • riantLoVEsu
    riantLoVEsu Posts: 74
    oh and just wanted to add (it wont let me edit) that I really hope what I wrote does not make you mad. I want to stress, I know what it is to 'need' and want somebody to save you from all that ails you. And just so you know -- I am not even myself immune, I am living with an ex I have divorced twice already and cant seem to leave...like he's got some fuxing hold on me...and at the same time I am unhappy here and have gone out on a limb so I can tell you at least 4 different guys 'I think I have feelings for too'...again, sometimes it all makes me feel like a freak. Like what am I doing,..what is it I seek? Now, you can tell me thats me, and its not you, but what I find, is thats how it starts to run with the distance thing. At least what I write are these things I have searched in myself and what I think sometimes of them. ::shrug::

    ok thats it.

    :)
  • justam
    justam Posts: 21,415
    I know you're trying to be helpful. I realize that's your motivation, but all this really feels like a violation to me.

    I'm a real person, in love with another real person, not some fantasy illusion, and I'm worried at the moment. It doesn't mean I need all this extra stuff thrown into my notes to myself.

    It just kinda hurts me. Can you understand that? I feel like you're putting graffiti over my love letters.
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  • riantLoVEsu
    riantLoVEsu Posts: 74
    yes, i do. thats why i wont do it anymore :)
  • riantLoVEsu
    riantLoVEsu Posts: 74
    But can I ask you something? If it was private and all...why do u post it for public view??? just cause ..you feel like it...you need to? Or are you reaching someone here and we all are the intruders?

    sorry, just thought i'd ask.
  • justam
    justam Posts: 21,415
    riantLoVEsu wrote:
    But can I ask you something? If it was private and all...why do u post it for public view??? just cause ..you feel like it...you need to? Or are you reaching someone here and we all are the intruders?

    sorry, just thought i'd ask.

    It's not that these aren't for public view!

    However, people hang paintings on walls for people to see-- not for others to paint on top of, cut up for a collage, or fling mud on.

    Does that make more sense to you?
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