the calm before.......

coleen
coleen Posts: 938
edited May 2004 in Poetry, Prose, Music & Art
this one was posted already in a foxhole far, far away on tuesday...damn what a difference a day can make.

ah well, thats life and its always changing as was pointed out by the kindness of a friend. and i just remembered that there was a reference to 'amazing grace' in that one....creepy....... "i was lost and now i'm found, i was blind but now i see" ;)



eyes so blue as glaciers

cuddled close before the hearth
in a cabin built by your hands
the place we would treasure our babies
within the fertile alaskan lands

you whispered how you'd love me
content in dreams to meet me there
though you believed we'd make it real
if i could only learn not to be scared

882 miles between us, in
the night would dissolve and disappear
and we'd blink away the hours
whisper-kissing each others ears

when you finally stood before me
your true lips upon my face
through the night your body warmed me
and i believed in your amazing grace

only now that you've gone there's a constant aching
its a pain that i can't name or place
but my tears swell and burn from my eyes
the memory of your faraway face
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  • Being Enlightened
    Being Enlightened Posts: 5,746
    Originally posted by coleen
    this one was posted already in a foxhole far, far away on tuesday...damn what a difference a day can make.

    ah well, thats life and its always changing as was pointed out by the kindness of a friend. and i just remembered that there was a reference to 'amazing grace' in that one....creepy....... "i was lost and now i'm found, i was blind but now i see" ;)



    eyes so blue as glaciers

    cuddled close before the hearth
    in a cabin built by your hands
    the place we would treasure our babies
    within the fertile alaskan lands

    you whispered how you'd love me
    content in dreams to meet me there
    though you believed we'd make it real
    if i could only learn not to be scared

    882 miles between us, in
    the night would dissolve and disappear
    and we'd blink away the hours
    whisper-kissing each others ears

    when you finally stood before me
    your true lips upon my face
    through the night your body warmed me
    and i believed in your amazing grace

    only now that you've gone there's a constant aching
    its a pain that i can't name or place
    but my tears swell and burn from my eyes
    the memory of your faraway face

    Aw coleen, this one makes me want to cry! My how the yearning heart can ache!
    Forget your perfect offering, there is a crack in everything, that's how the light gets in. - Leonard Cohen
  • coleen
    coleen Posts: 938
    it was a happily yearning heart that wrote this one.

    but don't cry being - it was a lovely feeling.
  • Goulet
    Goulet Posts: 918
    the storm is so much better then the calm before because in the storm you see yourself reflected in the raindrops and lightening bolts and you see what you like and don't like about yourself and you can wash off in the nice warm-cool water and feel fresh and new and then dry yourself in the bright breeze naked of everything before and ready to plunge into whatever lies ahead even if you never see anything ahead or never look for anything ahead.
  • coleen
    coleen Posts: 938
    Originally posted by Goulet
    the storm is so much better then the calm before because in the storm you see yourself reflected in the raindrops and lightening bolts and you see what you like and don't like about yourself and you can wash off in the nice warm-cool water and feel fresh and new and then dry yourself in the bright breeze naked of everything before and ready to plunge into whatever lies ahead even if you never see anything ahead or never look for anything ahead.

    how do you do that?

    i wish that i could clip out every one of your posts and keep them in a book. this way i could flip through the pages of you everyday for some magic and some beauty and some truth and something that makes an aching heart's ache not quite so lonely or sad.

    mirror, mirror on the wall i'm thankful for the most brilliant glim-shimmering codpiece of all.
  • Goulet
    Goulet Posts: 918
    Originally posted by coleen
    how do you do that?

    i wish that i could clip out every one of your posts and keep them in a book. this way i could flip through the pages of you everyday for some magic and some beauty and some truth and something that makes an aching heart's ache not quite so lonely or sad.

    mirror, mirror on the wall i'm thankful for the most brilliant glim-shimmering codpiece of all.

    maybe instead of clipping everything out i'll get my ass into gear and put together a book of poetry etc and try and get it published and then send one to you and anyone else who thought they wanted one

    but really i just want to wear that cape and cod piece you're going to make me and do a goofy dance
  • coleen
    coleen Posts: 938
    it would certainly be worth the time it would take me to put all your posts together in one place. but what makes me sad is that some of the earlier posts have no doubt fallen over the 30 day edge at the end of the forum. and so for that and many other selfish reasons, i'd be ecstatic if you put a book together...just be sure its perfect spanking size.

    as you know i'm going to have to start over again to take into consideration the adjustments for the cape and codpiece. perhaps that is for the best because i had to guess your size and now i can ask if there a particular color you'd most like to have.

    and if i create a cape and codpiece to make you proud will i get to see you do your dance?
  • Goulet
    Goulet Posts: 918
    Originally posted by coleen
    it would certainly be worth the time it would take me to put all your posts together in one place. but what makes me sad is that some of the earlier posts have no doubt fallen over the 30 day edge at the end of the forum. and so for that and many other selfish reasons, i'd be ecstatic if you put a book together...just be sure its perfect spanking size.

    as you know i'm going to have to start over again to take into consideration the adjustments for the cape and codpiece. perhaps that is for the best because i had to guess your size and now i can ask if there a particular color you'd most like to have.

    and if i create a cape and codpiece to make you proud will i get to see you do your dance?

    i'm really going to try now to put everything, or almost everything together...someone wants it, but it may take a few weeks if not months since i've got a few notebooks to go through and old papers and stuff, but its going to happen...i just have to remember to stop being so hung over on teh weekend and then i'll have time...

    i'd be interested in knowing what size you guessed and what it was a size for, but if you choose the color it'll be the same as me choosing it (see the interconnectedness post)

    and of course
  • coleen
    coleen Posts: 938
    goulet, if you could only see. i'm smiling the biggest smile that i can smile - its nearly a christmas morning smile. i'd best get that cape and codpiece ready.

    i started with the cape of course and i guessed it to be a billowing size that would swirl and twist and become the wind. is that the right size?
  • Goulet
    Goulet Posts: 918
    Originally posted by coleen
    goulet, if you could only see. i'm smiling the biggest smile that i can smile - its nearly a christmas morning smile. i'd best get that cape and codpiece ready.

    i started with the cape of course and i guessed it to be a billowing size that would swirl and twist and become the wind. is that the right size?

    sounds about perfect
  • Being Enlightened
    Being Enlightened Posts: 5,746
    ... I couldn't think of a better way to send your message out, other than to find one of my favorite posts by you and bring back a little of your love for us all to share, my friend!

    Hi coleen! I know you're reading but I sure hope you have a chance to come back soon and share your words with us! :D

    Until then, I wait with baited breath! :) (or bad breath, I just drank coffee and I haven't eaten a thing so, it's probably just yucky-stinky breath!!! At least nobody will bother me! :D)
    Forget your perfect offering, there is a crack in everything, that's how the light gets in. - Leonard Cohen
  • coleen
    coleen Posts: 938
    Originally posted by Being Enlightened
    ... I couldn't think of a better way to send your message out, other than to find one of my favorite posts by you and bring back a little of your love for us all to share, my friend!

    Hi coleen! I know you're reading but I sure hope you have a chance to come back soon and share your words with us! :D

    Until then, I wait with baited breath! :) (or bad breath, I just drank coffee and I haven't eaten a thing so, it's probably just yucky-stinky breath!!! At least nobody will bother me! :D)

    thanks B.E.!!!

    god what an odd bit of serendipity that you chose this one...it seems like a million years ago that i wrote this. and reading it brings that day back to me like i'm right there in the middle of it.

    wouldn't it be nice if life could be like that? if you could re-do a moment like you can re-write a line, maybe i'd only change a word or two. i believe all that stuff about not regretting because changing a moment would alter the path or the place that i'm in and so maybe we should only have a limited number of do-overs. for the first time in my life i can say i really regret a few moments so much that i'd love to re-write me because those moments are associated with the most important thing i've ever done. its amazing when i think about how much difference one little moment, a pause, a silence, a single word can make. all the difference in the world from where i'm sitting.

    i suppose whats left to do is wait and hope and to try and be better than i was yesterday.

    ah well enough waxing philosophical. i'm still here in spirit, in happy phantom style, reading and feeling and dreaming and loving your words as cherished friends. as cherished and so very much an influence on my smile as my precious poetry hut all stars.

    add one more to my copyright tab. :)
  • Being Enlightened
    Being Enlightened Posts: 5,746
    You are most welcome, Phantom! :D

    I know what you mean about changing moments but I'd prefer if you didn't change a thing. I love you just the way you are! :)
    Forget your perfect offering, there is a crack in everything, that's how the light gets in. - Leonard Cohen
  • Goulet
    Goulet Posts: 918
    Originally posted by coleen
    wouldn't it be nice if life could be like that? if you could re-do a moment like you can re-write a line,

    no
  • coleen
    coleen Posts: 938
    Originally posted by Goulet
    no

    oh how i miss that :P
  • coleen
    coleen Posts: 938
    do you remember, because i still do.
  • EvilToasterElf
    EvilToasterElf Posts: 1,119
    I am going to offer a humble bit of advice, whenever you're using big numbers like eight hundred eighty two, even though it might be the exaxt truth, it's not so good for the poem, sometimes we have to smudge our details a bit and eight hundred is a lot easier to swallow and continue with the line

    but very nice sentiment
  • coleen
    coleen Posts: 938
    thanks for reading and for the constructive bit of advice. :D

    you were missing there for a while, glad to see that you are back.
  • FinsburyParkCarrots
    FinsburyParkCarrots Seattle, WA Posts: 12,223
    I got eight hundred and eighty two dollars, a bent washer and some English pennies that might just pass for thirty-eight cents

    I said I got eight hundred and eighty two dollars, a bent washer and some English pennies that might just pass for thirty-eight cents

    So I decided I'm gonna try the knicker store an' get me some o' those leopard skin heliotrope flared glow-in-the-dark underpants

    yassuh
    :D

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