save me from at least one disappointment

coleencoleen Posts: 938
silence as expected
but what is there to say
when we both know very well
that you and i began that way

i choose to believe he existed
the man i gave myself to
i couldn't have belonged so completely
to a man who would be so cruel

but i wonder, did you consider
how excrutiating it would be
to hear you whisper the words to her
that you once said to me

then to find those lines you left for me
how the feeling doesn't change
can you understand why i'm not sure
which you i can believe

for you i hope you mean them this time
things you said to all the rest
please mean that her heart will be safest with you
that was the one i always loved the best.
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  • Abikins70Abikins70 Posts: 12
    I think you just diced my heart up :'(
    Abikins70
    xxx

    "I have not failed, I've just found 10,000 ways that don't work"
  • coleencoleen Posts: 938
    i didn't mean to.

    thanks for being my twin. :P
  • nailz100nailz100 Posts: 1,176
    Wow...you took the words right out of my mouth. Sometimes it takes awhile to see a persons real colors...

    (something I wrote a while ago)
    It all takes time to discover what there is to find
    when upon first glance it appeared to bleed
    into nothingness shrouded by a hinting mind
    never able to get free...

    or (your own world)

    Switched places, shattered picture of mine
    was all you chose to leave behind...no one knows
    its not her fault that the lights aren't on
    she just feels like she doesn't belong....she doesn't belong..

    (you can replace she with he if you want)....
    Only with our eyes closed can we truly see
  • coleencoleen Posts: 938
    i dunno, i don't care to believe that he's unkind - he wouldn't make sense to me that way. i wrote this in a moment when it even hurt to breathe.

    i mean it has to count for something that he'll shout out proudly what he could only say in the tiniest whipsers to me. his willingness to give her his voice and all that comes with it while that same voice would have brightened my darkest day. the heart wants what the heart wants, who are we to say? i truly hope that with his new friend he'll finally find the peace and love he's been hoping for, it would take the ache out of how i'm feeling.

    as for your writing my dear friend nailz, i'm a faithful fan. and my fondness for your thoughts increases with each line you let us read.
  • Originally posted by coleen
    i dunno, i don't care to believe that he's unkind - he wouldn't make sense to me that way. i wrote this in a moment when it even hurt to breathe.

    i mean it has to count for something that he'll shout out proudly what he could only say in the tiniest whipsers to me. his willingness to give her his voice and all that comes with it while that same voice would have brightened my darkest day. the heart wants what the heart wants, who are we to say? i truly hope that with his new friend he'll finally find the peace and love he's been hoping for, it would take the ache out of how i'm feeling.

    as for your writing my dear friend nailz, i'm a faithful fan. and my fondness for your thoughts increases with each line you let us read.
    I'm so sorry you're experiencing so much pain, sweetie. I know the feeling all too well. He didn't leave me for someone else, but he did leave me. It's so overwhelming at times, so unbelievably painful, I really don't know how it's possible to survive it. Sometimes no matter what I do, I can't get him out off of my mind. I hate that anyone else ever has to feel that pain, that loss, but it's nice to know I'm not alone & that it is possible to live again. Though, obviously, it takes quite some time to get over. Even then, I can't help but wonder if I'll ever get completely over him. But anyway, keep your chin up sweetie. We WILL get through this shit.
    There was a whole inside his soul a manicure couldn't fill. So he found himself a whore to love while daisies choked in the windowsill. *JK*
  • coleencoleen Posts: 938
    Originally posted by VedderGirl27
    But anyway, keep your chin up sweetie. We WILL get through this shit.

    he never really did belong to me - he took every opportunity to make that very clear to me and made certain i'd never forget it. ah i don't even understand it myself sometimes but the fact of the matter remains he's found someone else.

    i'm sorry to hear about your troubles veddergirl. but i still believe that love comes to us all. chin is up for the moment, hope yours is locked in the upright position as well. :)
  • nailz100nailz100 Posts: 1,176
    Your unselfishness is as meaningful and refreshing to me as a breath of salty air pouring off of the ocean amidst the crashing waves.....I'm not sure I could be as forgiving as you.

    Sometimes we cannot grasp what ones we care about are thinking and doing.....they just do not fall into the same realm of reality as we do.....

    But...karma is a bitch....and what goes around comes around..
    Just think of it this way....he will probably never find another star as bright as you....

    I am a fan of yours also...
    Only with our eyes closed can we truly see
  • coleencoleen Posts: 938
    Originally posted by nailz100
    I am a fan of yours also...

    i wouldn't call it unselfishness, i am plenty selfish. i just know how i feel and what he meant to me. that doesn't just disappear when someone hurts us. i think it might make the loss easier to deal with if they did.

    besides, i'm sure i've done my share to hurt him without intending to. all my faults and flaws, my feelings were always true. so i am choosing to continue believing that once his feelings were too.

    i'd like to believe we tried our best. and thats all i wish for him.

    thank you for giving a sappy girl a smile nailz. i hope you have a great weekend, i'm done....i'm outta here. :D
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