When We Call It

FallsInMay

I will call it
If you do, I will assume the worst and
I will leave wholly 
This way, perhaps a part of us will remain
And you bear your burdens so well
But this will not be one of them

I am an expert at being alone
But being lonely is something new to me
Loneliness lurking in the shadows 
Of my brightest days and my sweetest nights,
With you
Loneliness appearing whenever you walk
out that door
Pushing back desire, I will befriend loneliness,
Until I make it my own and can live in peace

I feel
Your soft touch in all that is beauty
Your tears in all pain and sorrow 
Your spirit soaring with the wind
Your hope that shines in every star

I see your face as I talk to the sky

I will 
Read you
See you in distant places
And remember you in the space between 

So, no Goodbye
For you will remain
Swirling in my head and pounding in my chest
Your presence coursing through my body
For the remainder of my days

You will forever be
My heart
My home
My love
My.....