Alive

mambida

I watched pj on vh1 storytellers the other night and before alive eddie was saying how, when he wrote it, the line I'm still alive was ment as a curse. but as time went on and they played it live he realized that the fans are singing it with a completely different meaning, as a celebration and victory. and that realizing that the curse was gone for him, too.
i remembered this now because i'm not to good today. i was at a funeral of my good friend's father and it was very hard, because i burried my own dad two months ago. he killed himself. so, when i heard eddie say that, it was strange cause i've been going lately back and forth between exactly those two meanings. i'm glad that for him the curse is gone, i hope that one day it will be for me, too.

Obsidian22

Hi Mambida, I too go back and forth. We are here now! Being here, and living, truly living each day, counts. You already know that my brother took his own life as well, back in July 2006. Christmas time is hard, I feel your pain. It just sucks that you had another funeral to attend. You're in my thoughts today and tommorrow. We're still alive, breathing and being and there's no room for guilt. Each and everyone is responsible for themselves only. Give yourself and your friend a hug. Peace, and love T.

ymerej

mambida wrote:

i'm glad that for him the curse is gone, i hope that one day it will be for me, too.

It will be, I'm sure, just don't lose your faith.

(Samo ti je važno da vjeruješ u sebe, i da si u društvu sa svojima, koje voliš.
Bit če bolji dnevi. Sretnu novu godinu...čuvaj se.)

bookmuse

mambida wrote:

I watched pj on vh1 storytellers the other night and before alive eddie was saying how, when he wrote it, the line I'm still alive was ment as a curse. but as time went on and they played it live he realized that the fans are singing it with a completely different meaning, as a celebration and victory. and that realizing that the curse was gone for him, too.
i remembered this now because i'm not to good today. i was at a funeral of my good friend's father and it was very hard, because i burried my own dad two months ago. he killed himself. so, when i heard eddie say that, it was strange cause i've been going lately back and forth between exactly those two meanings. i'm glad that for him the curse is gone, i hope that one day it will be for me, too.

Mambida - sending positive thoughts your way that the curse will be lifted for you too. I had a close relative (my uncle who was 3-1/2 years older than I) take his life as well when I was 14. This was 24 years ago and he is still with me in my heart. I think how sad he could not overcome or come to terms with what was bothering him and when I felt like doing the same thing- I did not because of the impact this had on our family and my grandma. Life is worth living, although damn hard many times, look at the joys and blessings. cherish the good. Keep the good things about your dad with you. Hugs to you.

Jamal

To me, this song tends to represent the curse of life

the good isn't worth standing all the bad....

I'm still alive, but do I deserve to be
could be interpreted in so many ways, that the best one is your very own

Scigatt

You know the last half of the last sounds very existentialist to me, and very intresting philosophically.
(Is life something you have to deserve?, etc.)

Also, I've actually thought about this before, about how the meaning of the song changed. I noted the only thing that the chorus said was that "I'm still alive". I currently interpret the situation and the song as: The only thing you can be certain of throughout your life is that you are alive, but that could mean anything to you. The song also pointed me toward an interpretation of all 'public' art as a shared construct between the creator(s) and the audience. This kind of stuff intrests me, which is probably one of the reasons I like Cropduster.

P.S.:I am not majoring in Philosophy...yet.

mambida

obsidian,ymerej,bookmuse, thanks for your thoughts.
i still do think that life is worth living and that good things are worth standing all the bad! but other peoples hopelesness and pain, especially if they are close to you, do bring you down from time to time. just can't stop wishing there is something you can do to help them. but this was a good lesson, never to have leftovers in relationships. having to wish for just one more day till the rest of your life, that's hard to cope.
scigatt, yeah, it's interesting to see pieces of art how they grow with time and people. and it's logical, because art is a form of communication.

Jamal

mambida wrote:

having to wish for just one more day till the rest of your life, that's hard to cope.

*Runs away in tears*

mambida

thelowlightargentina

mambida wrote:

I watched pj on vh1 storytellers the other night and before alive eddie was saying how, when he wrote it, the line I'm still alive was ment as a curse. but as time went on and they played it live he realized that the fans are singing it with a completely different meaning, as a celebration and victory. and that realizing that the curse was gone for him, too.
i remembered this now because i'm not to good today. i was at a funeral of my good friend's father and it was very hard, because i burried my own dad two months ago. he killed himself. so, when i heard eddie say that, it was strange cause i've been going lately back and forth between exactly those two meanings. i'm glad that for him the curse is gone, i hope that one day it will be for me, too.

"one good thing about music...when it hits you, you feel no pain" (Bob Marley)
it´s all about it...life is back and forth...all the time...just don´t lose your faith...

genie

The song Alive always for some reason made me think that lyrics meant celebration of life ( though the first time i heard Alive, i was going through some bad times ), in a way every time i hear this song and sing to the lyrics i think about how much i appreciate being here and now. But i can see how lyrics can also mean that being alive is a curse.
To all those people in pj community that are going through some bad times all i can say is that time is a healer.... and life goes on, things change, good things happen....:)