9 songs that changed my life....AKA for my mom

Thorns2010Thorns2010 Posts: 2,200
So ummm...yeah.

Here goes I guess. I wasn't sure if this was the right forum or not to post this, but fuck it you know?

I haven't been posting much lately, and I haven't told anyone on this board yet, but my mom died on Friday April 25th from a brain aneurysm. Yeah, it fucking sucks, even more so since its become apparent that its a family history thing.

Anyway, for the 'in memory' card at the funeral I come up with this.




I will light the match this morning, so I won't be alone
Oh dear mom can you see me now?
I am myself like you somehow

No matter how cold the winter there's a springtime ahead
All five horizons revolved around her soul
Cannot find the comfort in this world
On my knees to rise and fix my broken soul

We face an undertow of futures laid to waste
Embraced by the loss of what we can not replace
And wherever you've gone and wherever we might go
It don't seem fair, you seemed to like it here
Your light's reflected now, reflected from afar
We were but stones, your light made us stars

I miss you already... I miss you always
I miss you already... I miss you all day
It's sad and we will always love you






Lyrics slightly changed to fit from 9 different songs, bonus points for anyone who names them all!

Anyway, so yeah, its a little nerdy, and I orgianlly wanted to have it in the card as anonymous, but that didn't work. Now my mom never really understood my passion and love for Pearl Jam, but that never stopped her supporting me in it.

She, without any hesitation bought me a plane tickets to NYC to see them in June after I told her I got tickets to the MSG shows.

So mom, for you, I promise I will rock my ass off at those shows, and they will always be special to me no matter what happens.
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  • Sian-of-the-deadSian-of-the-dead Posts: 8,963
    wow... I'm really sorry for your loss :(

    The poem/combination of songs is simply beautiful and I think, very fitting.

    Your mum sounds like she really did support your love of PJ (plane tickets speaks volumes) and she would most probably find it comforting, the fact that you're seeking solice in their lyrics and shows at such a difficult time.

    I'm not gonna pretend to understand what you're going through or to even know you, but reading a thread like this would effect anyone. You're in my thoughts.

    For you, and your Mum, enjoy MSG :)
    Been to this many PJ shows: Reading 2006 London 2007 Manchester & London 2009 Dublin, Belfast, London, Nijmegen & Berlin 2010 Manchester 1 & Manchester 2 2012...

    ... and I still think Drive-By Truckers are better.
  • SDHSClassof82SDHSClassof82 Posts: 306
    Thorns2010 wrote:
    Lyrics slightly changed to fit from 9 different songs, bonus points for anyone who names them all!

    Anyway, so yeah, its a little nerdy, and I orgianlly wanted to have it in the card as anonymous, but that didn't work. Now my mom never really understood my passion and love for Pearl Jam, but that never stopped her supporting me in it.

    I read this earlier today and I haven't been able to get it out of my mind. Beautiful. The poem. Your strong bond with your mom. The way you've drawn on your passion for the music to express deep emotion. I'm so glad you're going to those shows which promise to be memorable for everyone there. But for you, I hope they are phenomenal. Have an awesome time..... don't caught in the undertow.

    And the the songs in no particular order.....
    Black
    Indifference
    Thumbing My Way
    Light Years
    Smile
    Release
    Sad
    Inside Job
    Immortality
    “Wind in my hair, I feel part of everywhere...
    Late at night I hear the trees, they're singing with the dead...overhead...”
  • Thorns2010Thorns2010 Posts: 2,200

    And the the songs in no particular order.....
    Black
    Indifference
    Thumbing My Way
    Light Years
    Smile
    Release
    Sad
    Inside Job
    Immortality

    Very good! hehe, not that I thought it would be hard for anyone on here to be able to figure the songs out.

    And I know its a good compilation of lyrics put together, but I must admit every time I read it the words don't flow the best because each time the line changes from song to song I hear in my head how its suppose to be 'sung' and it messes with the rhythm of it. At least for me that is.
  • Sorry for your loss the memoriam card you came up with is great and fitting though!
    BOS 9/28/04, 9/29/04
    MTL 9/15/05
    HRTFD 5/13/06
    BOS 5/24/06, 5/25/06
    VEGAS 7/6/06
    CHI 8/5/07
    NJ 6/19/08
    NYC 6/25/08
    HRTFD 6/27/08
    MANSFLD 6/28/08, 6/30/08
    E.V. BOS 8/1/08
    CHI 8/23/09, 8/24/09
    PHILLY 10/30/09, 10/31/09
    BOS 5/17/10
    CHI 7/19/13
    WOOSTA 10/15/13, 10/16/13
    HRTFD 10/25/13
    BOS 8/5/16, 8/7/16
    BOS 9/2/18, 9/4/18

  • 395486pj10395486pj10 Posts: 95
    I'm very sorry for your loss. Your poem is so moving.
  • pjtaperpjtaper Posts: 3,020
    So sorry... and such a great poem...
    I'm going to try to play it on guitar, the riffs with the lines...

    Nothing is worse than losing a loved one, and it is just fucking wierd, because they aren't there anymore...
    so wierd!
  • FahkaFahka Posts: 3,187
    this is a such a beautiful tribute to you Mother. I am so very sorry for your loss ..
  • hrd2imgnhrd2imgn Posts: 4,898
    see you there thorns, I hate tumors.

    Sorry for your loss, and I enjoyed the lyric recombo.

    peace out
  • dcfaithfuldcfaithful Posts: 13,076
    great poem, and way to use PJ as an inspiration.
    I'm very sorry for your loss...recently, I know how that goes...and it's never easy.

    I wish you the best my friend :)
    7/2/06 - Denver, CO
    6/12/08 - Tampa, FL
    8/23/09 - Chicago, IL
    9/28/09 - Salt Lake City, UT (11 years too long!!!)
    9/03/11 - East Troy, WI - PJ20 - Night 1
    9/04/11 - East Troy, WI - PJ20 - Night 2
  • dcfaithfuldcfaithful Posts: 13,076
    by the way.

    I hope you have a stellar time at MSG! I'll rock extra hard in Tampa for you brotha!
    7/2/06 - Denver, CO
    6/12/08 - Tampa, FL
    8/23/09 - Chicago, IL
    9/28/09 - Salt Lake City, UT (11 years too long!!!)
    9/03/11 - East Troy, WI - PJ20 - Night 1
    9/04/11 - East Troy, WI - PJ20 - Night 2
  • Thorns2010Thorns2010 Posts: 2,200
    This is a bump because I wanted to share this with someone, and I can't find the original file on my computer!

    Oh, and yes indeedy the MSG shows rocked!
  • CHANGEinWAVESCHANGEinWAVES Posts: 10,169
    Thorns2010 wrote:
    This is a bump because I wanted to share this with someone, and I can't find the original file on my computer!

    Oh, and yes indeedy the MSG shows rocked!
    very nice. :)
    Your mom sounds like she was amazing, you used great songs to pay tribute!
    "I'm not present, I'm a drug that makes you dream"
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