Release

soundgrunger · February 2005

"...i see the world, feel the chill
which way to go, windowsill
i see the world's on a rocking horse of time
i see the birds in the rain
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i'll ride the wave where it takes me
i'll hold the pain...
release me..."

i was on the bus yesterday on my way home from a crazy day of classes, and i got on and on the seat right in front of me, there was a latch that had RELEASE on it (for pulling up to make room for someone w/ a wheelchair)...anyways, so i just stared at it and i could hear "release meeee" in my head, in particular, the part i quoted at the top...

this is after i've had a hellish week at school, i have mid-terms in two weeks, 3 term papers due, 2 presentations, TONS of reading for next week (i shouldn't even be on here, but i need to to keep myself sane), and i almost had a breakdown on tuesday after i was told i had another assignment to do for next week. i almost started crying...how do i get everything done? there was a time when i made the decision to go to school because i want to learn, i want to study what i'm studying, but it's getting to a point where i'm constantly overwhelmed. i do want to learn this, but it's just so much.

anyways, so i know the song is about other stuff, i can't relate in the way it is all written, but parts of it really got to me yesterday, and just out of the blue with that trigger. i was amazed at the clarity of the music in my head and the calm that just settled over me in an instant.

so i just stared out the window across from me, above the release sign, watching the rest of the world go about the day, sitting there amid the chaos of people talking, laughing, yelling, being loud, being quite, just being...and i was just being...riding the wave where it takes me..

St. Nick · February 2005

That is so much the same as an experience I had. Except my head was floating over with other problems. The music/lyrics were really soothing, but I couldn't' "surrender" myself to the song completly. That was too bad. Luckily PJ (and most other bands) don't give away the meaning of most of the song, so you can personalize it for yourself.