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Untitled 'I'm Still Here'

aNiMaLaNiMaL Posts: 7,117
edited September 2007 in Words and Music...Communication
I just wanted to make a thread for this mysterious song. I am listening to it right now and it is just one of thee most moving pieces Ed has ever written, IMO.

She said to me, over the phone
She wanted to see other people
I thought, well then
Look around, they’re everywhere
Said that she was confused
I thought, darlin’, join the club
24 years old, mid-life crisis
Nowadays hits you when you’re young
I hung up, she called back, I hung up again
The process had already started
Least it happened quick
I swear I died inside that night
A friend, he’d called, I didn’t mention a thing
The last thing he said was “be sound”, sound
I contemplated an awful thing, I hate to admit
I just thought those would be such appropriate last words
But, I’m still here, and small
So small, how could this trouble seam so big
So big
Well the palms in the breeze still blow green
And the waves in the sea still absolute blue
But the horror
Every single thing I see is a reminder of her
Never thought I’d curse the day I met her
And since she’s gone, and wouldn’t hear
Who would care
What good would that do
But I’m still here
So I imagine in a month or 12
I’ll be somewhere having a drink
Laughing at a stupid joke
Or just another stupid thing
And I can see myself stopping short
Drifting out of the present
Sucked by the under tow and pulled out deep
And there I am standing
Wet grass and white head stones, all in rows
And in the distance there’s one off on it’s own
So I stop, kneel
My new home
And I picture a sober awakening
A re-entry into this little bar scene
Sip my drink till the ice hits my lip
Order another round
And that’s it for now
Sorry, never been too good at happy endings


It truly should have been released......
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  • NewZealandJamFanNewZealandJamFan Posts: 216
    I can see why it wasnt, and maybe thats cool that it hasnt because only a select few know about it? I imagine a whole bunch of people can relate to these lyrics, genius.
    Its been 8 years, but I still believe...PJ in NZ 06!

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  • pickupyourwillpickupyourwill Posts: 3,135
    Someone posted on here a while back that it was about his ex-wife Beth and not his current wife/girlfriend/mommy of his child. If that's the case, it seems that he loved Beth very very much and it really is such a shame that they parted. But I do hope that him and the model can make a happy family together and actually stay together. Its getting really old to buy into the happiness of celebrity couples only to see them fall apart in such short time. I realize that egos get in the way and create the ever so popular "irreconcilable differences" excuse ---but c'mon already! A marriage is a promise.......and most of us can't afford to lie. But maybe Eddie's not remarried--maybe they're just "together". Well, good luck to em' anyway. I'd really like to see them stay together as a family.---just as long as Jill doesn't become a Yoko and break up the band :p
  • JamalJamal Posts: 2,115
    NewZealandJamFan wrote:
    I can see why it wasnt, and maybe thats cool that it hasnt because only a select few know about it? I imagine a whole bunch of people can relate to these lyrics, genius.
    I think it's cool that so little people know of it... and I'm glad I'm one of them
    This always hits the sweet spot, where it hurts most :)
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  • Flannel ShirtFlannel Shirt Posts: 1,021
    where can I hear it? anyone? I heard it once but cannot remember where or how...
    All that's sacred, comes from youth....dedications, naive and true.
  • aNiMaLaNiMaL Posts: 7,117
    Flannel Shirt wrote:
    where can I hear it? anyone? I heard it once but cannot remember where or how...
    I PM'd you.
  • Ms. HaikuMs. Haiku Posts: 7,265
    Everytime I see a thread on this I see the reference that it's Eddie and a past and/or current partner. Today I looked at the lyrics and thought, maybe it's just another storytelling, maybe not about Eddie at all. Today I looked at the lyrics, and I didn't see him as the protagonist. At least I think there's someone in those lyrics I've never head of. I don't know why. . . maybe because I've only seen him on stage and not near the ocean or on the phone ;)
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  • RadioYamRadioYam Posts: 102
    24 years old, mid-life crisis

    I don't think it's about beth...
  • 73737777373777 Posts: 21
    RadioYam wrote:
    24 years old, mid-life crisis

    I don't think it's about beth...

    BUT, depending on exactly when it was written, that may have been Jill's age. She was born in 1977.


    24 years old, mid-life crisis
    Nowadays hits you when you’re young


    He's 41 now, but would have been approaching the proverbial mid-life crisis age about the time the song was written. I guess in his mid-30s.

    Just a thought.
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  • 73737777373777 Posts: 21
    aNiMaL wrote:
    A friend, he’d called, I didn’t mention a thing
    The last thing he said was “be sound”


    Ed references this in the new Rolling Stone article, saying that Roger Daltrey always says it to him.

    OT: Does anyone know where I can obtain this recording? Is it spoken work, vocals, or a full blown song?
    D.C. (Constitution Hall) - 1995 (Jack Irons first)
    Columbia, MD - 1996-1998-2000
    VA Beach - 2000 & 2008
    Raleigh, NC - 2003
    Charlotte, NC - 2003
    Bristow, VA - 2003
  • gobrowns19gobrowns19 Posts: 1,447
    I always liked the part where Eddie does his little disbelieving chuckle during, "I thought, heh, look around"

    That's powerful to me. I may have to go take a listen.
    Happiness is only real when shared
  • pickupyourwillpickupyourwill Posts: 3,135
    RadioYam wrote:
    24 years old, mid-life crisis

    I don't think it's about beth...


    I noticed that too the first time I heard it---my first thought was that it was about Jill because she's young, but then I don't know how old Beth was when they split. According to the RollingStones article,Beth and Eddie were together in highschool so that must make her about his age. But whomever posted that it was about Beth seemed just so sure of it.

    Anyhoo, I really do think it is directly about Eddie's life because that's just the impression I get from it--its like you can just hear the pain and heartfelt emotion in his voice. At any rate, people can move on after breakups of that intensity--and still get back together (especially w/ a child involved)-- my husband and I did :) Good luck to em'! I sure hope Jill realizes just how lucky she is.
  • gobrowns19gobrowns19 Posts: 1,447
    FyrFytr wrote:
    Ed references this in the new Rolling Stone article, saying that Roger Daltrey always says it to him.

    OT: Does anyone know where I can obtain this recording? Is it spoken work, vocals, or a full blown song?

    It's spoken word, but quite music in the background, think I'm Open.
    Happiness is only real when shared
  • ClaudiaClaudia Posts: 398
    mmmm seems to me like the end of a new relationship but not a marriage...

    and the age (24 y.o.) makes sense if the song was written around 2002...
  • Pearl Jam and toastPearl Jam and toast Posts: 4,475
    pickupyourwill wrote:
    Someone posted on here a while back that it was about his ex-wife Beth and not his current wife/girlfriend/mommy of his child. If that's the case, it seems that he loved Beth very very much and it really is such a shame that they parted. But I do hope that him and the model can make a happy family together and actually stay together. Its getting really old to buy into the happiness of celebrity couples only to see them fall apart in such short time. I realize that egos get in the way and create the ever so popular "irreconcilable differences" excuse ---but c'mon already! A marriage is a promise.......and most of us can't afford to lie. But maybe Eddie's not remarried--maybe they're just "together". Well, good luck to em' anyway. I'd really like to see them stay together as a family.---just as long as Jill doesn't become a Yoko and break up the band :p
    it's too old to be about his Jill anyway.


    Gorgeous song..

    always brings a tear to my eye.
    Come on pilgrim you know he loves you..

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  • jack_bass_playerjack_bass_player Posts: 1,126
    i love this song

    i love this band

    :)
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  • sebaarg88sebaarg88 Posts: 1,277
    jack_bass_player wrote:
    i love this song

    i love this band

    :)

    fuck...

    me too
    only love can break your heart
    but only love can brake your fall
  • Ms. HaikuMs. Haiku Posts: 7,265
    I have to say this is probably the one song I don't want to hear the most. I don't even want to hear the original "Brother." Now, if I could hear "Dirty Frank" live then I would be happy happy happy.
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  • aNiMaLaNiMaL Posts: 7,117
    Ms. Haiku wrote:
    I have to say this is probably the one song I don't want to hear the most. I don't even want to hear the original "Brother." Now, if I could hear "Dirty Frank" live then I would be happy happy happy.
    What does this song have to do with "Brothers" and "Dirty Frank?" And why don't you want to hear this song? Have you ever heard it? I am confused by your post. :confused:
  • Ms. HaikuMs. Haiku Posts: 7,265
    aNiMaL wrote:
    What does this song have to do with "Brothers" and "Dirty Frank?" And why don't you want to hear this song? Have you ever heard it? I am confused by your post. :confused:
    Dirty Frank I want to hear.

    Also, the non-singing version of Brothers is so good, I don't want to hear a different version. :) PJ should do more non-singing songs, eh?

    I'm Still Here is just not my song.
    There is no such thing as leftover pizza. There is now pizza and later pizza. - anonymous
    The risk I took was calculated, but man, am I bad at math - The Mincing Mockingbird
  • ClaudiaClaudia Posts: 398
    Pearl Jam and toast wrote:
    it's too old to be about his Jill anyway.

    I don't know exactly when it was written, but don't seems too old...
  • fran9480fran9480 Posts: 53
    Sometimes when I write things that are deeply personal I will shift a detail or two to lessen the ties to the author.

    I was thinking that when Ed says "24 years old" he may actually be talking about Beth, who at the time they broke up could have been 34 years old.

    Possible?
  • eastvillageeastvillage Posts: 6
    i've never heard it, but it reads like beautiful poetry and i'd LOVE to listen.
    thanks! :)
  • untitleduntitled Posts: 86
    eastvillage wrote:
    can some one pm me a copy of this song?

    thanks! :)

    me too please please please (pm the copy of this song)
    just wanted to dance to bad music
    drive bad cars
    watch bad t.v.
  • fran9480fran9480 Posts: 53
    The thing I have always enjoyed most about it is its kind of "anti-poetic" stance. There are a few truly magical lines, but for the most part, it's just this unabashedly raw, audio of the inside of Ed's mind...and therein lies the magic.
  • untitleduntitled Posts: 86
    fran9480 wrote:
    ..but for the most part, it's just this unabashedly raw, audio of the inside of Ed's mind...and therein lies the magic.

    i couldn't have said better
    simple things are always so beautiful
    just wanted to dance to bad music
    drive bad cars
    watch bad t.v.
  • aNiMaLaNiMaL Posts: 7,117
    untitled wrote:
    me too please please please (pm the copy of this song)
    I PM'd you.
  • untitleduntitled Posts: 86
    aNiMaL wrote:
    I PM'd you.

    i PM'd you too :D
    just wanted to dance to bad music
    drive bad cars
    watch bad t.v.
  • untitleduntitled Posts: 86
    heard the song for the first time few minutes ago and am listening to it right now as well. goose-flesh from the combination of that amazingly truthful and emotional lyric with the low and sad and expressive ed's voice. and his intonations here! intonations matter the most. so very beautiful.
    just wanted to dance to bad music
    drive bad cars
    watch bad t.v.
  • Ms. HaikuMs. Haiku Posts: 7,265
    I think a lot of the words bring the reader to the moment the protagonist feels them, and it flows well like a story, but

    I swear I died inside that night

    Is so cliche, it almost ruins the words for me. He was on such a roll, the protagonist thinking a certain way that flowed, and then this bombshell. Then afterwards it's redeemed with more in the moment stuff, but really that line . . . patoowie.
    There is no such thing as leftover pizza. There is now pizza and later pizza. - anonymous
    The risk I took was calculated, but man, am I bad at math - The Mincing Mockingbird
  • totaledheadtotaledhead Posts: 197
    can someone please send me a copy of it, ive been waiting to hear it for months!!

    thanks a million

    XxX

    P@M

    EDIT: i got a copy thanks Ben :D
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