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I never thought that Black would apply to my life

gtbrown77gtbrown77 Posts: 141
edited September 2005 in Words and Music...Communication
Sheets of empty canvas
Untouched sheets of clay
Lay spread out before me
As her body once did

All five horizons revolved around her sould
As the earth to the sun
Now the air I tasted and breathed
Has taken a turn

All I taught her was everything
I know that she gave me all that she wore
And now my bitter hands, chafe beneath the clouds
Of what was everything
The pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything

I take a walk outside
I'm surrounded by some kidas at play
I can feel their laughter
So why do I sear?

And twisted thoughts that spin round in my head
I'm spinning, oh I'm spinning
How quick the sun can drop away
And now my bitter hands, chafe beneath the clouds
Of what was everything
All the love gone bad, turned my world to black
Tatttooed all I see, all that I am,
All that will BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

I know someday you'll have a beautiful life
I know you'll be a star
In somebody else's sky
But why
Why, why, why can't it be MIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINE?



Never in a million years did I think that this would apply to me. But now, my marriage of 6 years (and relationship of 11 years) is all but done. And though I tried, I couldn't change a damn thing. So now I just have to let go.

What a crappy day I am having...... :(
"Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans."
-John Lennon
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  • twin2twin2 Posts: 894
    Wow. I'm sorry to hear that. I hope things get better for you and that your day improves.
  • stonesgstringstonesgstring Posts: 4,613
    Oh I'm so sorry to hear that. I'm sure that you find the strength in time to move on. *hugs*

    Have to say though, made me laugh when you wrote BEEEEEEEEEEE. Shouldn't laugh but I did
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  • gtbrown77gtbrown77 Posts: 141
    stonesgstring wrote:
    Oh I'm so sorry to hear that. I'm sure that you find the strength in time to move on. *hugs*

    Have to say though, made me laugh when you wrote BEEEEEEEEEEE. Shouldn't laugh but I did

    Doesn't bother me that you laughed....reading that you laughed brought the first smile to my face today.

    It's just how I hear it played out in my head....with lots of E's at the end, ya know?
    "Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans."
    -John Lennon
  • stonesgstringstonesgstring Posts: 4,613
    Well I'm glad to hear that. I do try to cheer people up :)

    I know. He does go "BEEEEEEEEEEEEEE". Just looked funny written out
    20/04/06 ~ 23/08/06 ~ 09/09/06

    14/09/06, 16/09/06, 17/09/06, 19/09/06, 20/09/06 ~ The Stone lookalike leg of the 2006 tour

    18/06/07 - Amazing, just amazing

    04/07/06 ~Proud to be part of the AIC Astoria Crew~

    Rockin' out to Creadles
  • ilanailana Posts: 78
    hi
    so sorry to here that,i hope things get beter for you
    my dog misty used to love that song
    take care and cheer up
    love ilana
  • babzbabz Posts: 18
    Hey At Least You Tried, Goes To Show What A Good Heart You Have... People Will Respect That!!! And At Least You Have Lived And Loved!!! Things Can And Will Only Get Better!!! Your Hurt But It Shows You've Feelings... I Hope You Feel Better Soon!!! X
    IF YOU CAN KEEP COOL AROUND HERE.... AMONG THE CONFUSION.......YOU REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND THE SITUATION!!!
  • andyGILLandyGILL Posts: 6
    Applies to me too. Every time I listen to it I can't help but be sad, BUT I CAN'T STOP LISTENING TO IT. Great tune, probably my favourite PJ song.
  • oil alternativeoil alternative Posts: 192
    i love the emotion eddie conveys in Black as if he is screamin out the lyrics in the same state of feelin i imagine u r in now, take from your time wisdom and not scars, all that u r and all that you'll beeeeeeeeeee.
    keep lovin Black and good luck with your next step in life.
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    To break down borders and realise that we are one species and then the true patriotism comes from pride and love of the human race, not from the tribes of which we currently are divided, open your eyes your mind will see! - ME
  • edeneden Posts: 407
    ilana wrote:
    hi
    so sorry to here that,i hope things get beter for you
    my dog misty used to love that song
    take care and cheer up
    love ilana

    Now that is a sweet post, how could that not cheer you up?:)
    Seriously "love gone bad" and the pain of is sometimes unbearable it seems.
    Its been a year and 3 mos since my marriage ended so abruptly. I didnt get out
    of bed for days and seriously wondered if it was survivable.

    Today...Im doing great. Time WILL heal the wound, I promise you...but the little piece of your heart that the person damaged will always have a scar I think...thats ok, it gives you an empathy for others that you otherwisw wouldnt have had.
  • darthvedder88darthvedder88 Posts: 1,023
    I remember listening to that song about 20 times after the past 2 g/f's I had dumped me. Amazing song!!
    "Darth Vader would say 'Impressive'."

    -Eddie Vedder

    6/24/06 Cincinatti, Ohio
    6/14/08 Manchester, Tennessee
  • pacifierpacifier Posts: 1,009
    I love it when it ends with..

    we
    we belong
    we belong together
    together
    oooOOOooo

    I will hope and prey that perhaps that can still be the case for you.

    I have just been writing about love elsewhere. about the bit in the bible where it says love endures all, etc. I will still keep hope for you.
  • apjgirl4lifeapjgirl4life Posts: 4
    It took me more than 2 years to get over him....this most recent tour sealed it for me. I cried through Black...oh how I cried....I choked for I Got Shit but it was all very theaputic for me. We shared so much, it was heartbreaking to see and live through the death of our friendship. I still love him, always will. But I know it will never be. And I don't want it to be.

    I can only offer words already spoke here - time heals all wounds. Distance gives perspective and clarity. Heartbreak will eventually give way to logic and reason. All that was right and all that was wrong with it will be clear to you in time.

    Take care.....
    It's better to be alone than wish you were.

    The path of the righteous man is beset on all sides by the inequities of the selfish and the tyranny of evil men.
  • anarchist_grungeranarchist_grunger Posts: 161
    gtbrown77 wrote:
    Sheets of empty canvas
    Untouched sheets of clay
    Lay spread out before me
    As her body once did

    All five horizons revolved around her sould
    As the earth to the sun
    Now the air I tasted and breathed
    Has taken a turn

    All I taught her was everything
    I know that she gave me all that she wore
    And now my bitter hands, chafe beneath the clouds
    Of what was everything
    The pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything

    I take a walk outside
    I'm surrounded by some kidas at play
    I can feel their laughter
    So why do I sear?

    And twisted thoughts that spin round in my head
    I'm spinning, oh I'm spinning
    How quick the sun can drop away
    And now my bitter hands, chafe beneath the clouds
    Of what was everything
    All the love gone bad, turned my world to black
    Tatttooed all I see, all that I am,
    All that will BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

    I know someday you'll have a beautiful life
    I know you'll be a star
    In somebody else's sky
    But why
    Why, why, why can't it be MIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINE?



    Never in a million years did I think that this would apply to me. But now, my marriage of 6 years (and relationship of 11 years) is all but done. And though I tried, I couldn't change a damn thing. So now I just have to let go.

    What a crappy day I am having...... :(
    i can really feel your pain.i've been in the same situation last week...try to hang on...
    "It was a kind of a sick, disturbed rock opera - if Nietzsche were to write a rock opera,"-Jeff Ament about Eddie's first three songs

    I've had enough, said enough, felt enough, I'm fine now.
    Push me pull me. See ya later

    <present tense inhabiter #0003 & Even Flow psycho #0036>
  • andy_lopezandy_lopez Posts: 7
    Man, just stay strong, surround yourself with a good group of people and time will heal all wounds. I have a wound that kept reopening until recently I decided that it was best for me to just walk from away from that situation.

    Take solace in another PJ lyrics, "No matter how long the winter, there's a spring time ahead."
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    Life's journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn out, shouting "holy shit...what a ride!"
  • Jmorrison23@cfl.rr.cJmorrison23@cfl.rr.c Posts: 3
    I love Pearl Jam and I was introduced to them in 2000 and I was working at movie theatre. I got fired and I was so depressed and thought about sucided and then one day listening to Black and the one part where it said " I know you'll have a beautiful life, I know you'll be a star."It said that no how matter how crappie my life was it was going to better, and took that message and moved to Orlando and have been living there for two years and if wasn't for that song I don't know where I'd be. Its my favorite song
  • phungiphungi Posts: 641
    not to dwell on the negative, but what went wrong/where did things go wrong? any take-away advise for your married pit-mates?
    37 PJ Shows, 3 EV Shows, 1134 Total Songs, 24 Different Openers, 9 Different Closers, 252 Unique Songs (never enough)
  • AndurilAnduril Posts: 56
    'black' has been my bible for many bad relationships. so has 'i'm still here'. the one that really got me with my marriage that ended almost two years ago, was 'parting ways'. but then you move on and you listen to a song like 'thumbing my way' or 'don't be shy' and you know that you can survive and it will get better.

    they say that it takes one month for every year you have been with someone to get over the heartache, and that has been true for me. altho, i was with my ex for almost 5 years, and i'd say it took right at 5 mos or maybe 6 and i was better. it still hurts tho, and it always will.
    I am the end of all your dreams...
  • AshleyGAshleyG Posts: 1
    Black was always a song that made me think of my ex. He was a huge PJ fan. Betterman was also a good one! Thanks Brian for introducing me to Pearl Jam!
  • Jmorrison23@cfl.rr.cJmorrison23@cfl.rr.c Posts: 3
    Well just to say that working at the movie theatre was really fun the person that introduced me to Pearl Jam was a manager and we would talk about Pearl Jam and music, I ended up go to a local record shop and buying most of the bootlegs from the 2000 tour. On Christmas day I got fired cause I had to manying write ups and was let go. I drank very heavily and had to take a job at the worst place McDonalds and really did feel like killing myself or at least an attempted. I listened to the songs like Alive, Black and so on cause all the music I listened to was depressing music. I now live in Orlando by myself (cause I use to live with my dad) and work at local movie theatre and a pizza restaurant. I saw Pearl Jam last October and loved every minute (even if I had to pay seventy dollars for it). I believe Black help realize that there is more in life.
  • gtbrown77gtbrown77 Posts: 141
    phungi wrote:
    not to dwell on the negative, but what went wrong/where did things go wrong? any take-away advise for your married pit-mates?

    Well, it is really a whole long story that I really don't want to get into on a public forum (let's just say there were infidelity issues....and I wasn't the one who had the problem).

    But, what I can offer is this:
    1) Communication is VERY important.
    2) If you feel like something is wrong, bring it up. Avoiding it and hoping it will go away only makes it worse
    3) Make time for one another. If you have to, force yourself. All the other stuff in life will be there tomorrow, and it isn't nearly as important anyway.
    4) If you have kids....make time for one another, away from the kids.
    5) The heart wants what the heart wants. But sometimes, what the heart wants and what you need aren't exactly the same thing.
    6) Communication is VERY important
    "Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans."
    -John Lennon
  • gtbrown77gtbrown77 Posts: 141
    Anduril wrote:
    they say that it takes one month for every year you have been with someone to get over the heartache, and that has been true for me. altho, i was with my ex for almost 5 years, and i'd say it took right at 5 mos or maybe 6 and i was better. it still hurts tho, and it always will.

    Well, we've been together for a little over 11 years. She's only been out of the house for 2 months. I really hope that it's not gonna take another 9 months to get over the heartache. But then again, it very well could, since we still interact almost everyday (parenting/custody issues)

    Ugh!
    "Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans."
    -John Lennon
  • Jmorrison23@cfl.rr.cJmorrison23@cfl.rr.c Posts: 3
    HA-HA I fuckn get it Black is about relationships and breaking up and going on with life. When all this time I thought it was about emotions and about life getting you down

    So lets have a fuckn laugh at my expense " I can feel your laughter" So I'm a fuckn idot and thanks
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