Ain't nobody praying for me

brianlux

In 2002, I planted an October Glory Maple behind my wife's store. When I brought it in, it was small enough to fit in the back of my van with the doors closed.   The trunk was only as thick as my thumb.  Over the years I've nursed it, tended it, watched over it, loved it, almost to the point of worshiping it.  In fifteen years it has grown to be a gloriously massive thing of beauty over three stories high with a nice, fat, sturdy truck, branches as thick as sailors arms and leaves that in the fall turn a fiery display of colors rarely seen here in the west .  Thinking they were somehow doing us a favor, someone who had no business doing so cut one of the large lower branches off and when I found out, I just about lost it.  I was devastated.  The tree is OK, but its symmetry is forever thrown off.  I sat down forlorn under "my" (it's really the store's) tree and put my face in my hands and nearly cried.  My wife came out, put her hand on my shoulder and said, "It will be fine, it's just a little damaged like the rest of us."

Ain't it so? 

Yeah, we're all a bit damaged.  But we'll be OK, if we try.

dankind

Brian?

HughFreakingDillon

Thoughts_Arrive said:

PJ_Soul said:

rollings said:

Thoughts_Arrive said:

2-feign-reluctance said:

Thoughts_Arrive said:

I've decided to study to be a psychologist (which I really wanted to do over teaching but the very high entry requirements scare me).

Dude. Your post worried me. Your calling attention to yourself making threads like this.  Your mental health stuff is well documented in these forums. Thanks for being brave enough to share them with others, but seriously don't call attention like that. If your struggling say so. Like this, "hey guys, I'm upset about school not working out, this Kendrick Lamar song is really speaking to me lately." 

Sorry man. :-(

don't be sorry. I like your approach better than that person's "suggestion". yours is cooler :murica:

Given the OP's history, I agree with 2-feign. It was cryptic and worrying for those of us who know that history, not cool. Sorry OP, don't want to trash your post or anything, but posts like that come off as a cry for help, not as a cool song reference. Just saying that so that you know how caring people might react to things here.

My online behaviour stinks when I am low.
I regret it.

don't beat yourself up over it. I have done it many times. 

Thirty Bills Unpaid

HughFreakingDillon said:

Thoughts_Arrive said:

PJ_Soul said:

rollings said:

Thoughts_Arrive said:

2-feign-reluctance said:

Thoughts_Arrive said:

I've decided to study to be a psychologist (which I really wanted to do over teaching but the very high entry requirements scare me).

Dude. Your post worried me. Your calling attention to yourself making threads like this.  Your mental health stuff is well documented in these forums. Thanks for being brave enough to share them with others, but seriously don't call attention like that. If your struggling say so. Like this, "hey guys, I'm upset about school not working out, this Kendrick Lamar song is really speaking to me lately." 

Sorry man. :-(

don't be sorry. I like your approach better than that person's "suggestion". yours is cooler :murica:

Given the OP's history, I agree with 2-feign. It was cryptic and worrying for those of us who know that history, not cool. Sorry OP, don't want to trash your post or anything, but posts like that come off as a cry for help, not as a cool song reference. Just saying that so that you know how caring people might react to things here.

My online behaviour stinks when I am low.
I regret it.

don't beat yourself up over it. I have done it many times. 

Well... mostly with me.

But fortunately I like you unconditionally sooo... you got that going for you!

brianlux

dankind said:

Brian?

Ha ha!  You guessed "Lux" is short for "Lorax"!