cornell

chadwick

got a text this morning from my pippy informing me she had gotten a text from her dear friend saying chris had died. took me hours to get on here, i was too scared & sad, still am. i guess he was 52, same age as the old-man when he went.

a crushing sound wall

?where are our flowers  

i'm told, "you gotta plant 'em yourself, you bastard" 

nice...

got out the big dictionary in hopes of... something... (anything)

cranking pinkpop's, "jesus christ pose"

"right turn", holy fucking shit

perfection found people all fucked up 

sky's great tightening rotation

i think there's more music upstairs w/ layne  

go to there & be well again some more

to be continued -

   

 

 

chadwick

going away with a few angels

your mirror the lake on skids

hummingbirds have arrived feeding in your beauty

of course (my) delicate tears fall here

there are no borders only bones

no delighted flesh just ash to recall

but a rainbow sounds like you

it may be cold & empty

how'd your songs  

they swung in flight

simply just you & friends

im not there

i am not

there  

yours are here, there, all over it

a gift you opened without wrapped box

there's nothing to it

so please explain the rest

where do we land in ending

where do we land in your ending

 

 

 

   

 

       

 

Shyner

Love your writing 

" set it off" " burning gasoline" " light my way"
3 songs for today. 

chadwick

"down in a hole"

that's what layne says

you fuckers make me cry sometimes

i'm not a rock-star

i know you tho

i'm nobody but i know you a little bit  

for christ sakes you bastards lived in my ears 

my heart for decades you (did) live

i am sorry   

 

 

F Me In The Brain

I feel ya, man.  Keep pouring it out.

Reminds me of the line that sticks in my head (forever) from that song, which to me represents the opposite of my sentiment here...but of which I have been guilty of many a time:

I have been guilty of kicking myself in the teeth
I will speak no more of my feelings beneath

chadwick

almost 4:00

help me find home

i am begging

please help me

this is the 900th time

please help me

tired of ...

 

chadwick

i love you

you make eyes teary eyed 

mine bleed heavy

you are beautiful in blue

a sky that scraped my skull

i can't forget that

a blue rain fell down my skin

autumn felt cold

you held my boots in stance  

today i cry

mother fucker

Kelly4peace

chris will be with us once again 

Kelly4peace

love is all we need 

Kelly4peace

i love chris and all of our family today yesterday and tomorrow with our beautiful sun forever

Kelly4peace

we ... we belong together we belong

F Me In The Brain

Not sure if you saw this buddy.
EV is feeling the pain that we all feel, albeit much more acutely as a close friend to Chris.  The ending is so powerful. 

https://youtu.be/IfmKAkVfvgA

OMGkatwoman

Kelly4peace said:

i love chris and all of our family today yesterday and tomorrow with our beautiful sun forever

That's beautiful....

Shyner

This should always be at the top
It always will be in my year here
When i fade 
Let it remain

Light my way

Shyner

Light my way
To a godly place
I must pray
And walk away
I must pray
To find strength
Days are long
Nights a breeze
Tough times make
The doubters believe
Nothing easy
Temptation tries
To rip the blood
Out of my mind
So it goes
The grip inside
To simply say
One last time
Goodbye

Shyner

No more light
Blinding my eyes
Thought of you
My soul did rise
No more time
To think of you
I won't forget
The blackest blues
Stay and share
This flesh is bare
And in an end
Glory is given
Running empty
Full of hope
I won't live in
Ends of rope
Stay and share
Stay and care
Stay and hurt
Glory waits

Shyner

Back up

F Me In The Brain

Shadow On The Sun:

Staring at the loss
Looking for a cause
And never really sure
Nothing but a hole
To live without a soul
And nothing to be learned