Process
justam
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When feelings are intense
it takes a long time to process them
the first year, I might have felt numb and detached
the second year, I might feel weepy and mournful
another day I might feel all right,
I could feel like myself?
cheerful and hopeful?
though some kind of trigger might make me drown again
it could be a thought
it could be an unfilled moment
it might be that a year later I could finally listen to another’s response?
hear it, see it, know I’m left to process whatever it is
ALONE
alone…it’s always that way!
no one helps, there’s no conversation
people seem to think that being strong means being silent
it took me a year to realize
I’ve been angry, hurt, and frustrated
it took me a year to realize that I didn’t understand anything
nothing of what I got myself into
it seems to boil down to a big waste of my time
and my time is my life
it takes a long time to process them
the first year, I might have felt numb and detached
the second year, I might feel weepy and mournful
another day I might feel all right,
I could feel like myself?
cheerful and hopeful?
though some kind of trigger might make me drown again
it could be a thought
it could be an unfilled moment
it might be that a year later I could finally listen to another’s response?
hear it, see it, know I’m left to process whatever it is
ALONE
alone…it’s always that way!
no one helps, there’s no conversation
people seem to think that being strong means being silent
it took me a year to realize
I’ve been angry, hurt, and frustrated
it took me a year to realize that I didn’t understand anything
nothing of what I got myself into
it seems to boil down to a big waste of my time
and my time is my life
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