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Stark truth

justamjustam Posts: 21,410
in Poetry, Prose, Music & Art
the bad news on the table
is about basic survival
It’s frustrating to me that
he, my guy at home
keeps getting laid off
this man I take care of and who takes care of me
we struggle, we recover
and then he loses another job!!
it feels like a curse
and every time I try to hold our spirits up to deal with it
while I lose my home, I lose my friends
and we have to move
soon, we’ve gotta criss-cross the country again!
(if he’s lucky enough to get a new job)
all because he’s lost this one
I’d hate to tell anyone how many times this has happened
and my heart is too big to
be a small person and blame him
but it makes me sad and disappointed
every time he’s rejected
this time, it’s almost too much!!
I still smile and tell him it’ll be okay
I tell him I believe in him
but why does this even happen?
it feels like this has happened too many times!
I thought five years ago would be the last time we had to do this
why did I believe it wouldn’t happen again?!
why is this his cycle?
where is Good Luck when it’s needed?!
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Comments

  • TalonTeddTalonTedd Posts: 835
    My heart goes out to you with these feelings you're having. being a carpenter I can completely understand them. I'd love to rail all over the system, because that is exactly where the blame lives, (hang the market economy) but i won't. Instead i hope your man keeps his chin up and presses on. I'm perpetually under-employed and scrambling for the next job. my wages are worse today than in the ninties most times. I cling to a part time job to keep something coming in. There's gonna be a reckoning one day for this nightmare system Wall/Bay st. and their complicit political lackeys have arranged against us; greedy dirt bags. Its not his fault nor yours. It's this whole life sucking monetary system that we slave in.....and we got it better than 3/4 of this world.

    a song dedication for you and your guy......Unemployable.....and Gone. Thanks Ed Vedder for these great works highlighting the struggles of the hard working heroes of society.....Lets throw in 'going Hungry', from Chris as well.

    In joyous part
    I remember when, yeah. I swore I knew everything, oh yeah.
  • justamjustam Posts: 21,410
    TalonTedd, thank you for the kind words and encouragement. I'm feeling a bit less discouraged today. I was in shock this week and needed to cry and get upset so I didn't just hold the feelings in.
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  • TalonTeddTalonTedd Posts: 835
    Its understandable and you did the right thing. Hell, in a strange way its nice to know that you are not infallable. For the last few years it seems you had the perfect charmed life.....you are still very charming none the less. I guess I went off the rails when I said I wouldn't, but your story realy got me upset. Cheers, to "future days".
    I remember when, yeah. I swore I knew everything, oh yeah.
  • justamjustam Posts: 21,410
    edited January 2015
    TalonTedd, I find it funny that you think I've had a charmed life. I've had a HARD life.

    My resilient personality just keeps me bouncing back and not giving up. I've got my dad's genes to thank for that.
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  • TalonTeddTalonTedd Posts: 835
    My bad. I was unaware of your tribulations. Your posts gave me an overall immpression of good fortune, mainly because the tone is positive. I hope things go well.
    I remember when, yeah. I swore I knew everything, oh yeah.
  • TheiaTheia Posts: 145
    edited April 2015
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  • TheiaTheia Posts: 145
    isn't it nice to have some place to vent? :)
  • justamjustam Posts: 21,410
    Theia wrote: »
    isn't it nice to have some place to vent? :)

    Yes.

    I've come to realize that this PJ fan community is a real blessing in some ways. I have online PJ friends who I've been talking to on a regular basis for 15 years or so. They have provided a cushion of emotional support through three of these cross-country moves now. They have been a constant, like an extended family, through all these disruptions in the outside world.


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  • pickupyourwillpickupyourwill Posts: 3,135
    Justam, you had some kind advice for me about five or so years ago when I was going through some troubles. :) So I just wanted to get on here and repay the kindness. I will keep you in my prayers, girl. I hate to see others suffering in this way. He is very lucky to have someone who will be so flexible to move anywhere with him for a job. A big part of me wishes my mom had done that with my dad, been a team player, when he was going through all his unemployment back in the day. Your husband is lucky to have someone who still believes in him. Hang in there. Lots of love.
  • justamjustam Posts: 21,410
    :) Thanks pickupyourwill. <3
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