Safety

justam

I somehow thought I’d be safe if I kept quiet
and stayed far away
but my heart is vulnerable
Can’t I just be my own?!
Can’t I be visible only as another stranger blurred and covered by
the crowd in the bustling town?
seen only in glimpses and dreams, not fully viewed
not recognized as a familiar face
I can’t seem to get it right!
I’ve been keeping the distance real
keeping my life in the front of my attention
I’ve been giving you room to live without me
but in the last hour, I worried it might hurt if I left no gift
so I dropped off a humble token
but why do you care?
there’s no future here!
you made that painfully clear, dear
you left me alone so long
can’t I just be my own?!
can’t I just be invisible?!
I don’t want to start again
the exhausting loop just carelessly burnt the currency of my soul
I want to feel love and hope but
I want to keep my soul immersed in the real world
protected
and away from you

Theia

I like this, justam.
Leaves me with conflicted feelings.