Ashes to Ashes..

whispering hands

So I found this. I wrote this after I discovered that the love of my life, (or I thought he was.., I was really stupid back then...) had been cheating on me with my nemesis.. Yes I had a nemesis.. It crushed me, as you can see by the words I wrote.. Sadly I still feel this way...;

There are worlds; windows,
That I will never see.
From deep inside the shadows,
Of that the sin that bore me.

Carved in flesh; creeds,
To soothe the rage inside.
Ashamed of such void deeds,
Several scars I hide.

I am NOT what you wanted,
Until now, I never knew,
The pain if being haunted,
By the wicked things you do.

It is my right to die,
This means the world to me.
It shouldn't matter to you 'why?',
Cause your lies have set me free.

Labyrinth; sickening maze,
Wicked halls of shame.
Crooked smiles ignite the blaze,
Which of you do I blame?

Glimmering razors; destinies,
Crimson rivers flow.
The blade releases memories,
I wish I didn't know.

If you wish to know the truth,
What rages on inside?
Then that is what I share uncouth,
For I have nothing to hide,

Your secrets warranted lies,
My love you chose to bury.
I chose this death; not picking sides,
But now forever wary..

Memories of hate and love,
Indiscreet visions devide.
I gave in to the the pain of love,
Now, for loss of love I died.

I could never hold your hand,
My love was always true.
I was drowning in sinking sand,
And never had a clue!

Fantasies, dreams; all held in,
Grimm Reaper hear my cries!
Could he have loved me without this sin?
Or was my love for him my demise?

Visions of the now, and the past,
Dancing; they have intertwined.
I never guessed this wouldn't last,
This wasn't what I'd designed!

For him I'd given my all,
Over loss of him I wish to die!
But rising up, I refuse to fall,
For now I know that love's a lie!!

Ugh I hate that fucker!!

PJSiren

Beautifully written! I went through something similar....she wasn't me nemesis in fact I didn't even know her, but he was I thought the love of my life and I can sympathise with the feelings here very well...

Godfather.

you just wrote a greate blues song, I love it !

Godfather.