lost echo

chadwick

been having this emptiness my entire life & then some before i knew
normally it is this fighting that keeps us going (simply satisfied)
we can lose ourselves w/out trying
at least this is my experience
mostly i am a fucking asshole lost wherever it is that i am at

certain days are better than others
do i know which days are best?
no
they just are because that is how they unfold my day
falling into walls
stumbling around crashing into shit
dropping & more
& if i move this way or that
i promise to break all those things

then my skin feels like electricity
maybe im not very comfortable in my own bones
this is the great balance of nothing i am

but somehow i keep getting back up
like walked land that's alright after war
my own enemy
so a crawling corner holds me while i pull my hair fistfulls
just to stop is removed