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justam
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That last second of the day
it could be the last gasp of air
the last spark of life in a body
“Oh honey, please don’t go!!!!!!!!”
I know how it feels to want to
send the desperate plea
to beg,
to beg down on my knees!!!!
or spread flat out
humbly prostrate myself by your shoe
“Oh, honey please, honey please!
honey please!!
I think I’ll die!!!!!!!!”
people so often use the excuse
“I was drunk at 2am and left a message”
they don’t know they’d feel that way without drinking
I know
to keep that rope from disappearing off the side of the deck
they’d feel the rip
I’m experiencing the pain of letting go
and I do feel the desperation!!!!!!!
even while I don’t make that call
and I haven’t sent that note that begs
(because I don’t want to lose more time)
holding on isn’t right anymore
how could I even ask for the job I’d need to come along?!!!!!!
but I can cry and cry and feel the pain of letting go
without dishonesty
rather than be a cliche
and beg for a reprieve to avoid this grief
I’m trying to feel the pain now
and I’ve learned that
people feel this lack of restraint from
the experience of the bond of love pulling hard
there’s this voice inside wanting to scream
“But I love you, please don’t go!!!!!!!!!!”
to an outsider, it seems like weakness
to the insider, it feels like asphyxiation, death
while standing frozen and motionless
I can see that rope that ties us
racing across the deck
leaving!!
all because I dropped my end
and I’m screaming inside as I watch it go
it could be the last gasp of air
the last spark of life in a body
“Oh honey, please don’t go!!!!!!!!”
I know how it feels to want to
send the desperate plea
to beg,
to beg down on my knees!!!!
or spread flat out
humbly prostrate myself by your shoe
“Oh, honey please, honey please!
honey please!!
I think I’ll die!!!!!!!!”
people so often use the excuse
“I was drunk at 2am and left a message”
they don’t know they’d feel that way without drinking
I know
to keep that rope from disappearing off the side of the deck
they’d feel the rip
I’m experiencing the pain of letting go
and I do feel the desperation!!!!!!!
even while I don’t make that call
and I haven’t sent that note that begs
(because I don’t want to lose more time)
holding on isn’t right anymore
how could I even ask for the job I’d need to come along?!!!!!!
but I can cry and cry and feel the pain of letting go
without dishonesty
rather than be a cliche
and beg for a reprieve to avoid this grief
I’m trying to feel the pain now
and I’ve learned that
people feel this lack of restraint from
the experience of the bond of love pulling hard
there’s this voice inside wanting to scream
“But I love you, please don’t go!!!!!!!!!!”
to an outsider, it seems like weakness
to the insider, it feels like asphyxiation, death
while standing frozen and motionless
I can see that rope that ties us
racing across the deck
leaving!!
all because I dropped my end
and I’m screaming inside as I watch it go
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