Not Really Worth It, After All

PJSiren

I wrote this one a while back...before I met my husband..

Not Really Worth it, After All

There is a hole in me
Dark and empty
If you listen carefully
You can hear the remnants of my beating heart

Hollow space takes up residents in my chest
A haunting echo reverberates within
All that’s left is scar tissue
Where I used to have a heart

Just realized
Something I shoulda realized long ago
I give out good advice
But can’t seem to follow my own

I’ve been lying to myself
So long been hiding in the dark
But I’m waking up tonight
Cause you’re not really worth all those tears

I take a deep breath
And swallow back the pain
I realize I’m worth so much more
After all this time

This was my decision
My long time coming change
You never seemed to hear me
Never took the time to listen to my voice

I deserve more
I deserve better
That’s what I told you
In my long goodbye letter

I’ll leave it on the table
Turn and walk away
You won’t have a chance to question
I’ll be long god damned gone by the end of today