Alanon

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i don't do drugs
i sit near them and chat
i make excuses for them
i help, no, i enable them.

I laugh with them and scream at them and make love to them and raise children with them.

i cry for them. but keep silent in front of them.
until of course the excuses and the yelling and then I
throw it in their face.

it's okay though as i’m not remembered
and the beat goes on.
i don’t do drugs
because if i
Just Say No
what would i be left with?

the fear of new beginnings but especially endings leaves me terrified.
and so
see the aforementioned verses.