Changing the pattern

justamjustam Posts: 21,410
edited October 2013 in Poetry, Prose, Music & Art
Unless a person is living her days like a machine
churning out material of the same design because
it's a fabric factory and that's the best selling material,
it seems like a good idea to do something else once
the pattern has been firmly established!

How many days does it take to convince
a man you always love him?
I'm sure I've passed the number!
I'm sure I've sent enough telegrams
I'm sure I've sent enough flowers
I'm sure I've been kind enough
dreamy enough
warm enough
and reliable enough!

so it's not a matter of lack of love

it's a matter of doing it his way or
not doing it at all
with no discussion allowed!
and since his suggestion leaves me displaced
with no home
and no prospect of a home with him either
why isn't running away from a trap like this a good option?

call it suicide
call it sad
call it practical!
but the only options he's ever vaguely suggested
don't seem healthy to me
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  • AafkeAafke Posts: 1,219
    Difficult, but recognizable...
    Waves_zps6b028461.jpg
    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • AafkeAafke Posts: 1,219
    Stay true to yourself, cause there's only one way of live, and that's your own...
    Waves_zps6b028461.jpg
    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • TalonTeddTalonTedd Posts: 835
    Read Aafke's Last kiss...

    A lifetime passes and your man is in that bed.
    You are there but your attention isn't
    that's what I see. divine forgiveness, faxed directly into a waiting recycle bin.

    My feelings are despondent, right now. (thanks ladies)
    some are given it all...only to be molded into a beer
    coaster for Sunday football.

    You, are deserving something more.

    Thanks for the feelings
    To quote Aafke "feeling is healing"
    What a motive...gets me going.
    I remember when, yeah. I swore I knew everything, oh yeah.
  • amethgr8amethgr8 Posts: 766
    "drop the leash"
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  • TalonTeddTalonTedd Posts: 835
    amethgr8 wrote:
    "drop the leash"

    F'n right.
    I remember when, yeah. I swore I knew everything, oh yeah.
  • justamjustam Posts: 21,410
    This doesn't really mean what the two of you suppose, but I think a break is the solution here as well because continuing to hold on was like living in the Land of Nowhere.

    The Land of Nowhere is a place where nothing really happens, and nothing much changes, and the only truth is that it keeps one from living Outside and Elsewhere. That's how it's a drain.

    I don't like the view that anyone is a victim though. I have never considered myself a victim, ever, and I don't consider other people villains!! People are people. We all make mistakes. I make mistakes and I accept that others do too.

    It's just that I don't want to live with it anymore!
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  • AafkeAafke Posts: 1,219
    justam wrote:
    This doesn't really mean what the two of you suppose, but I think a break is the solution here as well because continuing to hold on was like living in the Land of Nowhere.

    The Land of Nowhere is a place where nothing really happens, and nothing much changes, and the only truth is that it keeps one from living Outside and Elsewhere. That's how it's a drain.

    I don't like the view that anyone is a victim though. I have never considered myself a victim, ever, and I don't consider other people villains!! People are people. We all make mistakes. I make mistakes and I accept that others do too.

    It's just that I don't want to live with it anymore!

    I think I understand what you mean, justjam. I don't see anyone as a victim or villain either. In my "last Kiss" it wasn't my intention to blame anyone, just to describe my feelings over what had happened. We all do make mistakes because we're humans. Every human has choices in how to deal with things. My choice has long been to shut up over what had happened. I kept it all to myself.. that wasn't healthy, so I just decided to speak out, not with the intention to make a victim out off myself, but to heal myself. Because just as justjam i didn't want to live with it alone anymore. In my opinion sharing isn't the same as blaming
    Waves_zps6b028461.jpg
    "The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed".- Carl Jung.
    "Art does not reproduce what we see; rather, it makes us see."- Paul Klee
  • amethgr8amethgr8 Posts: 766
    I don't think you're a victim.

    I wasn't a victim in my relationship which I outgrew (in a nutshell and in retrospect). It was plenty good for a long time, I got a lot, I gave a lot, I learned a lot. At the time of disbandment, it was I that was holding my leash.
    Amy The Great #74594
    New Orleans LA 7/4/95 reschedule 9/17/95
    Chicago IL 1998, 10/9/00, 06/18/03, 05/16/06, 05/17/06
    08/23/09, 08/24/09, Lolla 08/05/07
    Champaign IL 4/23/03
    Grand Rapids MI VFC 10/03/04
    Grand Rapids MI 19May06
    Noblesville IN 05/07/10 Cleveland OH 05/09/10
    PJ 20 2011
    Baltimore MD, Charlottesville VA, Seattle WA 2013
    St. Louis MO, Milwaukee WI 2014
    Tampa FL, Chicago IL, Lexington KY 2016
    Missoula MT 2018
  • TalonTeddTalonTedd Posts: 835
    Yeah, And I just got a whiff of whats a floatin' down that drain to nowhere. :lol::lol::lol::lol::lol:




    I'm sorry :(
    I'm sorry ;)
    But poetry...the drain to nowhere :ugeek: :lol::mrgreen:
    comedy gold :D
    do forgive...please. :oops:
    I remember when, yeah. I swore I knew everything, oh yeah.
  • justamjustam Posts: 21,410
    TalonTedd wrote:
    Yeah, And I just got a whiff of whats a floatin' down that drain to nowhere. :lol::lol::lol::lol::lol:




    I'm sorry :(
    I'm sorry ;)
    But poetry...the drain to nowhere :ugeek: :lol::mrgreen:
    comedy gold :D
    do forgive...please. :oops:

    It isn't a drain to nowhere!!!!!!!!!!

    It's a drain on energy.

    The place one is living is the Land of Nowhere.

    Get your fucking facts straight if you're gonna laugh at my expense.
    Geez.

    :roll:
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  • TalonTeddTalonTedd Posts: 835
    My sincere apologies madam.

    I was a little buzzed when I posted that regretable remark. I would also not be at all amused if someone were to make a joke about my feelings or poem. It won't happen again.

    I hope you will not make a final and negative judgement about my character based on that one comment.
    I see you have nearly 20, 000 posts on the 10C and I think your picture shows that you are a woman of substance, class and skill. I would like very much to be in your good graces.

    I'm truly sorry for offending you.

    Talon
    I remember when, yeah. I swore I knew everything, oh yeah.
  • justamjustam Posts: 21,410
    Thank you for the apology. I appreciate it.

    Sorry if I came across as someone with no sense of humor. :? :geek:

    :)
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