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Why I'm Following a Band at 49 yrs old..

ratmandoratmando Outside of Portland, or somewhere like that Posts: 347
edited October 2013 in The Porch
I'm more excited about seeing Pearl Jam this tour than I was at 28 living in New Mexico when there were about 130 of us in the ballroom at the Kiva. I walked from stage to back of the room, to the side where the band was jumping in and out of the room, grabbing their own gear. I've seen the show in San Francisco where Eddie started talking, then man... ten seconds .. off that stage, and you KNEW from where you were sitting that was the scent of a very sick man...and the show still went on. (I have a boot leg, kept the ticket, and did not see the make up show because that was one of a kind and I couldn't see a show replaced.) I've seen Mudhoney, Green River, Mother Love Bone, and I cried at a talk that Pete Townshend gave at SXSW in 2007.

I write and sing, and I'm disabled.. Unabled...alterabled. F the PC BS, because I'm a gimpy person who can't do what I want to do, and it sucks ass. It happened slowly and it happened in a way that was almost a constant, HA! Try playing guitar NOW! or HA! You think you can use that gorgeous piano now??! But I constantly built work arounds. I sing a lot. A whole lot. For myself, and for others. But I write for me, and others get it, so that's cool. That's why I have seen this band oodles of times in many formats and will continue to do so. Why? I'm the same age my grandma was when I was born....and I've never had kids, nor wanted to... and there's a lot to be said about being born in the 1960's, and not really aging like the folks born in the 1950''s. (we seem to be allergic to aging.)

This year, my husband made it possible for me to see four shows, and a friend I met on the board helped in this as well. I was able to buy a ticket for the fourth show because another fan, who loves the music and loves people who loves music was able to sell me a face value ticket to a second Los Angeles show. WHY? WHY does someone breaching 50 want to follow a band state to state just to hear music from other people around the same age? It's easy-- these are the people who grew up with me. These are my friends that I never met, or met, but may never meet again. They have families, they've had heartbreaks, they've kept their lives focused on music, just as I have, so that when the bad times were bad, the music could take them on a new journey.

Our friends have died. Our friends have broken our hearts. Our friends have found us when we've been in the deepest saddest moments and talked to us back to our humanity. These folks who work for this band, this band, the fans who have as much reason to love the music as I do, and who have stories of meeting each other, the band members, Kat and Sea, the beginning and run of Pearl Jam radio... hearing interviews and seeing people instead of these plumped up "what-a-stargaga" who may be greatly talented, but just don't feel like you could have a cup of coffee or talk about how shitty it was that the government in this country has it less together than some third world countries. You, me, anyone who feels like a real person talking Pearl Jam is because you see them as real people.

YES they have careers that in 1991, no one expected to be as big as (bigger than) the Rolling Stones. Yeah, there was a time when you could go hiking someplace and actually run into one of the guys just having a few days in the woods. Yes, there was a time that if you went to a coffee shop late at night, you may find some guy with a Composition notebook having coffee and talking about Henry Rollins newest tour, or Rock for Choice with Donita or Jennifer from L7. I still remember the great Bile drinking contest from lollapalooza. I can't give up on my friends wh have taken me from bad marriages to good marriage(!), from being alone in the desert in New Mexico, to living in 6 states, and surviving disability-- learning that one of them was just as screwed up but hid it better for years, and is now helping others.

I'm in love with these songs. I'm in love with the memories they gave me. I'm in love with the people I got to meet. I'm grateful that when I am in my worst pain, I can escape through their sounds. I'm excited to see familiar faces, who have been my allies whether they knew it or not. And these guys who are just guys with families, and lives, and fart, and say stupid stuff to their loved ones some times, and say loving things to stupid people sometimes... my music is dedicated to them. I'm dedicated to them. They are amazing to me. ..and that's why this old gimpy bag in wheelchair with service dog will be there again.... Not for the tshirts, not for the swag... just experiences. That's what the band is to me, and that's why I love them, and why I love others who love them.

love letter done...and...continues
When I hear music, I fear no danger. I am invulnerable. I see no foe. I am related to the earliest times, and to the latest.

Henry David Thoreau
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  • crazygeocrazygeo Posts: 2,380
    Holy shit
    Got to read this. Later
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  • PureandEasyPureandEasy Posts: 5,818
    Awesome post, love the passion, thanks for sharing.

    On my way into work today, walking into the entrance, I was feeling blah. A young woman entering in front me had a tote bag. It said music=life. I smiled and said, love your bag. Totally changed my day. Music has the ability to completely change your mood. Obviously, just seeing the word "music" is enough for me.

    I was on a natural high for a week after my first PJ show. That was 15 years ago. Boggles my mind how the anticipation of the next show hasn't waned one bit.

    Rock on and never stop. Best wishes to you.
    Don't come closer or I'll have to go
  • PureandEasyPureandEasy Posts: 5,818
    Oh and I forgot to mention, Pete Townshend is my favorite man on the planet. His words and music taught me how to FEEL.
    Don't come closer or I'll have to go
  • pjradiopjradio Posts: 6,704
    awesome...really! Awesome!
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  • SS9981SS9981 Posts: 1,729
    edited October 2013
    Know the feeling being 49 hang's on you. Everything doesn't work like it should, or used to. Love your spirit brother. This band has changed my life in more way's than I could ever describe here. Been place's I would have never seen. Did thing's I would never have done. Even helped me find the true love of my life, & it all started with me giving her a copy of Yield & telling her to listen to it, it will change your life. Turn's out, it changed both of our's! Godspeed my P.J. friend. We are doing 5 show's this tour, maybe we will pass each other, & wonder ,is that her?
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  • Leezestarr313Leezestarr313 Temple of the cat Posts: 14,440
    Thanks for sharing. You have a writing talent, that was an awesome read :thumbup: Enjoy your shows to the fullest, lady :wave:
  • PureandEasyPureandEasy Posts: 5,818
    Thanks for sharing. You have a writing talent, that was an awesome read :thumbup: Enjoy your shows to the fullest, lady :wave:

    Love that lady mention, why is it some guys miss the fact the OP is a woman. No offense, just find it funny.

    LOVE this thread. Makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.
    Don't come closer or I'll have to go
  • klusterfukklusterfuk Posts: 1,411
    good read. thanks for sharing.
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  • brianluxbrianlux Moving through All Kinds of Terrain. Posts: 43,564
    Nice love letter, ratmando. It fits in nicely with the Henry Rollins book I'm currently reading.

    By the way, I know what you mean about people born in the 50's aging. I'm so much younger than most of them myself.

    Sincerely,
    brianlux,
    8.5.51
    "It's a sad and beautiful world"
    -Roberto Benigni











  • ratmandoratmando Outside of Portland, or somewhere like that Posts: 347
    Thanks for sharing. You have a writing talent, that was an awesome read :thumbup: Enjoy your shows to the fullest, lady :wave:

    Love that lady mention, why is it some guys miss the fact the OP is a woman. No offense, just find it funny.

    LOVE this thread. Makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

    yup, born and remain female, but some of my guy pals are married to guy pals so its all good :clap::lol::wink:
    When I hear music, I fear no danger. I am invulnerable. I see no foe. I am related to the earliest times, and to the latest.

    Henry David Thoreau
  • ratmandoratmando Outside of Portland, or somewhere like that Posts: 347
    brianlux wrote:
    Nice love letter, ratmando. It fits in nicely with the Henry Rollins book I'm currently reading.

    By the way, I know what you mean about people born in the 50's aging. I'm so much younger than most of them myself.

    Sincerely,
    brianlux,
    8.5.51

    My top three:
    See A Grown Man Cry...
    Now Watch Him Die
    and
    Black Coffee Blues. I'm a full collector of the 2.13.61 catalog.
    :D
    When I hear music, I fear no danger. I am invulnerable. I see no foe. I am related to the earliest times, and to the latest.

    Henry David Thoreau
  • ChrisileinChrisilein Vienna/Austria Posts: 3,909
    really a nice read and great love letter! happy that you shared it with us!
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  • thats was brilliant!!awesome..thank you
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  • GibsonGibson Chicago Posts: 2,671
    I'm 30..
    Lost my dream job.. (I found another)
    Lost my fiancée..
    Moved to a new city and lost some old friends...

    You just cemented that I'm moving around some shifts and driving 8 hours to see PJ on this tour, because I still have Pearl Jam.

    thank you.
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  • Hell yeah keep on keeping on lady!
  • josevolutionjosevolution Posts: 31,398
    Great words to read i hope you have a great time at the shows after reading this and listening to some really great tunes i'm so pumped for the upcoming shows ....Thanks
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  • brianluxbrianlux Moving through All Kinds of Terrain. Posts: 43,564
    ratmando wrote:
    brianlux wrote:
    Nice love letter, ratmando. It fits in nicely with the Henry Rollins book I'm currently reading.

    By the way, I know what you mean about people born in the 50's aging. I'm so much younger than most of them myself.

    Sincerely,
    brianlux,
    8.5.51

    My top three:
    See A Grown Man Cry...
    Now Watch Him Die
    and
    Black Coffee Blues. I'm a full collector of the 2.13.61 catalog.
    :D

    Excellent! I have 14 of Rollins' book and have read most of them- currently reading A Dull Roar. I like your picks a lot. Smile, You're Traveling is also one of my favorites. Henry inspires me to keep going- "Hack or pack". What are some other favorite authors of yours put out by 2.13.61?
    "It's a sad and beautiful world"
    -Roberto Benigni











  • javis el errantejavis el errante Buenos Aires Posts: 6,144
    thanks for sharing with us, I loved to read your letter, I would love to read how it goes on...
    ... I am not in the business of being liked anymore ...

  • TJ25487TJ25487 Posts: 1,501
    Great post. You express what I'm sure a lot of us old timers feel from following the band for so many years.
    When I look back on my last 20 years I can't believe how much PJ or any band could have been such a big part of my day to day operations. I would have never guessed music playing such a big role in my life?
  • love it. absolutely loved it.
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  • ratmandoratmando Outside of Portland, or somewhere like that Posts: 347
    Oh and I forgot to mention, Pete Townshend is my favorite man on the planet. His words and music taught me how to FEEL.

    You rock cos MAN I get Pete... Empty Glass was my heart in every note and word. I listened to Who Are You until it was so warped it started to sound like the Comedian Harmonists singing in Belgian.
    When I hear music, I fear no danger. I am invulnerable. I see no foe. I am related to the earliest times, and to the latest.

    Henry David Thoreau
  • ratmandoratmando Outside of Portland, or somewhere like that Posts: 347
    SS9981 wrote:
    Know the feeling being 49 hang's on you. Everything doesn't work like it should, or used to. Love your spirit brother. This band has changed my life in more way's than I could ever describe here. Been place's I would have never seen. Did thing's I would never have done. Even helped me find the true love of my life, & it all started with me giving her a copy of Yield & telling her to listen to it, it will change your life. Turn's out, it changed both of our's! Godspeed my P.J. friend. We are doing 5 show's this tour, maybe we will pass each other, & wonder ,is that him?



    My wheelchair has a 1992 tshirt of the guys in cartoon form, and a stick man on the basket. My service dog is a chihuahua. My licence plate in CNMNGRL -- those are all me :)
    When I hear music, I fear no danger. I am invulnerable. I see no foe. I am related to the earliest times, and to the latest.

    Henry David Thoreau
  • ratmandoratmando Outside of Portland, or somewhere like that Posts: 347
    Thanks for sharing. You have a writing talent, that was an awesome read :thumbup: Enjoy your shows to the fullest, lady :wave:


    Thanks dollface!!!! Gonna make it a life's mission to drink in every note and laugh with all my joy.
    When I hear music, I fear no danger. I am invulnerable. I see no foe. I am related to the earliest times, and to the latest.

    Henry David Thoreau
  • ratmandoratmando Outside of Portland, or somewhere like that Posts: 347
    Gibson wrote:
    I'm 30..
    Lost my dream job.. (I found another)
    Lost my fiancée..
    Moved to a new city and lost some old friends...

    You just cemented that I'm moving around some shifts and driving 8 hours to see PJ on this tour, because I still have Pearl Jam.

    thank you.


    Our patterns make up our paths, and sometimes our paths alter our patterns... but whatever you do, keep the music in you. It's doing great things for your heart.
    When I hear music, I fear no danger. I am invulnerable. I see no foe. I am related to the earliest times, and to the latest.

    Henry David Thoreau
  • ratmandoratmando Outside of Portland, or somewhere like that Posts: 347
    [quote="brianlux"

    Excellent! I have 14 of Rollins' book and have read most of them- currently reading A Dull Roar. I like your picks a lot. Smile, You're Traveling is also one of my favorites. Henry inspires me to keep going- "Hack or pack". What are some other favorite authors of yours put out by 2.13.61?[/quote]

    I performed with Don Bejema at Above Brainwash so I'm partial to him, and when I met exene cervenka, we were lying on the floor at a music performance at Calarts, and I had sweat pants on while everyone else was dressed to the 9s. I was wearing a shirt from India and eating snow peas, quietly lighting a candle for every song I loved. She lied down next to me and tucked her dress into her underwear, saying, 'I like your style", so I'm partial to her, too.
    When I hear music, I fear no danger. I am invulnerable. I see no foe. I am related to the earliest times, and to the latest.

    Henry David Thoreau
  • southernmanfansouthernmanfan Johannesburg, South Africa Posts: 1,029
    Also 49 and born in the sixties and relate totally to your great read! :)
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  • jlaustinjlaustin Ann Arbor, MI Posts: 2,355
    47 years young here... Your words are very inspiring! Thanks for posting! Glad you are enjoying the wave where it takes you...
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  • PureandEasyPureandEasy Posts: 5,818
    ratmando wrote:
    Thanks for sharing. You have a writing talent, that was an awesome read :thumbup: Enjoy your shows to the fullest, lady :wave:

    Love that lady mention, why is it some guys miss the fact the OP is a woman. No offense, just find it funny.

    LOVE this thread. Makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

    yup, born and remain female, but some of my guy pals are married to guy pals so its all good :clap::lol::wink:

    Believe me, I'm all for whatever makes you happy, as long as you're not hurting anyone else.

    I actually think the "brother" and "man" references is because at one time, people assumed all PJ fans were guys. :lol:
    Don't come closer or I'll have to go
  • bigbadbillbigbadbill Posts: 1,758
    I started listening to Pearl Jam when I was 18 (end of 1992). I'm going to be 39 next month and I'm still a die hard fan.
    I saw them in 1995, 1997, 1998, 2000, 2003, 2006, 2009 and soon 2013. Eddie Vedder in 2008 and 2011. Brad in 2010, Flight To Mars in 2012, and RNDM in 2012 and 2013. I saw Soundgarden way back in 1996. So, I have seen Pearl Jam as a whole, and each of them in their other bands/solo.
    11/6/95, 11/18/97, 7/13/98, 7/14/98, 10/24/00, 10/25/00, 10/28/00, 6/2/03, 6/3/03, 6/5/03, 7/6/06, 7/7/06, 7/9/06, 7/10/06, 7/13/06, 7/15/06, 7/16/06, 7/18/06, 10/21/06, 4/10/08, 4/13/08, 9/30/09, 10/1/09, 10/6/09, 10/7/09, 10/9/09
  • ratmandoratmando Outside of Portland, or somewhere like that Posts: 347
    bigbadbill wrote:
    I started listening to Pearl Jam when I was 18 (end of 1992). I'm going to be 39 next month and I'm still a die hard fan.
    I saw them in 1995, 1997, 1998, 2000, 2003, 2006, 2009 and soon 2013. Eddie Vedder in 2008 and 2011. Brad in 2010, Flight To Mars in 2012, and RNDM in 2012 and 2013. I saw Soundgarden way back in 1996. So, I have seen Pearl Jam as a whole, and each of them in their other bands/solo.


    Enjoy that first 39th...hoping there's a lot of them coming your way!!
    When I hear music, I fear no danger. I am invulnerable. I see no foe. I am related to the earliest times, and to the latest.

    Henry David Thoreau
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