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Just wanted to share a really meaningful moment

samjamsamjam New York Posts: 9,283
edited July 2013 in The Porch
I haven't been able to stop thinking about this since it happened.

Small backstory: I lost my Dad a month before my 20th birthday, this past September. He was my hero and was the one who taught me to love music.

A couple days ago, I was taking a train to a concert, on a line I had never taken before and was unfamiliar with. I was thinking and minding my own business, when a beautiful live version of Release came on my iPod. Right at the part that goes 'Oh dear dad can you see me now?,' I turn to my left--unprompted, I had been looking forward the whole time and don't know why at that moment I turned---and I was staring right at the cemetery my dad is buried in. I had the chills for the rest of the ride.

I've been using PJ's music as a form of healing, or at least to aid in the process of healing, as I'm still unsure if I will ever fully recover from this loss. I frequently listen to Release, Come Back, Light Years, MOTH, etc...but have never experienced a more powerful moment between myself and PJ's music than those few seconds on the train.
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  • Dead Man WalkingDead Man Walking Toronto-ish Posts: 2,762
    Thanks for sharing. Great moment.
  • shetellsherselfshetellsherself New Jersey Posts: 8,835
    Really beautiful.
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  • Given to...Given to... Wyoming Posts: 5,007
    Thanks for sharing. Very powerful and moving song. Your dad has great taste in music
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  • SuziemaySuziemay Posts: 11,168
    Wow. Big hug to you Sam.
  • CROJAM95CROJAM95 Posts: 10,259
    That's why I have release lyrics tattoo'd on my leg.... Lost my Dad when I was 26 a few years back.


    The band helped tremendously

    Stay strong
  • ladydocNYCladydocNYC Posts: 635
    So sorry for your loss. So young to lose a parent. Really changes your life, no matter when it happens.

    Glad you had that moment. That's really intense and powerful. :!:
  • InLukinsFridgeInLukinsFridge Posts: 597
    Wow. Beautiful. Thanks for sharing... hang in there man. Much love to you.
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  • lcusicklcusick Posts: 310
    This gave me goosebumps! I hope PJ continues to help you heal.
  • jened10jened10 Posts: 171
    Sorry for the loss of your dad. Glad you have PJ to help you get through.
  • oceaninmyeyesoceaninmyeyes Posts: 4,646
    samjam - I love those little "coincidences". And I really do believe that they are messages from beyond. I lost my sister a little over a year ago. Right after my sis died, a hummingbird moth suddenly appeared at my house. I hadn't seen one in the 10+ years I have lived in this state, but remembered them from growing up in Kansas. My sister loved hummingbirds. That moth hung around for days until it died in a flower pot near my front door. On Thursday, as I arrived at Wrigley, sound check started and I was smiling from ear-to-ear -- a moment of pure joy. And as I glanced to my right, in a huge pot of flowers, there was another hummingbird moth, the first one I had seen since the one at my front door. It felt like my heart stopped for a moment, and I got goose bumps looking at it, and it seemed to wait until I snapped its picture. When Come Back started on Friday, the tears rolled. For Sarah and Adam, for me, for you, and for all of us who are missing somebody we still love so much. Peace, friend.
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  • gotsome10gotsome10 Posts: 139
    Very sorry to hear about the lose of your dad.. y best friend lost his dad when we were 17 and I was with him everyday after for a long time. After a few weeks i got him to listen to release and MOTH because the reminded me of the awesome person his father was. My friend wasn't a Pj fan and still really isn't but he fell in love with those two songs. The first time he heard them he didn't say anything for awhile and i didn't know how to respond. He eventually thanked me and said that the songs just really reminded him of his father but honestly helped him feel better about the situation. I hope Pj's music continues to help you get through this struggle like its helped countless others, including me and my friend.
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  • samjamsamjam New York Posts: 9,283
    Thank you all. I really appreciate it. Pearl Jam's music has helped out so tremendously, but even further, so has the community. This band is so much more than just their music!

    It's little moments like what happened a few days ago that put my mind at ease. I totally thought I'd feel my Dad's presence around a whole lot more than I actually do--which bothers me more than I'd like it to--so that moment was really big for me.

    He was such an incredible man. My dad laid down my musical foundation, teaching me about The Who, The Beatles, Pink Floyd, Hendrix, etc., and I took on music as an obsession from there. Finding PJ was all my doing, and once I got hooked I absolutely LOVED sharing songs and my excitement about the band with him. Unlike my mom, he was always interested to hear what I had to say (read: ramble about :lol: ), as he once said, "I'm proud of you and your music thing! You remind me of me when I was a teenager!" I'll never forget watching The Who Rock Honors with him (The Who were his favorite band of all time, and one of my favorites too), and after PJ's performance he had tears in his eyes and said, "SHIT, that was good!" He also told me, shortly before he passed, that he wanted to someday see a PJ show with me. That meant so much and made me incredibly happy! I would have brought him along to a show this tour, and I'm really sad I won't be able to. I keep joking that he actually wins though, since he gets to go to ALL of the shows!
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  • idreaminredidreaminred Posts: 314
    samjam wrote:
    I haven't been able to stop thinking about this since it happened.

    Small backstory: I lost my Dad a month before my 20th birthday, this past September. He was my hero and was the one who taught me to love music.

    A couple days ago, I was taking a train to a concert, on a line I had never taken before and was unfamiliar with. I was thinking and minding my own business, when a beautiful live version of Release came on my iPod. Right at the part that goes 'Oh dear dad can you see me now?,' I turn to my left--unprompted, I had been looking forward the whole time and don't know why at that moment I turned---and I was staring right at the cemetery my dad is buried in. I had the chills for the rest of the ride.

    I've been using PJ's music as a form of healing, or at least to aid in the process of healing, as I'm still unsure if I will ever fully recover from this loss. I frequently listen to Release, Come Back, Light Years, MOTH, etc...but have never experienced a more powerful moment between myself and PJ's music than those few seconds on the train.


    Love that!
  • PureandEasyPureandEasy Posts: 5,818
    samjam wrote:
    I haven't been able to stop thinking about this since it happened.

    Small backstory: I lost my Dad a month before my 20th birthday, this past September. He was my hero and was the one who taught me to love music.

    A couple days ago, I was taking a train to a concert, on a line I had never taken before and was unfamiliar with. I was thinking and minding my own business, when a beautiful live version of Release came on my iPod. Right at the part that goes 'Oh dear dad can you see me now?,' I turn to my left--unprompted, I had been looking forward the whole time and don't know why at that moment I turned---and I was staring right at the cemetery my dad is buried in. I had the chills for the rest of the ride.

    I've been using PJ's music as a form of healing, or at least to aid in the process of healing, as I'm still unsure if I will ever fully recover from this loss. I frequently listen to Release, Come Back, Light Years, MOTH, etc...but have never experienced a more powerful moment between myself and PJ's music than those few seconds on the train.


    reading this gave me chills sam, thanks for sharing this with all of us.
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  • NH268542NH268542 Posts: 19
    Thanks for the post Sam. I can relate to your story for sure. Pearl Jam brings out emotions that no other band does for me. At Wrigley, as they're playing Release, all of a sudden tears are coming down my face. I was supposed to take my pops to his first pj show but he is terminally ill and not well enough to travel to chicago. Listening and singing along to release just got the best of me. Sorry for your loss.
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  • rr165892rr165892 Posts: 5,697
    As Teresa the Long Island medium would say"that is the soul of the departed validating that they were with you at that very moment".I truly believe we get signs all the time from those that pass,we usually just aren't open to receive them.good for you.
    I'm going to rock some Release now for your pops,and mine too.
  • jumbojetjumbojet Posts: 1,484
    samjam wrote:
    Thank you all. I really appreciate it. Pearl Jam's music has helped out so tremendously, but even further, so has the community. This band is so much more than just their music!

    It's little moments like what happened a few days ago that put my mind at ease. I totally thought I'd feel my Dad's presence around a whole lot more than I actually do--which bothers me more than I'd like it to--so that moment was really big for me.

    He was such an incredible man. My dad laid down my musical foundation, teaching me about The Who, The Beatles, Pink Floyd, Hendrix, etc., and I took on music as an obsession from there. Finding PJ was all my doing, and once I got hooked I absolutely LOVED sharing songs and my excitement about the band with him. Unlike my mom, he was always interested to hear what I had to say (read: ramble about :lol: ), as he once said, "I'm proud of you and your music thing! You remind me of me when I was a teenager!" I'll never forget watching The Who Rock Honors with him (The Who were his favorite band of all time, and one of my favorites too), and after PJ's performance he had tears in his eyes and said, "SHIT, that was good!" He also told me, shortly before he passed, that he wanted to someday see a PJ show with me. That meant so much and made me incredibly happy! I would have brought him along to a show this tour, and I'm really sad I won't be able to. I keep joking that he actually wins though, since he gets to go to ALL of the shows!

    RIP-your father. Apparently, he was an incredible man, having such good taste in music. I am jealous of him having established such a relationship with his son, meaning you. I will also be happy if I can manage in future to hook my kid(s) with some of these great bands, without seeming to enforce anything. It is such a delicate balance of relationship between parents and kids.

    I am also glad that the reference of Man of the Hour has been mentioned, it is also such a great song for father/parent love.
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  • CJMST3KCJMST3K Posts: 9,722
    A very touching moment. It's the briefest ones that can have the most impact.
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  • loix71loix71 Posts: 283
    so sad for the loss of your dad.
    It's great if PJ can help you during this hard moments.
    thankds for sharing
    i wish you the best Sam :wink:
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  • RiotZactRiotZact Posts: 6,270
    Wow that's awesome, so sorry for your loss I can't even immigine what you went/are going through.
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