Inconvenient Feelings

justam

I let that anger out of the bag it was buried in
and I don't want to just stuff it down again
but I don't know what to do with it!
I don't know where to put it!
when I don't run from it,
it makes me feel so uncomfortable!
tell me, what does a person do with unwanted emotions?
it's not as if I want to be angry

I don't want to be angry!
I don't want to be disillusioned!
I don't want to be negative!
and yet, it has happened to me
and I'm angry about that too

I prefer being a trusting soul
one full of love
and colors and tunes
how am I supposed to get back there from here?!

how am I supposed to pass through this minefield
when I can't even hold your hand?

vogonpoetbythelake

good questions!

catefrances

i can tell you what i do with unwanted emotions...

i choke on them, drown them and/or vent them in my writing. it just depends on my mood.

justam

I have been writing a lot but most of it is not for public consumption! :geek:

catefrances

thats ok... youre writing, thats the important thing.

rollings

justam wrote:

I let that anger out of the bag it was buried in

poetic

justam

rollings wrote:

justam wrote:

I let that anger out of the bag it was buried in

poetic

:geek:

If you say so, I'll assume you aren't trying to be mean by suggesting I'm an old bag.

:twisted:

rollings

justam wrote:

rollings wrote:

justam wrote:

I let that anger out of the bag it was buried in

poetic

:geek:

If you say so, I'll assume you aren't trying to be mean by suggesting I'm an old bag.

:twisted:

that's a good idea

justam

rollings wrote:

that's a good idea

Okay.


You know I keep an eye on you because your sense of humor is a bit rougher than mine! :P

donnaruhl

Piss on them!

Those obnoxious feelings of anger seem to have come full circle.
As they should. That long ass path to healing.
Try something out of your comfort zone.
Maybe change your surroundings.
Do something selfish and fun.Live,not Loathe.
You'll look back one day, and measure all the Energy Wasted.

justam

donnaruhl wrote:

Piss on them!

Those obnoxious feelings of anger seem to have come full circle.
As they should. That long ass path to healing.
Try something out of your comfort zone.
Maybe change your surroundings.
Do something selfish and fun.Live,not Loathe.
You'll look back one day, and measure all the Energy Wasted.

Don't worry. I've been feeling better since I cleared it out.

lazloblue

I really liked this one Justam. Can relate to the full on emotional angst. Thanks for sharing.

amethgr8

yes, I have been there. I probably had more anger against myself, and it's clear in the RVM, for not seeing it coming. But who can be mad at themselves when someone has (perceived) wronged you? so much easier to be mad with them. So I felt like a fool, have a learned nothing in this life? ugh!

Oh it took me years to figure this out. I'm sorry to say that a very small percentage of the world can I trust with my feelings. Call it what you will, but I keep it up until someone has proven they are worthy of my belief. We grow up (typically) in a trusting environment and when our parents tell us in our teens "now you have to be careful of who you associate with", we really have no idea. By that time all we hear is the Charlie brown teacher "wa wa wa wa" and we go on our way.

I say hi to people I don't know, I notice peoples name tags and address them by it, overall just try to promote some mutual respect humanism in the world. this is how I overcome the cyncical fact that you really can't trust too many people. I smile to people when they make eye contact.

when you love fully and unconditionally you have done nothing wrong. and so when I look back on some failed relationships and start to overanalyze, or think I was the problem, what did I do wrong. I know I didn't anything but love them in my capacity. they didn't like that capacity. they didn't want me to go to PJ shows, which proves their love for me was conditional. they thought I called too much and didn't know how to communicate that to me. I'll admit I've done some crazy stuff but it was never with malice.

None of these experiences are a waste if you learn something about yourself. You cannot say that you have failed at something if you learn something from it. it's not a black and white world, it's a process, processes move forward and sometimes change, sometimes only parts change.

I had a better life when I took emphasis off of one specific part of my life and rounded it out as a whole, doing things I wanted to better myself. Then I have a better chance of meeting someone who maybe doing the same thing, and our paths through life cross or run parallel. Its sticks for awhile and maybe forever if you're lucky.


again, take it light. I'm not sure that I know what I'm talking about in relationship to what you're talking about.

peace,

amy

justam

Amy, the main thing I continue to learn is that strong love doesn't die, it just transforms and goes on. :? :oops:
:geek:

amethgr8

it's a very broad subject-love. I get ya.

the love I have for an alcoholic ex boyfriend isn't love anymore, it's pity, or just nothingness. did that love transform?

my strong love for humanity will never die, I guess it's "moving on" to different people thruout my life?

amy

amethgr8

I'm curious your thoughts, in a general sense, is my conclusion kindof accurate, I realize it's theory.

amy

justam

amethgr8 wrote:

I'm curious your thoughts, in a general sense, is my conclusion kindof accurate, I realize it's theory.

amy

Amy, I'm not sure what you're really asking me so I don't really know how to answer you.

Send me a pm.

k9s4Bern

This stopped my heart upon reading it...it could be me - You are so right - inconvenient feelings - thanks for putting them in perspective.