A Sacrifice

justam

I guess this love was a sacrifice
left for the God of your biggest project
this long love was beautiful and true
it pulls me, still
it pulls me to see and change
and it has pulled me out of my silence
so I'll tell you how it got to this place
this place where I can't hear you anymore

it's hard for me to say it out loud
but my trust was there until the last time
(I arrived with open ears and open eyes)
but you were so far away and gone
so obviously entrenched where you're living
surrounded by your whole adopted clan!

now i remember all the time
when my belief was taken for granted
and my love was used as fuel
but I am reminding myself that I gave it freely
(when I feel badly)
and we have reached a day where
even though I WANT to believe you,
my body's memory won't let me!

every time I even consider it,
the tears come to warn me: "Don't do it!"
I am disappointed at such an end to the story
but my trust in these vague, undirected promises
has finally been depleted

unbelievably, I'm disappointed that
I can't seem to move my mind
with my heart this time
so, the best I can do is to
let you know that I still love you
and tell you I'm sorry

Annafalk

Thank you for sharing this lovely poem

justam

Thanks for reading it Annafalk.

lazloblue

Wow, pretty powerful.