No Armor

justamjustam Posts: 21,410
edited March 2013 in Poetry, Prose, Music & Art
I don't attack other people
my first habit is to say nothing when I'm upset
slam shut, clam up
leave the room, close the door
from my relationships, I've learned that this isn't helpful
so, I try to sort through my feelings and spill them when I can

of course, there's still a lingering anxiety attached to
revelation for me
but I practice being brave and speak anyway
even though my body is afraid of the possible slap-up-side-the-head
or embarrrassment

since I have a choice, I make an effort not to hurt other people
so often that means I don't defend myself when
people behave in aggressive ways
I think this is often misunderstood
as if people think I don't notice or
don't feel the pain

I don't think I'll ever be able to tell you
how disappointed I am that
you were distant rather than close
and secretive rather than honest
during those days that passed
and all that time I loved you,
listened to you,
and trusted you
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  • donnaruhldonnaruhl Posts: 2,157
    justam wrote:
    I don't attack other people
    my first habit is to say nothing when I'm upset
    slam shut, clam up
    leave the room, close the door
    from my relationships, I've learned that this isn't helpful
    so, I try to sort through my feelings and spill them when I can

    of course, there's still a lingering anxiety attached to
    revelation for me
    but I practice being brave and speak anyway
    even though my body is afraid of the possible slap-up-side-the-head
    or embarrrassment

    since I have a choice, I make an effort not to hurt other people
    so often that means I don't defend myself when
    people behave in aggressive ways
    I think this is often misunderstood
    as if people think I don't notice or
    don't feel the pain

    I don't think I'll ever be able to tell you
    how disappointed I am that
    you were distant rather than close
    and secretive rather than honest
    during those days that passed
    and all that time I loved you,
    listened to you,
    and trusted you
    :clap::clap: I can so relate. Great Job!
  • justamjustam Posts: 21,410
    Thanks donnaruhl. :)
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