Deadlocked

donnaruhl

Deadlocked in thoughts
How did I get here?How do I get out,
Where will I go? How will I get there?
Money! I need Money!
I can slowly save.How long will that take?
I only make enough to get by!
Shit! That could take years!!
I'm not getting any younger,
And I'm growing so tired.
All alone with my thoughts,Not good!
Can't tell a soul,They might let it slip.
If I stay,I'll wither
I'll simply waste away.
It's not like I'm doing anything for myself anyway.
I don't even know what it is that I want anymore.
I used to know how to do for myself,
And that wasn't too long ago.
Did I forget?,or just give up?
God! How I wish I knew you,
Really knew you,Before we married.