The Optimist
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The Optimist
Ally gave me a ride home from the bar because I was drunker than her.
She’s my friend’s girlfriend which by default makes us friends but never close friends
She needed a few rounds of small talk
Her boyfriend was away on a skiing trip all weekend
In the car on the way back she says, “Thanks for keeping me company tonight. Didn’t feel like sitting around the apartment alone. I’ve been going crazy these last few days, just feeling real lonely
Ally is a very pretty girl. The kind you can fall in love with the idea of falling in love with. She hasn’t been single more than two weeks since she was 13. She hadn’t slept by herself since she was 17, up until a few days ago.
She says, “I can’t wait for him to get back. Ha, I’ve even converted to sleeping with a stuffed animal like when I was a kid. I’ve been wearing his t-shirts to bed as nightgowns. They carry his scent you know. Christ tomorrow really can’t come soon enough. And it sucks, I’ll be at work when he gets back”
She takes a breather and I collect my thoughts. After a few I ask, “What’s it like?”
“What’s what like?”
“Forget it”
“No, what?”
“What’s it like to not be lonely?”
“Huh?”
“I mean like how does it feel to not be alone? I always imagined…I always imagined it’s kind of like when you’re laughing at a joke or something and for those few seconds or minutes or whatever you’re happy. But you’re not consciously thinking about how you’re happy you just are. I could see it being like that. Maybe not all the time but like throughout the day here and there. That’s pretty close right?”
“………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………”
“I guess it’s hard to explain huh? I don’t know, I’ve always been alone and its ok I guess. At first I thought that would change and then I thought it never would. But you know what? I truly believe, I really think I’m going to find the right person someday. I think it’s possible for me to be happy and I think it’s going to happen, maybe not now but at some point in time. And I won’t be lonely anymore. I know for a fact that it’s going to happen for me, you’ll see. I just know it. It has to”
Ally gave me a ride home from the bar because I was drunker than her.
She’s my friend’s girlfriend which by default makes us friends but never close friends
She needed a few rounds of small talk
Her boyfriend was away on a skiing trip all weekend
In the car on the way back she says, “Thanks for keeping me company tonight. Didn’t feel like sitting around the apartment alone. I’ve been going crazy these last few days, just feeling real lonely
Ally is a very pretty girl. The kind you can fall in love with the idea of falling in love with. She hasn’t been single more than two weeks since she was 13. She hadn’t slept by herself since she was 17, up until a few days ago.
She says, “I can’t wait for him to get back. Ha, I’ve even converted to sleeping with a stuffed animal like when I was a kid. I’ve been wearing his t-shirts to bed as nightgowns. They carry his scent you know. Christ tomorrow really can’t come soon enough. And it sucks, I’ll be at work when he gets back”
She takes a breather and I collect my thoughts. After a few I ask, “What’s it like?”
“What’s what like?”
“Forget it”
“No, what?”
“What’s it like to not be lonely?”
“Huh?”
“I mean like how does it feel to not be alone? I always imagined…I always imagined it’s kind of like when you’re laughing at a joke or something and for those few seconds or minutes or whatever you’re happy. But you’re not consciously thinking about how you’re happy you just are. I could see it being like that. Maybe not all the time but like throughout the day here and there. That’s pretty close right?”
“………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………”
“I guess it’s hard to explain huh? I don’t know, I’ve always been alone and its ok I guess. At first I thought that would change and then I thought it never would. But you know what? I truly believe, I really think I’m going to find the right person someday. I think it’s possible for me to be happy and I think it’s going to happen, maybe not now but at some point in time. And I won’t be lonely anymore. I know for a fact that it’s going to happen for me, you’ll see. I just know it. It has to”
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