january 31, 2002 (january cold death)

chadwick

your entire family january their ending
goodbye dad
before dad goodbye grandpa
earlier still goodbye grandma
all three winter entombments
to this day three headstones are frozen
even july's heat & fireworks display... frosted over chiseled inscription keeps on keeping on

i remember frozen ravens hid from blistering winds
screaming blasting gusts
held us living coddeled us breathing without sunshine or dry eyes
iced over faces eyeballs unable to close frozen open

don't know how they dug over the years three holes
january ground
no green grass
january ground hard as a baseball bat
january earth worms are down lower
beneath the frost line
will they come visit
will they come visit
oneday worms'll come visit us all

january the promised land takes us all by the hand
one fucking day january blisstering winds takes us down low
lower than frost's hand

not me fuckers
i'm jumpin in the ovens
dump my ass ashes across january's cold ass land

not me fuckers
i'm jumpin in the ovens
dump my ass ashes across january's cold ass land

our red white & blue salutes grandpa & dad
our red white & blue salutes grandpa & dad
only steps apart lying cold
soldiers' circle spills blood red
soldiers' circle spills blood january blood thick cold
that's how the heart stops beating like a drum

our red white & blue salutes grandpa & dad
our red white & blue salutes grandpa & dad
only steps apart lying cold
soldiers' circle spills blood red
soldiers' circle spills blood january blood thick cold
that's how the heart stops beating like a drum

grandma's january ghost is next
grandma's january ghost is next
next january am i next