hero times twelve

mysticweed

you are my hero
now and always
my big brave strong handsome man
now lay broken and crumpled
a wretch tears through me
up my spine
down my throat
the tremors in your limbs
rip through my heart
your hollow sallow cheeks
make my stomach rise
choking my heart on its way
your cold hands trembling in mine
shiver through the hollow core where my soul once resided
you have a lot of nerve
leaving me like this
i'm sure one day
i will forgive you
i thought I would be ready
i was wrong
i was so fucking wrong

rollings

I am so affected by this
what you wrote
I could feel it

my dear friend
i am so sorry

mysticweed

rollings wrote:

I am so affected by this
what you wrote
I could feel it

my dear friend
i am so sorry

thank you, dear friend
got a little drunk last night
i've been scared to drink, that i might just keep drinking
but
that is not going to be an issue
bleccchhh

justam

I had a lot of thoughts about this one. First, I wanted to give you a hug.

Second, I wanted to say that when my mom's husband died of lymphoma, she was heart-broken and felt really guilty about also being angry at her husband for leaving her alone. Her grief counselor told her it was very normal to feel that way. You probably already know that, but I thought I'd share it with you because it helped my mom feel less guilty about being angry. :geek:

the wolf

I wish I could wrap you up in comfort and make you feel that everything will be okay.
I wish I could say something, anything at all to help you the way you've helped and supported me.
Alas, I'm just not that good with words.

I'm sorry.

Sending my prayers, and love.

Be well

Godfather.

I wish I could help.
love and respect.

Jeff.

mysticweed

you all have helped more than you could possibly know
yes, steve, your grasp of the language just baffles me
thanks for the laugh

pandora

mysticweed wrote:

you are my hero
now and always
my big brave strong handsome man
now lay broken and crumpled
a wretch tears through me
up my spine
down my throat
the tremors in your limbs
rip through my heart
your hollow sallow cheeks
make my stomach rise
choking my heart on its way
your cold hands trembling in mine
shiver through the hollow core where my soul once resided
you have a lot of nerve
leaving me like this
i'm sure one day
i will forgive you
i thought I would be ready
i was wrong
i was so fucking wrong

your words a dedication to love to life

you make it so that I can imagine,
so much so it scares me

now I'm crying here and at a loss of more to say

I am so very sorry for this

love stays ... you will always have the love

mysticweed

thanks, all
thanks, pandi, as usual,
your words fall sweet