father,

acrossssSsssshitttacrossssSsssshittt Posts: 1,014
edited February 2011 in Poetry, Prose, Music & Art
would you have done things different
if you knew then
that this is how it would be?

after all these years
…I wish you had
and right now
I wish we could talk

it’s been long
23 years, there’s so much gone
I’m starting to forget
how you sang those songs
and if you were here now
I’d ask you what you think of me
… just by looking at me

what made you do the things you did?
…things to make us leave
I hope you did not bleed
because it hurts
when this life feels lonely

I try to keep the bad inside me
else everyone would leave
…I wonder what you’d think of me
I think you’d see I’m weak
…funny
because you tried to make me hard
…you hated the weak

maybe you’d laugh at me
maybe you’d cry

with me

they say you look at ease
…it makes me wonder
in the distance
I once met a little girl
…your daughter
and I’d hoped you’d bleed

but now…

father I only look at me

and I’m only sorry
you had to make us leave
…that I am the way I am,
that things are
how they have to be

and after all these years
I wish this were not how

it must be

(here’s to you
I hope you’re at ease)
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Comments

  • mysticweedmysticweed Posts: 3,710
    fuck
    fuck 'em if they can't take a joke

    "what a long, strange trip it's been"
  • rollingsrollings Posts: 7,124
    remarkable conveyance
  • mikalinamikalina Posts: 7,206
    Very good Shehzad...


    its easy to have kids - but very difficult to be a good parent...
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  • mikalina wrote:
    Very good Shehzad...


    its easy to have kids - but very difficult to be a good parent...

    yeah... and there are those who learn to move on.. i keep going back...I'm stupid
  • rollingsrollings Posts: 7,124
    mikalina wrote:
    Very good Shehzad...


    its easy to have kids - but very difficult to be a good parent...

    yeah... and there are those who learn to move on.. i keep going back...I'm stupid

    or maybe part of that moving on involves going back
    And you're not stupid. Perhaps you just don't give yourself credit for knowing what you know
  • Godfather.Godfather. Posts: 12,504
    mikalina wrote:
    Very good Shehzad...


    its easy to have kids - but very difficult to be a good parent...

    yeah... and there are those who learn to move on.. i keep going back...I'm stupid

    If you were my son I would be proud of you,I believe that your father is in your heart and also very proud of you, btw XLNT writing my Brother.

    Godfather.
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