speaking of movies . . .

weed

there wasn't anything HAPPY about it

medication at the time
made things fuzzy
but it didn't keep me
from thinking that
something wierd
was going on

I did like you
let me repeat :
YES I DID LIKE YOU ! ! ! ! ! !
but I was scared off
by the one that asked me
so I lied
cause I didn't think
she knew anything
about it
or the fact
that you liked me

I don't remember
alot from back then
like your name
but I do remember
talking about something
that you mentioned
not long ago
but I didn't have that
shit caused by acid
or whatever
that was just something
that two people
were trying to make
me think I had
at the time I really
didn't know what it was
but they insisted that
I had it

if that was you
or anyone that thinks
they might fit in here

no need for me
to ask those that knew
cause you know
how everything in my life is :

I could be standing there
with three other people
watching a dog do tricks
one would be taking polaroids (proof)
one would have a video camera (more proof)
and the other one would be
making comments about it
the whole time
then when I would say :
"hey, remember that dog
that was doing tricks?"
the one with picture proof would say :
"what are you talking about?"
the one with video proof would say :
"that didn't happen"
and the other one would of course say :
"you're crazy"

one thing I do know is
no one can say I didn't try
but you have
to understand
why I quit
yes, I gave up
too much pain for me

weed

I asked about it
years later
and of course
no one knew
what I was
talking about

what the fuck
is everyone
trying to hide ?