me against me

acrossssSsssshitttacrossssSsssshittt Posts: 1,014
I've been sleepin my best hours away
for there are things in my head
I don't wanna face

makin shorter my nights
I got things in my head
I don't wanna fight

what's real are the red leaves
on my window sill
that I'd left alone for 3 long weeks
...and the lies I feel are in me
so tonight, I hope I get to sleep

...cuz I hear loud and clear the screams
and they're tellin me
"man this ain't gonna be
you're fast asleep
you best wake up
before I'm done"

ought I then, to begin my retreat?
the shit I fought, let that be?
let go to hell, that which I felt,
when after 3 long weeks, I saw her eyes
embrace me?

hell I'm anyway fast asleep

no no no
sleep never comes easy to me
I'm engulfed in a civil war
and it's me against me
maybe I'll learn to fight me
if I look hard
at the state in my country

I know I don't wanna stay fast asleep
I wanna save my red leaves
and I hope this love I feel
don't break me
but if I gotta hurt someone
let it be only me
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  • the wolfthe wolf Posts: 7,027
    I'm engulfed in a civil war
    and it's me against me
    maybe I'll learn to fight me
    if I look hard
    at the state in my country

    Not a good feeling my friend. I know it well. The outcome of an inner civil war is not pretty.

    good luck brother.
    Peace, Love.


    "To question your government is not unpatriotic --
    to not question your government is unpatriotic."
    -- Sen. Chuck Hagel
  • mysticweedmysticweed Posts: 3,710
    Remember what the man said
    (almost)
    YOU are the only one who can forgive yourself
    that is if "me against me" is auto-biographical
    "a broken prayer" was so succinctly accurate in describing MY life, it completely floored me that it wasn't your own pain
    afw - it's still good
    fuck 'em if they can't take a joke

    "what a long, strange trip it's been"
  • mikalinamikalina Posts: 7,206
    Hello Across/oceans, :wave: I feel your pain in this poem. I hope you find the peace you are looking for - or maybe its time to just "make peace" with what is hurting you. As always I wish you all the best, maybe its time for another "beach" vacation. :D

    Mika
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  • acrossssSsssshitttacrossssSsssshittt Posts: 1,014
    edited May 2010
    my leaves may have been green when I left
    but I'm finding they look pretty in red
    and hopefully there won't be no hurt - for no one : )
    so maybe I oughtta quit whinin

    thank you both

    I gotta say, Present Tense is a song I hold very close to my heart...the closest I guess... but the wisdom in it... man forget about it... that's why he's Eddie... and I'm not: )
    thank you for your words on a broken prayer, letting go... what I felt when I wrote that, I hope to God, stays true... I read it often, and for now it is... and she's well too mashallah/touchwood : ) so though it's quite the compliment that I floored you, that too was autobiographical
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  • mikalina wrote:
    Hello Across/oceans, :wave: I feel your pain in this poem. I hope you find the peace you are looking for - or maybe its time to just "make peace" with what is hurting you. As always I wish you all the best, maybe its time for another "beach" vacation. :D

    Mika


    Mika, my good friend, I tend to sound like a negative piece of shit at times (excuse my Indian (and that's a joke, any Indian friends out there:)) but I'm doing ok as you'll see from my earlier response... indeed a beach vacation is always what a doctor should prescribe, (but they don't... do they: )) well, I'm doing the Euro Pearl Jam tour this June so I'll be surfin alright... : )

    you stay well Mika
  • mikalinamikalina Posts: 7,206
    mikalina wrote:
    Hello Across/oceans, :wave: I feel your pain in this poem. I hope you find the peace you are looking for - or maybe its time to just "make peace" with what is hurting you. As always I wish you all the best, maybe its time for another "beach" vacation. :D

    Mika


    Mika, my good friend, I tend to sound like a negative piece of shit at times (excuse my Indian (and that's a joke, any Indian friends out there:)) but I'm doing ok as you'll see from my earlier response... indeed a beach vacation is always what a doctor should prescribe, (but they don't... do they: )) well, I'm doing the Euro Pearl Jam tour this June so I'll be surfin alright... : )

    you stay well Mika


    Now this is more like it ........ Pearl Jam tour, that will cure just about everything. Don't forget to tell me all about it. Take care always,
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  • jfs5-10-10jfs5-10-10 Posts: 326
    I love this.
    <b>Your light's reflected now,... reflected from afar...
    We were but stones,... your light made us stars</b>

    Buffalo 5-10-10...First PJ show..Life changing..magical..
  • chadwickchadwick Posts: 21,157
    im pretty sure we are all fighting ourselves in some way or another.
    keep on writing.
    find yourself.
    be good to yourself.
    easier said than done.

    thank you for sharing yourself with us.
    for poetry through the ceiling. ISBN: 1 4241 8840 7

    "Hear me, my chiefs!
    I am tired; my heart is
    sick and sad. From where
    the sun stands I will fight
    no more forever."

    Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
  • jjwakkajjwakka Posts: 18
    This is fight in which it's best if nobody wins...cool piece
  • jjwakka, you said it man... thank you all
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