by the numbers

the wolfthe wolf Posts: 7,027
12 years lost
5 years removed from the day
“dear john” left on the table with the rings
even now can still feel the sting brought on by the end

4.5 years to heal with another
4.5 months alone since that cold January night
loved you then, do I still?
maybe so, it seems I can still feel that January chill

happy 4.5 month anniversary
with the love of your life
in 4.5 months you will be his wife
so glad you are taking it slooooooooooow

3 months away from just another day
will go this one alone on day 13,870 of my life
it was always more about the party you would throw
than it ever was about me

9 months since I watched
the best friend I’ve ever had take his last breath
not 1 second goes bye
that life without him is not a test

13 years and 7 months have I felt the love
of the one beside me now
“In The Princess” I trust
to get me through the next 60 seconds and then the next

2 parents rise
2 parents fall
too many drinks, too many drunks
but not enough to replace their love

too many numbers
too many names
too much loss
in this mindfucked game

too many dreams unrealized
too many nightmares come true
too much time has gone
to ever make things right by "you"

too many broken promises
too many tears have been cried
too much weight to carry
too many lonely nights

24 “dead soldiers”
288 liquid ounces
750/50,000 mg. will bring soft slumber
I’ll be sure to do this by the numbers
Peace, Love.


"To question your government is not unpatriotic --
to not question your government is unpatriotic."
-- Sen. Chuck Hagel
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  • justamjustam Posts: 21,410
    I like how you use the numbers to hold this one together.
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  • pandorapandora Posts: 21,855
    the wolf wrote:
    12 years lost
    5 years removed from the day
    “dear john” left on the table with the rings
    even now can still feel the sting brought on by the end

    4.5 years to heal with another
    4.5 months alone since that cold January night
    loved you then, do I still?
    maybe so, it seems I can still feel that January chill

    happy 4.5 month anniversary
    with the love of your life
    in 4.5 months you will be his wife
    so glad you are taking it slooooooooooow

    3 months away from just another day
    will go this one alone on day 13,870 of my life
    it was always more about the party you would throw
    than it ever was about me

    9 months since I watched
    the best friend I’ve ever had take his last breath
    not 1 second goes bye
    that life without him is not a test

    13 years and 7 months have I felt the love
    of the one beside me now
    “In The Princess” I trust
    to get me through the next 60 seconds and then the next

    2 parents rise
    2 parents fall
    too many drinks, too many drunks
    but not enough to replace their love

    too many numbers
    too many names
    too much loss
    in this mindfucked game

    too many dreams unrealized
    too many nightmares come true
    too much time has gone
    to ever make things right by "you"

    too many broken promises
    too many tears have been cried
    too much weight to carry
    too many lonely nights

    24 “dead soldiers”
    288 liquid ounces
    750/50,000 mg. will bring soft slumber
    I’ll be sure to do this by the numbers
    our lives, our love, our losses in numbers, me too
    I really love this let me count the ways :D
  • Ms. Wes C.addleMs. Wes C.addle Posts: 2,559
    and don't forget about the fact that you shouldn't have to fight for love..... convince love.

    Life is a bitch- highs and lows. good and bad. But, its better to be fucking in it.
  • the wolfthe wolf Posts: 7,027
    and don't forget about the fact that you shouldn't have to fight for love..... convince love.

    Life is a bitch- highs and lows. good and bad. But, its better to be fucking in it.

    i'm not sure i know what you mean.
    Peace, Love.


    "To question your government is not unpatriotic --
    to not question your government is unpatriotic."
    -- Sen. Chuck Hagel
  • this is real beautiful stuff man
  • mysticweedmysticweed Posts: 3,710
    Just when I think you cannot make me cry . . .again
    fuck 'em if they can't take a joke

    "what a long, strange trip it's been"
  • ClaireackClaireack Posts: 13,561
    Beautiful again - tear in my eye
  • mikalinamikalina Posts: 7,206
    I just read this, thank you for sharing such an insight to your life. I felt like crying. Someday I will put the "numbers" of days and years to my life and see where I'm at.

    All we can do - is the best of whatever is given to us. Take care.
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  • pickupyourwillpickupyourwill Posts: 3,135
    the wolf wrote:
    24 “dead soldiers”
    288 liquid ounces
    750/50,000 mg. will bring soft slumber
    I’ll be sure to do this by the numbers

    damn! the whole thing is really powerful. this last part sounds like suicide to me though and I am concerned. :( so I hope you don't do anything like that, wolf--no girl is worth that. no fucked up life is worth that either. stay strong.

    I've seen firsthand how heartbreak can ruin someone for the rest of their life...my dad--been divorced for 20 years now and still living in depression with delusions of the past. he just somehow can't move on. but I'm not giving up on him--I believe in miracles.
  • prismprism Posts: 2,440
    very well done.

    i've so many coinsiding numbers & dates both good and bad in my life that it's unbelieveable

    i hope that you're doing okay
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  • runawayrunaway Posts: 427
    I can relate.....
    Music is the universal language
    What's better than a cigar? Ed with a sitar
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