Process

justam

I suppose, maybe, some people believe I think too much.
but...
Do they realize it's my way of sifting through my feelings?
How else will I understand what the heck is going on?!
I usually start circling a feeling that's too big to miss
I walk around it
I stare at it
examine it!
I pull it apart
put it back together
I try to see what it's made of
How is it assembled?
I wonder where it originated
I project where it might be going
I try to assess it's value
weigh it's strength
then maybe I compare it to feelings I've had before
I wonder about how it might stand against feelings I might have in the future
I spin it around again and if it's not beaten to death (!)
(from all the ridiculous examinations)
I enjoy it!
I hold onto it!
especially if it's something that survives all my poking and testing