For just the chance ( part II )

the wolf

you have been on my mind
heavy on my soul
you have been in my sleepless dreams
this year would have been “lucky # 7”

I do not pretend to understand
why God would not allow you to be
would not allow you to grow
allow you to bless me

I think you are always there
in the back of my mind
I believe things would have been different for me
if I could have just held you in my arms

I think of those days before you were gone
those days I now call “the tease”
I was scared to death of you, but also longed for you
I was terrified I would not suit you, that I would fail you

maybe that is why you were not allowed to be
maybe God saw me as unfit
I would give everything I have acquired, every good thing I have ever experienced,
for just the chance to hold you in my arms
and feel your life and love fill me from the inside out
I would give everything for just the chance to look into your eyes,
or to see you smile
to see you grow
I would give everything for just the chance,
to hear you say, “Dad”.

acrossssSsssshittt

your words have come out just right... God be with you

Ms. Wes C.addle

Anything that I could type would not do it justice for the feelings and emotions that I just had.... So, I won't write anything more.

mysticweed

Any pain I have experienced pales to this, my brother.
Peace and love be with you

mikalina

There is no greater pain, than the loss of a child. I am truly sorry. Everything pales by comparison.

PearlOfAGirl

So sad, and yet so beautiful....