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Ms. Wes C.addle
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I can't decide which is worse
The fact that I shared everything with you
or the fact that I believed every word you said.
You would lay next to me, place your hand between my breasts
and feel my heartbeat. You always said that it helped you fall asleep.
And now, those black sheets where we used to share everything,
Life. Love. Dreams. Memories. Defeat. Pain.
are sheathed in lies and despair.
Looking at the pillow where you used to lay your beautiful head
is like stabbing a dull, rusted knife into my chest, and slowly twisting it.
The most tenacious poison could not silence my heart and mind.
The shiniest, quickest bullet wouldn't even penetrate the surface.
I would hang onto every word spoken from your frail, weathered lips
like it may be the last words I would ever hear on this earth
I promised you the world, You called my bluff.
The days have turned into never-ending misery.
I now feel my own heart beat
With each one that passes, I know its one less
Closer to the end.
With each breath, I know its one less
Closer to the end.
With everyday that passes, its one more that goes by
without me telling you.
I believe that this may be part of the master plan.
I get to suffer for all that I have ever done
never to be forgiven
never to find love
never to speak kindly
never to appreciate another, without second guessing every move made
never to find contentment within
never to let others in
never to let myself out
never to be honest with others
never to be honest with you
The fact that I shared everything with you
or the fact that I believed every word you said.
You would lay next to me, place your hand between my breasts
and feel my heartbeat. You always said that it helped you fall asleep.
And now, those black sheets where we used to share everything,
Life. Love. Dreams. Memories. Defeat. Pain.
are sheathed in lies and despair.
Looking at the pillow where you used to lay your beautiful head
is like stabbing a dull, rusted knife into my chest, and slowly twisting it.
The most tenacious poison could not silence my heart and mind.
The shiniest, quickest bullet wouldn't even penetrate the surface.
I would hang onto every word spoken from your frail, weathered lips
like it may be the last words I would ever hear on this earth
I promised you the world, You called my bluff.
The days have turned into never-ending misery.
I now feel my own heart beat
With each one that passes, I know its one less
Closer to the end.
With each breath, I know its one less
Closer to the end.
With everyday that passes, its one more that goes by
without me telling you.
I believe that this may be part of the master plan.
I get to suffer for all that I have ever done
never to be forgiven
never to find love
never to speak kindly
never to appreciate another, without second guessing every move made
never to find contentment within
never to let others in
never to let myself out
never to be honest with others
never to be honest with you
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but very good.
"To question your government is not unpatriotic --
to not question your government is unpatriotic."
-- Sen. Chuck Hagel
But thanks!
@Steve- Sad? Thats all you got? lol
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I'm more impressed that she spelled them all right. you should read a text from her at 1 a.m.
"To question your government is not unpatriotic --
to not question your government is unpatriotic."
-- Sen. Chuck Hagel
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2008 Bonnaroo - 2009 Philly 2&3 - 2010 MSG 1&2
And I don't spell badly, I just omit words.
You haven't gotten any drunk 1am texts yet- that will be a special treat!
"..That's One Happy Fuckin Ghost.."
“..That came up on the Pillow Case...This is for the Greek, With Our Apologies.....”
tis true. my bad. I usually just need to fill in the blanks !
"To question your government is not unpatriotic --
to not question your government is unpatriotic."
-- Sen. Chuck Hagel
D- you have NO idea!
Wolf- blah!
Can't keep- is this why you called me looney? Lol
"..That's One Happy Fuckin Ghost.."
“..That came up on the Pillow Case...This is for the Greek, With Our Apologies.....”
the thesaurus = great tool.
nicely done.
now im off to read your poem....
(a few minutes later)
love sure is a funny thing.
good/bad, many emotions swirl about.
head up kid'o.
you'll be fine.
look at the feelings you are writing out, it feels good, yes?
keep up the good work.
"Hear me, my chiefs!
I am tired; my heart is
sick and sad. From where
the sun stands I will fight
no more forever."
Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
Thanks so much though!
You are the second person today that referred to me as 'kiddo'.
What's going on?!?!?!
I called you looney cause you are my too fav things
hot+funny=looney
that is exactly why I married my wife
you don't seem to take shit from anyone and you always give it with a smile
a mass generalization would be that more powerful females need to hold on to this trait rather than be uptight, to me it can make a beautiful lady wearing either jeanshorts and a tshirt or a cocktail gown all the more attractive to be around - I say be around because good company rivals romantic intrest anyday - again exactly why I married my wife
yeah it is 3:28am
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2008 Bonnaroo - 2009 Philly 2&3 - 2010 MSG 1&2
I appreciate all the compliments. I am glad that you can see it that way. Most people just peg me as a bitch and don't get my 'personality'. And you know what I say to those people? Fuck you!
The way I look at it, when men stop being assholes, I will stop being a bitch. Until then, I will be me and you can take it or leave it.
As for the pretty thing, myself and many others would beg to differ... Even people up in here. :?
But thanks!!!!!
I have a weird control over married men past bar time...
But thanks for the insight and kind words!