paper clips

the wolf

my feelings are as empty
as the permanently made, un-slept in bed
emotions are now non existent
still staring at the decorated tree
unknowing, unfeeling, unfriendly it seems

the memories are fading fast
good and bad
I woke up next to you the other night
I could feel you, smell you, see you
a vision that faded with open eyes

candy cane colored paper clips litter my desk
red, green and white
butterscotch and brown
some strange electric blue and crazy hot pink
all sitting in a pile, saved out of habit

I can't bring myself to move
or change anything in the house
It remains they way you left it
a cluttered mess of loss
much like the paper clips on my desk

acrossssSsssshittt

so neat the mess... could fall in love:)