for my son

pickupyourwill

god forbid I should be negative--
it seems everyone else can be sometimes
but the minute I am, I get crucified for it

so for what its worth:

erase the trace
burn the bridge if you want
I've become numb either way

just want to see my son have a good life
my dreams no longer matter, only his

for the new year~~ only him
for the rest of my life~~only him
in the after world and beyond~~only him
perhaps in heaven~~only him

he is my angel, my sweet love
for him~~ anything
I will not let him go through what I did
He will not suffer as I have

He will have a happy life
and know little of real pain
but still be aware of it--as a warning sign

I am a cautionary tale, a warning for him to heed