RIP Dad

rvk72

Hi everyone, not a big poster on here, but today I lost my father to the long battle he had with Leukemia. He was in remission for 4 years, but relapsed a few weeks ago and just couldn't fight anymore. PJ has helped to get me through all of this and now I am devastated. He knew how much the band meant to me and the shows I went to. After much debate, I will go to two shows in Philly like planned because my mom says he definitely would say go. I miss you dad. You are my hero.

Randi

annenomies

I'm so sorry for your loss

InHerOwnWorld

Aww I'm sorry.

dasvidana

So sorry. I lost my mother to cancer ten years ago and am now going through cancer treatment with my son. So I know what you're going through. I think any time you lose someone you love, you embrace things near and dear. Music can be such a comfort especially that of a band like Pearl Jam whose music and lyrics address such universal issues/feelings.

Claireack

Sorry to hear about your dad, take care X

Lizard

Sorry to hear that......I am sure this will be quite the emotional show for you.

Take care....

CJMST3K

I'm very sorry for your loss.

While you can't rush grieving, I do hope you have an enjoyable time when you go to the show. I hope they play Release for you and your dad.

xChuckNorrisPUNCHx

I'm very sorry for your loss. It's sad losing a loved one, especially family. I'll pray for you. I'm glad Pearl Jam has helped you through this grief. I hope the two phily shows will bring peace to you knowing that your dad would have loved it. God bless!

rvk72

thank you everyone. I know i can find support here on this forum.
regards,
randi

Got a hard hard head

I'm sorry for your loss. I lost my Dad to myeloid leukaemia almost 5 years ago now. It was a horrible thing to watch him suffer and feel completely helpless and it still affects me now.

You have my utmost sympathy.

meme

That's a very touching post. I am very sorry for your loss. It sounds like you were very close to your dad and had a great relationship with him. I hope the Philly shows will support you in your grief and give you some comfort. Stay strong and share here if you need to.

craigb

Sorry to hear about your dad.
May he rest in peace.

stargirl69

I am so sorry for your dad's death .... I have much empathy,my dad died 5 weeks ago.

Life will be forever changed but no less rich.That is why I am delighted to hear you will still go to the shows your dad would have known how vitally important they would be for you.

Please take care,peace and love to you and your family.

xxooxx

VEDHEAD27

**hugs Randi**

I'm so sorry for your loss. My heart aches for you. :( Sadly I can relate to your pain all too well. I lost my father 7 years ago. He was my hero as well. It's still unreal to me that he is gone and always will be. After this happened the impact of PJ's music drastically changed for me. Songs took on new meanings...other ones hit harder than they had before...before I knew it they were speaking to me and comforting me more than anything or anyone!!! (LIGHT YEARS!) The music became therapy...more so than ever before. I honestly feel like it saved me in my darkest time. The music comforted me and gave me hope when I needed it most. It helped get me through the pain...and continues to! It really is beyond comforting to know that this will never change. It will always be here for you.

All that I can say is that some people are just too big for this world. They are sent here for a brief period of time to teach us something, to expand our hearts, to awaken our souls. My father was one of these people and it sounds like yours was too. It's very easy to get angry and depressed about them being gone because people this special really are rare to come upon!!! The only way I live with the pain of his absence is by being SO incredibly grateful for having known him at all. I really do feel proud, privileged and blessed to not only have known my father as a person...but to be able to call him my father.

Like your father mine also understand how much PJ meant to me...we even shared a show together which will forever be one of my greatest memories. You are definitely doing the right thing going to these shows. It sounds like your father would agree. You truly NEED this right now. Therapy for your soul!!! Let the tears flow as they may. I know you'll have a great time Randi. I'm sending much love & support to you and your family. My heart truly goes out to you.

rvk72

Last night's show was so incredibly emotional for me. Because I grew up in Philly, and South Philly in particular where my dad was born and raised, I had a hard time last night being in the Spectrum. During the introductory montage of the Spectrum, I broke down. I miss him so much and am so sad that I couldn't call him after the show to tell him how it was. I grew up going to this building for the Flyers, concerts, etc. and now PJ to end it in this building is so significant for me. I usually do not believe in fate, or higher beings and all that, but I do believe in progression and feel all of this will help make me stronger. Last night I was lucky enough to sit with someone who won the lottery and I sat in the 10th row. It was surreal with all that has been happening and for one moment joked around that my dad did that .

Again, thank you all for listening and your thoughts.
Regards,

Randi

VEDHEAD27

Awwwwwww!!!! That's beautiful Randi!! So happy to hear you had such an amazing experience. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason...the good, the great, the bad, the horrible...and even if you can't see the reason right now...or even if you never see it...I still believe that it's the way it should be. You are right, this definitely will make you stronger....and as time goes on you will feel his "presence" like that more and more often. You really will.

Are you going to tomorrows show?? If so I look forward to sharing the magic with you!

rvk72

I am going tomorrow and Sat, and I can't wait. It really was some type of therapy for me.

dimitrispearljam

sorry for your loss

bookem

Dear Randi,

I am so sorry for your loss. Unfortunately, it is something that I feel too closely. I lost my father just over 8 years ago. And even though things are fairly "backto normal", it is still something that affects me deeply. All I can say is, I hope you find the strength to get through this ordeal and come out on the other side with some perspective on life that steers you towards the positive.
It is ok to think of your father, whenever you feel the need. Listen to PJ as much as you can, R?elease and MOTH are great songs here.But just let things progress naturallky, don't force anything. The one thing I have learnt is that grief is such a personal process and every person goes through it differently, so just do what you feel is needed.

Good luck, my thouyhts are with you and you're family

Bookem

Mr Derp

rvk72 wrote:

I had a hard time last night being in the Spectrum. During the introductory montage of the Spectrum, I broke down. I Last night I was lucky enough to sit with someone who won the lottery and I sat in the 10th row. It was surreal with all that has been happening and for one moment joked around that my dad did that
Randi

Wow, I guess I was just paying too much attention to the display, I didnt notice you having a rough time or breaking down. If I'd of known I would have tossed that idiot row crasher sooner. I'm so glad it worked out that my big lottery hit came during our ticket exchange-thing. Not only would it have been a bummer to sit in 101 row 10 solo, but if anyone deserved that break, it was you. And it was awesome to go to a show with someone who has a matching level of passion for PJ, it makes all the difference in the world. I drag a different friend every few years, but they never "get it".

Anyway Randi, it was great to meet you and I've so glad everything worked out so well. Me and 2 hardcore PJ friends of mine will be parking at the spectrum early in the afternoon so we'll be somewhere nearby from then on - If you and your gang wanna hang out with a couple pj geeks before the show feel free to call and I'll let you know where we're hanging out.

rvk72

Jason, all I can say is thanks and much appreciated. Probably see you tonight!

Randi

Bigda

i am soooooooo sorry for you.. My mom has just passed away, too.. Believe me, I share your grief..
hold on..

theserialthrilla

from what ive read above i think your dad might of had words with you if you had not gone..i think he is smiling at you .proud of his little girl..

pandora

rvk72 wrote:

Hi everyone, not a big poster on here, but today I lost my father to the long battle he had with Leukemia. He was in remission for 4 years, but relapsed a few weeks ago and just couldn't fight anymore. PJ has helped to get me through all of this and now I am devastated. He knew how much the band meant to me and the shows I went to. After much debate, I will go to two shows in Philly like planned because my mom says he definitely would say go. I miss you dad. You are my hero.

Randi

Yes-"I miss you Dad. You are my hero"
I lost my Dad it will be 20 years this coming April. He is forever with me- his moon like round face- his smiling green eyes (I see his eyes each day in the mirror) the memories of his optimistic generous spirit. This Randi you have to look forward too. The peace that comes with him forever being with you. And perhaps the knowledge that you will meet again. I imagine being in my fathers presence again- his English Leather and scratchy cheek on mine. And he will say "Tinker Bunger" welcome home and I will be home again.

dimitrispearljam

theserialthrilla wrote:

from what ive read above i think your dad might of had words with you if you had not gone..i think he is smiling at you .proud of his little girl..

i believe the same

VEDHEAD27

Randi, I thought of you Friday night during LIGHT YEARS. So much emotion! As the tears rolled down my face I remember just looking up thinking "can you see this now??" I know they were smiling down as proud as ever. SUCH an intense/beautiful moment.

Like everyone else, I am REALLY glad you made it to these historic shows! Really the greatest therapy on earth!

rvk72

i had a few moments where i cried like a baby those few nights. Light years was one of them. Lost it during Off He Goes and Smile too. Just being in that building felt kinda empty to me cause it was the definite end of my childhood and with my dad gone so recently, it all just got to me. I know its just a building and I'm in my mid thirties now, but i grew up there. I'll always remember those shows though. Really glad I went and really glad i met some of the other Ten clubbers because I did go.