‘dcfaithful wrote: Bravest 1st post, I have EVER read
I admire your strength. You have gained courage that many people out there still need. Reading your post was refreshing, and eye-opening.
I hope you have found the peace of mind and freedom that you've obviously been needing for years.’
Dcfaithful
Thanks for your kind words. Yes thankfully I have peace of mind and freedom of the sexual abuse.
In having said that:
The Queensland DPP’s failure to represent me. The Queensland government’s compensation payout of $700. (To receive this payment I’d have to pay out $3,000 - $4,000 for Medical & other reports, court costs, travel expenses.) Then there’s the obligatory lifelong suppression order.
These actions seem to have had a detrimental effect on my self-esteem.
Suffice to say these song titles are in the forefront of my mind: Nothingman bordering on a Dead Man Walking but I’m still Thumbing My Way cause they Cant Keep me down because, I Am Mine.
Jeremy started the interest.
GTF started the obsession.
"Sometimes you find yourself having to put all your faith in no faith."
~not a dude~
2010: MSGx2
2012: Made In America
2013: Pittsburgh, Brooklynx2, Hartford, Baltimore
2014: Leeds, Milton Keynes, Detroit
2015: Global Citizen Festival
2016: Phillyx2, MSGx2, Fenwayx2 2018: Barcelona, Wrigleyx2
Manchester 04.06.00, Leeds 25.08.06, Wembley 18.06.07, Dusseldorf 21.06.07, Shepherds Bush 11.08.09, Manchester 17.08.09, Adelaide 17.11.09, Melbourne 20.11.09, Sydney 22.11.09, Brisbane 25.11.09, MSG1 20.05.10, MSG2 21.05.10, Dublin 22.06.10, Belfast 23.06.10, London 25.06.10, Long Beach 06.07.11 (EV), Los Angeles 08.07.11 (EV), Toronto 11.09.11, Toronto 12.09.11, Ottawa 14.09.11, Hamilton 14.09.11, Manchester 20.06.12, Manchester 21.06.12, Amsterdam 26.06.2012, Amsterdam 27.06.2012, Berlin 04.07.12, Berlin 05.07.12, Stockholm 07.07.12, Oslo 09.07.12, Copenhagen 10.07.12, Manchester 28.07.12 (EV), Brooklyn 18.10.13, Brooklyn 19.10.13, Philly 21.10.13, Philly 22.10.13, San Diego 21.11.13, LA 23.11.13, LA 24.11.13, Oakland 26.11.13, Portland 29.11.13, Spokane 30.11.13, Calgary 02.12.13, Vancouver 04.12.13, Seattle 06.12.13, Trieste 22.06.14, Vienna 25.06.14, Berlin 26.06.14, Stockholm 28.06.14, Leeds 08.07.14, Philly 28.04.16, Philly 28.04.16, MSG1 01.05.16, MSG2 02.05.16
"...Dimitri...He talks to me...'.."The Ghost of Greece..".
"..That's One Happy Fuckin Ghost.."
“..That came up on the Pillow Case...This is for the Greek, With Our Apologies.....”
Manchester 04.06.00, Leeds 25.08.06, Wembley 18.06.07, Dusseldorf 21.06.07, Shepherds Bush 11.08.09, Manchester 17.08.09, Adelaide 17.11.09, Melbourne 20.11.09, Sydney 22.11.09, Brisbane 25.11.09, MSG1 20.05.10, MSG2 21.05.10, Dublin 22.06.10, Belfast 23.06.10, London 25.06.10, Long Beach 06.07.11 (EV), Los Angeles 08.07.11 (EV), Toronto 11.09.11, Toronto 12.09.11, Ottawa 14.09.11, Hamilton 14.09.11, Manchester 20.06.12, Manchester 21.06.12, Amsterdam 26.06.2012, Amsterdam 27.06.2012, Berlin 04.07.12, Berlin 05.07.12, Stockholm 07.07.12, Oslo 09.07.12, Copenhagen 10.07.12, Manchester 28.07.12 (EV), Brooklyn 18.10.13, Brooklyn 19.10.13, Philly 21.10.13, Philly 22.10.13, San Diego 21.11.13, LA 23.11.13, LA 24.11.13, Oakland 26.11.13, Portland 29.11.13, Spokane 30.11.13, Calgary 02.12.13, Vancouver 04.12.13, Seattle 06.12.13, Trieste 22.06.14, Vienna 25.06.14, Berlin 26.06.14, Stockholm 28.06.14, Leeds 08.07.14, Philly 28.04.16, Philly 28.04.16, MSG1 01.05.16, MSG2 02.05.16
I think it would be easier to list what songs don't inspire me (as much), there are so few. If I had to choose the ones that did it the most, I would have to say that Elderly Woman is huge for me. Jeremy is such a great song because almost 20 years later this song has become even more relevant than when it was released. Yellow Ledbetter live in New Orleans. I cant remember the exact date, but I think it was on Bootleg # 68???? Not sure, but that version was just absolutely magnificent!!!! Given to Fly, the list just goes on and on! The Back Spacer album ROCKS!!! I don't think there is an album out today (in any genre) that has lyrics that can match the emotion that come is expressed!
Like others I would say Pearl Jam is the reason I picked up a guitar and i can't go a day without playing now.....
I think the song helps me with my feelings, emotions, what have you a lot right now definitely is Present Tense.... Can you see the way that tree bends? Does it inspire? Leaning out to catch the sun's rays, a lesson to be applied..... Also, you can spend your time alone, redigesting past regrets, or you can come to terms and realize you're the only one who can't forgive yourself.... Often I feel like I am in a hole and that there is no sense working to get out of it because it's impossible.... But if you have ever seen a tree growing under something that casts a lot of shade (like those roofs you see in parks with picnic tables under them for instance) it will grow almost completely horizontal many times until it gets to where it can get enough sunlight and then it will grow up from there..... Sometimes you just have to reach out and let some light in and not shut yourself off to help, admiration, etc. The sun is trying it's best so you shouldn't fault it because you happen to be under a roof.... After all, often you are the only one that can't forgive yourself, and can't let things go and just move on......
Release and Leash would have to be the two for me, although there are so many others too. I am just so grateful for PJ's music (and music in general for that matter). It's kept me from stepping off the ledge so many times.
So many PJ songs inspired me over the past 20 years...Alive...Betterman...In My Tree...Black...Nothingman...RVM...EWBTCIAST...hard to say. I guess there's a song for every circumstance, and right now that song is "In Hiding"....
So many inspirational songs, depends on what part of you needs to be inspired. I love Present Tense, listen to it almost everyday, a new start, self forgiveness (which I have a hard time doing), accepting the past, your mistakes, learning from them and moving foward. Love it
Who the f*ck goes around skinning cats~~Ed
It all comes down to changing your head~~John Lennon
MSG 6-24-08/MSG 5-21-10/Philly MIA 9-2-12/Chicago Wrigley Field 7-19-13/Brooklyn NY 1&2 10-2013/Philly 1&2 10-2013
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Bravest 1st post, I have EVER read
I admire your strength. You have gained courage that many people out there still need. Reading your post was refreshing, and eye-opening.
I hope you have found the peace of mind and freedom that you've obviously been needing for years.’
Dcfaithful
Thanks for your kind words. Yes thankfully I have peace of mind and freedom of the sexual abuse.
In having said that:
The Queensland DPP’s failure to represent me. The Queensland government’s compensation payout of $700. (To receive this payment I’d have to pay out $3,000 - $4,000 for Medical & other reports, court costs, travel expenses.) Then there’s the obligatory lifelong suppression order.
These actions seem to have had a detrimental effect on my self-esteem.
Suffice to say these song titles are in the forefront of my mind: Nothingman bordering on a Dead Man Walking but I’m still Thumbing My Way cause they Cant Keep me down because, I Am Mine.
GTF started the obsession.
~not a dude~
2010: MSGx2
2012: Made In America
2013: Pittsburgh, Brooklynx2, Hartford, Baltimore
2014: Leeds, Milton Keynes, Detroit
2015: Global Citizen Festival
2016: Phillyx2, MSGx2, Fenwayx2
2018: Barcelona, Wrigleyx2
"..That's One Happy Fuckin Ghost.."
“..That came up on the Pillow Case...This is for the Greek, With Our Apologies.....”
I think the song helps me with my feelings, emotions, what have you a lot right now definitely is Present Tense.... Can you see the way that tree bends? Does it inspire? Leaning out to catch the sun's rays, a lesson to be applied..... Also, you can spend your time alone, redigesting past regrets, or you can come to terms and realize you're the only one who can't forgive yourself.... Often I feel like I am in a hole and that there is no sense working to get out of it because it's impossible.... But if you have ever seen a tree growing under something that casts a lot of shade (like those roofs you see in parks with picnic tables under them for instance) it will grow almost completely horizontal many times until it gets to where it can get enough sunlight and then it will grow up from there..... Sometimes you just have to reach out and let some light in and not shut yourself off to help, admiration, etc. The sun is trying it's best so you shouldn't fault it because you happen to be under a roof.... After all, often you are the only one that can't forgive yourself, and can't let things go and just move on......
It all comes down to changing your head~~John Lennon
MSG 6-24-08/MSG 5-21-10/Philly MIA 9-2-12/Chicago Wrigley Field 7-19-13/Brooklyn NY 1&2 10-2013/Philly 1&2 10-2013