Thank You

RP108202

i've been a pj fan for a long time. since ten came out i was hooked. i own every album, every bootleg i can get my hands on, and have been to countless shows. needless to say, their music has always meant a lot to me. but never as much as it has in the last couple of weeks. i am 28 years old and have been addicted to pills for almost 6 years. with the recent birth of my first child, a beautiful boy named brett edward payne (sorry eddie, brett favre is a personal favorite of mine and my wife liked that better as a 1st name), i finally realized that it was time to throw them down for good. it has been the longest week and a half of my life. the chills, sweats, vomiting, convulsions, mood swings, and sleeplessness have been unbearable. other than the constant thoughts of my son and support from my wife, the thing that has really helped me the most is the music. no matter what i have needed there are songs that help. if i just need to feel depressed and sorry for myself, or if i need inspiration to help me find the will to make it through this self inflicted agony without giving up. whatever the case, there is a pj song that to me seems like it was written just for me at this exact moment. when i was convincing myself that it was time, the lyrics "what are you runnin from, takin pills to get along" just played over and over in my mind. i know that this story will never reach the band as it is i'm sure just one of thousands, but i did not know what other forum to turn to and just putting it down on "paper" helps. i just want the guys to know how much their music does really help people because i know that my situation is not special and i am not the only one. so, again, thank you. dont ever stop.

marcos

That was a nice story about the birth of your son and I wish you continued success in your rehab. What kind of pills were you addicted to?

RP108202

i would take whatever was available to me. vicodin, hydrocodone, tramadol, etc. i started out getting them legitimately, but then turned into getting them from family and friends, then buying them illegaly, and then finally i discovered that i could buy them online without a prescription. that's when the dosage i was taking really kicked up. for about the last year i was taking thousands of mg's per day. i've wasted untold thousands of dollars and done god only knows what sort of irreparable damage to my body. but ive now got something very worth staying clean and sober for. hopefully it takes.....

marcos

Again, good luck to you, the body is an amazing machine and I'm sure you will be able to repair any damage caused by the pills. I use to work with kids that were addicted to different types of drugs and they were eventually able to recover. Most of them were in bad neighborhoods / families and it started out legitimately, then became an escape. Just stay positive and occupied, but of course that's always easier said then done. Good luck!