"Release" for the first time!...

riCotokYo

.....I've never spoken of this before..ever....but, I feel a sense of community and safety on here. That, and I'm pretty much faceless on here. But, a few months shy of a decade ago, I got a call whilst on the road with my old touring band (12v Negative Earth) It was news that my father had passed away. Much like Eddie (only i knew he was my father) i had absentee father issues, and my father figure was replaced with a bunch of step dads, and my mothers boyfriends...Though I have a magical relationship with my mother now, she has been married nine times, and my childhood photo albums look like they're straight outta Boogie Nights. Long story short, my dad died of acute alcohol poisoning....Me and my now ex-wife flew to Dallas for the funeral....It was hard, even if i had only hung with him on two drunken nights (beyond my first 5 years of life) it was hard. When my sister asked if I'd like to speak at the wake i said "no, I don't even know what I'd say at this point" (not to mention I wasn't prepared to let 21 years of pain come rolling down my face all at once)...then she asked if I'd like to write down anything for her to read....and even though no one there knew what it was, I wrote down the lyrics to Release....the song always made me feel better after one of the few drunken conversations with him, so i thought it appropriate. The lyrics brought a lot of tears.....anyway, I've NEVER told this story, and I thought this would be a good place to share it.....If you've made it this far, thanks for reading!!..........cheers, riCo

(edit) I wanted to add that I've moved on and i don't dwell on the past....I'm always optimistic, and I now have a beautiful wife and daughter, and I make damn sure to give them ALL of my attention when I'm home!!!

StickmanJam

Thanks for sharing that.

Music really is a powerful thing.

In July of 2006, my grandfather passes away from pancreatic cancer. I was very close to my grandfather, and as you can assume, it was a really hard time. Avocado had just come out a few months prior, and for some reason Come Back kept playing in my head during the wake and funeral and even during down time. It of course always broke me up, but in a way helped me a lot.

Anyways, I, as well as I'm sure many people here, can relate to your story where a PJ song has accompanied us in great times and the not so great.

Dipshit1982

Wow.

riCotokYo

StickmanJam wrote:

Thanks for sharing that.

Music really is a powerful thing.

In July of 2006, my grandfather passes away from pancreatic cancer. I was very close to my grandfather, and as you can assume, it was a really hard time. Avocado had just come out a few months prior, and for some reason Come Back kept playing in my head during the wake and funeral and even during down time. It of course always broke me up, but in a way helped me a lot.

Anyways, I, as well as I'm sure many people here, can relate to your story where a PJ song has accompanied us in great times and the not so great.

man, isn't it amazing how music helps/effects people!...If I didn't have it (to listen to, or play) I'd still be on drugs, and depressed.....I'm forever grateful to so many bands....I wish one of the PJ guys would actually read what i wrote, but I'm sure they've gotten enough letters to have gotten it by now huh!?

mfc2006

release is a song that truly moves me as well. it (along with Man Of The Hour) really helped me when my Dad passed. i mentioned this in another thread, but what jeff said in SVT about music being one of the most healing artforms is dead on.

Evel K

riCotokYo wrote:

I wanted to add that I've moved on and i don't dwell on the past....I'm always optimistic, and I now have a beautiful wife and daughter, and I make damn sure to give them ALL of my attention when I'm home!!!

Sounds like you've got your head on straight. I'm hoping to hear Release in Chicago. If I do I'll think of this and I'll be wishing the best for you. Most inspiring thread I've read in awhile. Thanks

riCotokYo

mfc2006 wrote:

release is a song that truly moves me as well. it (along with Man Of The Hour) really helped me when my Dad passed. i mentioned this in another thread, but what jeff said in SVT about music being one of the most healing artforms is dead on.

Yea, I mentioned in a thread a couple days ago about "Man of the Hour" being in my top five as well!....I don't remember that part in Single Video Theory" but now I'm gunna watch it on the kitchen TV while i cook tonight!

btw, couple questions I've been meaning to ask you....what does the song MFC stand for, and is your middle initial F?

also, speaking of their home videos, do you know how to access the Easter eggs on Live at the Garden?!

mfc2006

riCotokYo wrote:

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btw, couple questions I've been meaning to ask you....what does the song MFC stand for, and is your middle initial F?

also, speaking of their home videos, do you know how to access the Easter eggs on Live at the Garden?!

mini fast cars..or many fast cars, i think. and yes, F is my middle initial!

i can't remember how to get to the easter eggs...anyone?

IGotShit76

riCotokYo wrote:

.....I've never spoken of this before..ever....but, I feel a sense of community and safety on here. That, and I'm pretty much faceless on here. But, a few months shy of a decade ago, I got a call whilst on the road with my old touring band (12v Negative Earth) It was news that my father had passed away. Much like Eddie (only i knew he was my father) i had absentee father issues, and my father figure was replaced with a bunch of step dads, and my mothers boyfriends...Though I have a magical relationship with my mother now, she has been married nine times, and my childhood photo albums look like they're straight outta Boogie Nights. Long story short, my dad died of acute alcohol poisoning....Me and my now ex-wife flew to Dallas for the funeral....It was hard, even if i had only hung with him on two drunken nights (beyond my first 5 years of life) it was hard. When my sister asked if I'd like to speak at the wake i said "no, I don't even know what I'd say at this point" (not to mention I wasn't prepared to let 21 years of pain come rolling down my face all at once)...then she asked if I'd like to write down anything for her to read....and even though no one there knew what it was, I wrote down the lyrics to Release....the song always made me feel better after one of the few drunken conversations with him, so i thought it appropriate. The lyrics brought a lot of tears.....anyway, I've NEVER told this story, and I thought this would be a good place to share it.....If you've made it this far, thanks for reading!!..........cheers, riCo

(edit) I wanted to add that I've moved on and i don't dwell on the past....I'm always optimistic, and I now have a beautiful wife and daughter, and I make damn sure to give them ALL of my attention when I'm home!!!

Great thread man. I totally relate to your story. I was hooked up by PJ in April 1994. 2 months later, I remember coming back from school while listening to a PJ bootleg (Brixton academy 1993). A few minutes later, I was told that my dad passed away at the age of 42. I was 18 at that time and in the middle of my final exams in high school. Release came up as a healing song and in a way helped me to move forward. It still makes me cry sometimes when I hear it but it feels good to let your emotions go out.
To be honest, I didn't pay attention to the lyrics before that day since I was more into PJ up-tempo songs at the time.
I've never heard it live yet ...

riCotokYo

mfc2006 wrote:

riCotokYo wrote:

!

btw, couple questions I've been meaning to ask you....what does the song MFC stand for, and is your middle initial F?

also, speaking of their home videos, do you know how to access the Easter eggs on Live at the Garden?!

mini fast cars..or many fast cars, i think. and yes, F is my middle initial!

i can't remember how to get to the easter eggs...anyone?

wow, that's pretty effin rad!!...I'm super stoked about getting the package you sent btw!

does anyone else know how to get to the Easter eggs on Live @ the Garden?!

riCotokYo

IGotShit-76 wrote:

riCotokYo wrote:

.....I've never spoken of this before..ever....but, I feel a sense of community and safety on here. That, and I'm pretty much faceless on here. But, a few months shy of a decade ago, I got a call whilst on the road with my old touring band (12v Negative Earth) It was news that my father had passed away. Much like Eddie (only i knew he was my father) i had absentee father issues, and my father figure was replaced with a bunch of step dads, and my mothers boyfriends...Though I have a magical relationship with my mother now, she has been married nine times, and my childhood photo albums look like they're straight outta Boogie Nights. Long story short, my dad died of acute alcohol poisoning....Me and my now ex-wife flew to Dallas for the funeral....It was hard, even if i had only hung with him on two drunken nights (beyond my first 5 years of life) it was hard. When my sister asked if I'd like to speak at the wake i said "no, I don't even know what I'd say at this point" (not to mention I wasn't prepared to let 21 years of pain come rolling down my face all at once)...then she asked if I'd like to write down anything for her to read....and even though no one there knew what it was, I wrote down the lyrics to Release....the song always made me feel better after one of the few drunken conversations with him, so i thought it appropriate. The lyrics brought a lot of tears.....anyway, I've NEVER told this story, and I thought this would be a good place to share it.....If you've made it this far, thanks for reading!!..........cheers, riCo

(edit) I wanted to add that I've moved on and i don't dwell on the past....I'm always optimistic, and I now have a beautiful wife and daughter, and I make damn sure to give them ALL of my attention when I'm home!!!

Great thread man. I totally relate to your story. I was hooked up by PJ in April 1994. 2 months later, I remember coming back from school while listening to a PJ bootleg (Brixton academy 1993). A few minutes later, I was told that my dad passed away at the age of 42. I was 18 at that time and in the middle of my final exams in high school. Release came up as a healing song and in a way helped me to move forward. It still makes me cry sometimes when I hear it but it feels good to let your emotions go out.
To be honest, I didn't pay attention to the lyrics before that day since I was more into PJ up-tempo songs at the time.
I've never heard it live yet ...

wow, that's incredible that so many people can relate...thanks for the kind words broseph!!

Gary Carter

thanks for sharing that touching story. very cool of you.

IGotShit76

riCotokYo wrote:

wow, that's incredible that so many people can relate...thanks for the kind words broseph!!

I think many of us can relate to this song ... and other songs as well. That's why we are here, I guess.

riCotokYo

metsfan wrote:

thanks for sharing that touching story. very cool of you.

Thank you very much, I'm shocked at the response.....I've been wanting to write that for a couple weeks now, and I just keep getting to nervous to do it....so thanks!!!

btw, the forum look just changed just now in the middle of posting....RAD!

riCotokYo

IGotShit-76 wrote:

riCotokYo wrote:

wow, that's incredible that so many people can relate...thanks for the kind words broseph!!

I think many of us can relate to this song ... and other songs as well. That's why we are here, I guess.

wow, good point!!

facepollution

Wow, thanks for sharing. Release has always been a special song for me too. I haven't nearly gone through all the issues that you have with your family, but my dad was away a lot when I was growing up, and looking back I think it caused a lot of issues that I still deal with even now in my late twenties. That song is one I always come back to when those feelings are stirred up, there's something comforting about knowing that there are other people out there who know what you're going through. I can't even begin to imagine what it must feel like for Ed to sing that song..........

riCotokYo

facepollution wrote:

Wow, thanks for sharing. Release has always been a special song for me too. I haven't nearly gone through all the issues that you have with your family, but my dad was away a lot when I was growing up, and looking back I think it caused a lot of issues that I still deal with even now in my late twenties. That song is one I always come back to when those feelings are stirred up, there's something comforting about knowing that there are other people out there who know what you're going through. I can't even begin to imagine what it must feel like for Ed to sing that song..........

yea, no kidding.....for me playing the drums for the last 25 years has been my major release (and just music in general) but, man...to be able to sing (or even just write) a song that damn good, and sing it for that many people....I can only imagine how much of a "release" it is......

Hbudjr

riCotokYo wrote:

.....I've never spoken of this before..ever....but, I feel a sense of community and safety on here. That, and I'm pretty much faceless on here. But, a few months shy of a decade ago, I got a call whilst on the road with my old touring band (12v Negative Earth) It was news that my father had passed away. Much like Eddie (only i knew he was my father) i had absentee father issues, and my father figure was replaced with a bunch of step dads, and my mothers boyfriends...Though I have a magical relationship with my mother now, she has been married nine times, and my childhood photo albums look like they're straight outta Boogie Nights. Long story short, my dad died of acute alcohol poisoning....Me and my now ex-wife flew to Dallas for the funeral....It was hard, even if i had only hung with him on two drunken nights (beyond my first 5 years of life) it was hard. When my sister asked if I'd like to speak at the wake i said "no, I don't even know what I'd say at this point" (not to mention I wasn't prepared to let 21 years of pain come rolling down my face all at once)...then she asked if I'd like to write down anything for her to read....and even though no one there knew what it was, I wrote down the lyrics to Release....the song always made me feel better after one of the few drunken conversations with him, so i thought it appropriate. The lyrics brought a lot of tears.....anyway, I've NEVER told this story, and I thought this would be a good place to share it.....If you've made it this far, thanks for reading!!..........cheers, riCo

Wow man great story!! thanks for sharing it. I myself lost my grandmother in Feb and low light kinda takes me to that speacial place for some reason as well. Jam on man!!

(edit) I wanted to add that I've moved on and i don't dwell on the past....I'm always optimistic, and I now have a beautiful wife and daughter, and I make damn sure to give them ALL of my attention when I'm home!!!

IGotShit76

facepollution wrote:

I can't even begin to imagine what it must feel like for Ed to sing that song..........

That's what I'm wondering also. If I ever meet Ed one day I'll thank him especially for this song (... and many others).

mfc2006

riCotokYo wrote:

wow, that's pretty effin rad!!...I'm super stoked about getting the package you sent btw!

should be arriving anyday...