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  • samjam
    samjam New York Posts: 9,283
    deadendp said:

    Ladies of loss, :hug: I'm so very sorry to hear of the loss of your fathers.

    Thank you :)
    hedonist said:

    samjam said:

    hedonist said:

    samjam said:

    4 years since my Dad's passing. Unreal.

    Sorry, samjam. My dad's eighth anniversary is later this month, and it still hurts. Figure it always will.

    But, it also brings smiles at the times we had, and the beautiful, inspiring, genuine person he was.

    Hope you can find comfort and a few smiles today.
    I'm sorry for your loss, as well. Very true, the pain will never go away, but I think we are both lucky to have such wonderful memories of our fathers.

    Just have to take things day by day. I've been a little nauseous and shaky today, but happy it's the weekend and I have my day to reflect. So many good memories. My dad was a special person--yours seems so as well.
    Ironically, every year I dig into what I sometimes call my handwritten stash - cards, letters, the like, amassed over years and ones I won't part with - and read the honest, pure, raw letter my dad wrote me on the exact date he would pass seven years later. It was about 9/11...his anger, trying to come to terms, find peace, based on his own history.

    He eventually did.

    Amy and sam :hug:
    That's a pretty amazing thing to have, wow.

    I only have a few things handwritten from my dad, but they're all so special to me. He used to write so often when I was in college that I'd usually end up tossing most the letters after a little while when I was cleaning up. But I still have a few. Today I actually posted a letter my dad wrote to me on FB. It was for my birthday, only a year or two before he passed, and was just the nicest. Definitely hold that one close.
    "Sometimes you find yourself having to put all your faith in no faith."
    ~not a dude~
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  • JWPearl
    JWPearl Posts: 19,893
    pictures i took of my daughter yesterday..
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  • JWPearl
    JWPearl Posts: 19,893
    pupil of my right eye and shes alike...image
  • dimitrispearljam
    dimitrispearljam Posts: 139,725
    flight booked
    "...Dimitri...He talks to me...'.."The Ghost of Greece..".
    "..That's One Happy Fuckin Ghost.."
    “..That came up on the Pillow Case...This is for the Greek, With Our Apologies.....”
  • JWPearl
    JWPearl Posts: 19,893
    Have you ever seen people's eyes change color or their face slightly change to be familiar of somebody else, I find this weird type of glowing...
  • hedonist
    hedonist Posts: 24,524
    My husband told me the guy he worked with who attempted suicide at work a few weeks ago finally succeeded in his quest.

    So very sad.

    I feel for his children, for his wife. For the pain of someone who could see no other way out.

    I feel for my sweetheart, for his sadness and wondering what, if anything, he could have done.

    Puts much in precious perspective.
  • JWPearl
    JWPearl Posts: 19,893
    hedonist said:

    My husband told me the guy he worked with who attempted suicide at work a few weeks ago finally succeeded in his quest.

    So very sad.

    I feel for his children, for his wife. For the pain of someone who could see no other way out.

    I feel for my sweetheart, for his sadness and wondering what, if anything, he could have done.

    Puts much in precious perspective.

    sorry to hear but obviously he couldnt cope anymore its so sad,,

    last night i slept very little weaving awake and deep sleep to nice dreams but easily awoken and now i feel like a tired mess
  • whispering hands
    whispering hands Under your skin Posts: 13,527
    Like there is finally some light at the end of this tunnel I've been stumbling around in..


    Hedo :hug:
    I know the feeling of those dark hours where the reprieve of death calls to you.
  • hedonist
    hedonist Posts: 24,524
    Keep the light around your beautiful self, WH.
  • RogueStoner
    RogueStoner Sunny AZ Posts: 1,716
    Hedo, so sorry about the suicide. Sending loving thoughts to his family, you and your hubby, WH and anyone else struggling with the same dark thoughts.
    Sometimes the tunnel is curved and it's hard to see the light at the end, but it is there.
    What's on my mind right now is gratitude for this crazy yet beautiful life.
  • SmallestOceans
    SmallestOceans Posts: 13,542
    edited September 2016
    You are the only person that knows who you are, your own path, your own mind. Some kind of force draws people to certain places at certain times. You wonder who sees life from a similar perspective that you do, if they see the magic in the totality of it all. You've gotten this far in the journey somehow. What defines you? Endless possibilities out there. You come back to the same place every five years and see it differently each time. The only constant is change.
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  • hedonist
    hedonist Posts: 24,524
    RS :hug:

    SmallestOceans, that was lovely.
  • JWPearl
    JWPearl Posts: 19,893
    im brave but im chicken shit.. lol nom nom nom so many things you would not get or understand through my doors whole new story when you miss...
  • Jogill
    Jogill Posts: 4,549
    Reasons....
    late PJ bloomer- what was I doing in the 90's that I didn't know who Pearl Jam was???
  • JWPearl
    JWPearl Posts: 19,893
    2 caught only dont worry other 8 not :smiley:...
  • JWPearl
    JWPearl Posts: 19,893
    JWPearl said:

    2 caught only dont worry other 8 not :smiley:...

    sorry 11 i forgot the guys lol
  • SD48277
    SD48277 Posts: 12,243
    The level of denial some people have and continue to cling to. A friend of a friend has been catfished. She "met" the guy online. Supposedly they lived in the same area. Supposedly he was in international finance, and would have to go on a business trip any time they were suppose to meet. This went on for YEARS. Despite friends and family telling her she was being catfished, she was "committed to the relationship." Relationships with family and friends became strained. She disregarded decades-long friendships in favor of this "man." She sent money (why? I don't know) over the course of time, and as of this week, has no money and no relationship. Up until this very week, she was still convinced that this was "the one," and yet had never met the guy in person. Denial. All the red flags were there, and she willingly ignored them. Her self-esteem was such that she wanted to believe it was true, despite all indications that it was not. I'm sorry this happened to her. It is a hard lesson to learn--financially and emotionally. People tell and show you who they really are. It's best to pay attention.
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  • JWPearl
    JWPearl Posts: 19,893
    SD48277 said:

    The level of denial some people have and continue to cling to. A friend of a friend has been catfished. She "met" the guy online. Supposedly they lived in the same area. Supposedly he was in international finance, and would have to go on a business trip any time they were suppose to meet. This went on for YEARS. Despite friends and family telling her she was being catfished, she was "committed to the relationship." Relationships with family and friends became strained. She disregarded decades-long friendships in favor of this "man." She sent money (why? I don't know) over the course of time, and as of this week, has no money and no relationship. Up until this very week, she was still convinced that this was "the one," and yet had never met the guy in person. Denial. All the red flags were there, and she willingly ignored them. Her self-esteem was such that she wanted to believe it was true, despite all indications that it was not. I'm sorry this happened to her. It is a hard lesson to learn--financially and emotionally. People tell and show you who they really are. It's best to pay attention.

    thats so sad, im glad i only trust close family and no-one else until proven so, i hope she recovers..

    my mum has 3 brothers and 6 sisters 6 are right 3 are left
    thats 6 with 1 boy and 1 girl like me
    and thats 9 sibiling wich have children abroad bc of good reasons
    then theres my dads family and well thats not too had to work out..
    2 sisters and a deceased brother.
  • JWPearl
    JWPearl Posts: 19,893
    mums dad had 3 brother and 3 sisters all with many children...
    my mums mum had 4 brothers and 4 sisters all with many children...
    this i call distant but close.. family all abroad all special...perhaps some popular...
    not including the many in my immediate family which some (8) are popular...
    we are everywhere...
  • hedonist
    hedonist Posts: 24,524
    SD, that is awful - both the catfisher's behavior and the blindness some encounter toward them. I do understand that sense of believing someone is THE one - I have been there and am fortunate my gut steered me right and I found the best man/person (manperson? =) ) but that seems to be more the exception than the rule. Good wishes to her, and a lesson learned. And hopefully a heart not too closed off after this.

    JWP, stop giving me double-vision!

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