i'm feeling blue

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  • Jeremy1012
    Jeremy1012 Posts: 7,170
    genie wrote:
    ok, i've got a bad skin, spots on my face and i've tried nearly everything, and my skin is never completely clear. and now i've started taking uprescribed tablets that might harm me.... my work sucks, woman i work with is so fucking pedantic, i can't receive personal phone call at work, i can't send/receive e-mail and i have always be polite on the phone, and concentrate on work i'm doing, cause they are constantly watching me. i don't really have female friends, and male friends that i have, either have a crush on me, or had a crush on me.........

    and this is not it, i've got more things to add but i won't

    so what would you say to this? what advice would you give me?
    I know it's obviously not the main one of your worries but instead of some dodgy unprescribed drug that might harm you, if you haven't already, try oxytetracycline. Worked a fair bit for me. Just ask your GP.
    "I remember one night at Muzdalifa with nothing but the sky overhead, I lay awake amid sleeping Muslim brothers and I learned that pilgrims from every land — every colour, and class, and rank; high officials and the beggar alike — all snored in the same language"
  • harmless_little_f***
    harmless_little_f*** Posts: 8,005
    Jeremy1012 wrote:
    I know it's obviously not the main one of your worries but instead of some dodgy unprescribed drug that might harm you, if you haven't already, try oxytetracycline. Worked a fair bit for me. Just ask your GP.

    Yep, and I've had venlafaxine for a while... that worked pretty well too.
    'We're learning songs for baby Jesus' birthday. His mum and dad were Merry and Joseph. He had a bed made of clay and the three kings bought him Gold, Frankenstein and Merv as presents.'

    - the great Sir Leo Harrison
  • genie
    genie Posts: 2,222
    Jeremy1012 wrote:
    I know it's obviously not the main one of your worries but instead of some dodgy unprescribed drug that might harm you, if you haven't already, try oxytetracycline. Worked a fair bit for me. Just ask your GP.

    tried it, didn't make much difference, plus i was too scared ( and my doctor wasn't happy about prescribing them to me )to get my teeth stained....because oxy does stain your teeth and does something to your bones....and i thought in the long run it's not the sort of side effect i would want to have permanently.
  • Jeremy1012
    Jeremy1012 Posts: 7,170
    genie wrote:
    tried it, didn't make much difference, plus i was too scared ( and my doctor wasn't happy about prescribing them to me )to get my teeth stained....because oxy does stain your teeth and does something to your bones....and i thought in the long run it's not the sort of side effect i would want to have permanently.
    Yeah I heard that and wasn't happy with using it for long. I gave up since I'm shit at maintaining regular doses anyway.
    "I remember one night at Muzdalifa with nothing but the sky overhead, I lay awake amid sleeping Muslim brothers and I learned that pilgrims from every land — every colour, and class, and rank; high officials and the beggar alike — all snored in the same language"
  • genie
    genie Posts: 2,222
    harmless_little_f*** wrote:
    Yep, and I've had venlafaxine for a while... that worked pretty well too.

    are you nuts? i just did a little research and this is what came up

    "Venlafaxine (Effexor) is an antidepressant of the serotonin-norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor (SNRI) class first introduced by Wyeth in 1993. It is prescribed for the treatment of clinical depression and anxiety disorders, among other uses. Due to the pronounced side effects and suspicions that venlafaxine may significantly increase the risk of suicide, it is not recommended as a first line treatment of depression."
  • harmless_little_f***
    harmless_little_f*** Posts: 8,005
    genie wrote:
    tried it, didn't make much difference, plus i was too scared ( and my doctor wasn't happy about prescribing them to me )to get my teeth stained....because oxy does stain your teeth and does something to your bones....and i thought in the long run it's not the sort of side effect i would want to have permanently.

    Give venlafaxine a go... I think it has very few side effects, if any.
    'We're learning songs for baby Jesus' birthday. His mum and dad were Merry and Joseph. He had a bed made of clay and the three kings bought him Gold, Frankenstein and Merv as presents.'

    - the great Sir Leo Harrison
  • LONGRD
    LONGRD Posts: 6,036
    genie wrote:
    and no it's not because soulsinging ain't here :D:p

    last time i felt like this was about 6 months ago....but this time it's even more worse and it's a different reason, but this one is much more horrible than the first one. it just seems like the older that i get the more shit i have to deal with, and it looks like nothings has changed i can never run away from myself whichever problems i had before will stay with me. i feel pressured to succeed or at least to live like a decent person. being a kid was so much better! maaaan, i feel ugly, unhealty, stressed, and like my innocence has gone away....ah the loss of innocence. finding out how fucked up this world really is, is probably like going "cold turkey" for an addict.

    sometimes i just get so tired of challenges thrown at me by life

    that's it my crying is over.
    I know exactly how you feel genie. I'm 25 and finally beginning to lose interest of everything I used to enjoy doing and the friends I was hanging out with are really that close to me anymore. Not because I hate them or anything but most of them are still stuck doing the things we did when we were 18-22.

    As of right now, I have absolutely have no idea what I want to do or what hobbies I should take up for. As for as careerwise, I've been a failure throughout my 25 years on Earth so I'm not really looking forward to any POSITVE changes in that aspect but as far as hobbies and living the fullest life, I'm definitely still searching for that right now.

    I think the only passion that has remained with me since my teen years is my love for Pearl Jam. Thank you, Eddie, Jeff, Stone, Mike, Matt, Jack, Dave, Brendan, and everyone associated with PJ!!! :D
    PJ- 04/29/2003.06/24,25,27,28,30/2008.10/27,28,30,31/2009
    EV- 08/09,10/2008.06/08,09/2009
  • genie
    genie Posts: 2,222
    Jeremy1012 wrote:
    Yeah I heard that and wasn't happy with using it for long. I gave up since I'm shit at maintaining regular doses anyway.

    and i bet spots all slowly came back again...am i right?
  • genie
    genie Posts: 2,222
    LongRd. wrote:
    I think the only passion that has remained with me since my teen years is my love for Pearl Jam. Thank you, Eddie, Jeff, Stone, Mike, Matt, Jack, Dave, Brendan, and everyone associated with PJ!!! :D

    Amen :) i've been listening to them today to give me some peace of mind
  • genie
    genie Posts: 2,222
    anyway if anyone wants to know i'm using spironolactone, and so far i think it's ok. but it should not be used by men, if anyone knows of any real dangers of these tablets let me know. oh and with this drug i would need to have my blood level tested every so often.
  • Jeremy1012
    Jeremy1012 Posts: 7,170
    genie wrote:
    and i bet spots all slowly came back again...am i right?
    Weirdly enough, no. They seem to have cleared up by themselves recently. Not entirely but a vast improvement. I don't know if I'm outgrowing them or what but clearly it's not impossible so who knows :)

    As for spironolactone, I just looked it up and yes, I don't think men should use it :o
    "I remember one night at Muzdalifa with nothing but the sky overhead, I lay awake amid sleeping Muslim brothers and I learned that pilgrims from every land — every colour, and class, and rank; high officials and the beggar alike — all snored in the same language"
  • westsidepie
    westsidepie Posts: 627
    genie wrote:
    i do face all my challenges, but sometimes i just want to ( i know it's wishful thinking) have a fairytale/magical like period in my life. and sometimes i just want to give up, crawl away and hide, and i do get those thoughts where i think that it's easier and far more pleasant to die than to live.....but i've already had those thoughts before, and i know that i won't kill myself no matter what. so i don't think about suicide as it would be a waste of time, but i do think about giving up, becoming really lazy and not giving a shit.

    You are not alone in wanting magical answers. It is a comforting thought. I know the struggle is hard. Maybe another way to look at it is to cut yourself some slack. There is nothing wrong with feeling the way you do. Indulge yourself, swim in your feelings, but just make sure you swim to shore eventually.

    Sorry I could not be more help.
    To pie I will reply
    But mr. justam
    is who I am

    "That's a repulsive combination of horrible information and bad breath."-Pickles

    "Remember, death is a natural part of the workplace. So, when you see a dead body at work, don't freak out, just ring your death bell." "ting"-Toki Wartooth
  • Strangest Tribe
    Strangest Tribe Posts: 2,502
    genie wrote:
    and no it's not because soulsinging ain't here :D:p

    last time i felt like this was about 6 months ago....but this time it's even more worse and it's a different reason, but this one is much more horrible than the first one. it just seems like the older that i get the more shit i have to deal with, and it looks like nothings has changed i can never run away from myself whichever problems i had before will stay with me. i feel pressured to succeed or at least to live like a decent person. being a kid was so much better! maaaan, i feel ugly, unhealty, stressed, and like my innocence has gone away....ah the loss of innocence. finding out how fucked up this world really is, is probably like going "cold turkey" for an addict.

    sometimes i just get so tired of challenges thrown at me by life

    that's it my crying is over.

    I'm the same. I just turned 43 but inside I still think like a 20 year old. My friends tell me to grow up but I can't. I don't want to. I have all the burdens of a 43 year old and If I set around and sulk about it and actually "act my age" I get to feeling real suicidal. I've worked so hard the last 25 years and have little to show for it. I have no money saved for the future. ...but as it stands If I had saved lots of money it would never be enough with the economy soaring out of control. Then when I look at working another 25 years I just don't see how I can do it, I already feel sooooo bad and unhealthy even though I have stayed physically fit.... mentally I'm worn down....and it doesn't seem to ever get any better. If I take a vacation I just sink further into debt.
    the Minions
  • harmless_little_f***
    harmless_little_f*** Posts: 8,005
    genie wrote:
    are you nuts? i just did a little research and this is what came up

    "Venlafaxine (Effexor) is an antidepressant of the serotonin-norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor (SNRI) class first introduced by Wyeth in 1993. It is prescribed for the treatment of clinical depression and anxiety disorders, among other uses. Due to the pronounced side effects and suspicions that venlafaxine may significantly increase the risk of suicide, it is not recommended as a first line treatment of depression."

    Hmm.. explains a lot.

    Maybe my doctor should've been reading Wiki. :p
    'We're learning songs for baby Jesus' birthday. His mum and dad were Merry and Joseph. He had a bed made of clay and the three kings bought him Gold, Frankenstein and Merv as presents.'

    - the great Sir Leo Harrison
  • genie
    genie Posts: 2,222
    harmless_little_f*** wrote:
    Hmm.. explains a lot.

    Maybe my doctor should've been reading Wiki. :p

    that's why i hate my doctors they just examine you really quickly not really giving a fuck about you because you're are nobody to them, they're just doing their job, i swear they in it for the money. just like my stupid college teachers were, they wouldn't be able to train a dog few tricks with their teaching skills. i've got no respect for some of those people, but i do understand that some genuienly do care about the person.

    but yeah be careful, it's no laughing matter, do check yourself whatever those doctors give you, just cause they've got degree doesn't mean they always right
  • failedpersephone
    failedpersephone Posts: 3,424
    MUAH! kisses to genie...
    IF YOU WANT A PLATE OF MY BEEF SWELLINGTON, YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE TO PAY THE COVERCHARGE.
  • genie
    genie Posts: 2,222
    i've gotta say thank you to everyone who responded to this thread, you're kind to do so :)

    maybe i should ask for a shrink, at least all of you and everyone around me won't have to put up with this. as for those drugs i've been taking i'm going to stop taking them today as i've noticed one of it's side effects....oh the self-destruction.....at least i'm still alive and kicking ;)
  • genie
    genie Posts: 2,222
    failedpersephone wrote:
    MUAH! kisses to genie...

    kissing you right back! :)
  • genie
    genie Posts: 2,222
    talking about kicking btw, i might just ask my friend to accidently push me into mosh pit, being a girl and having never been in mosh pit i feel a bit out of place....but i think mosh pit is what i need right now to get all that anger and frustration out.
  • libragirl
    libragirl Posts: 4,632
    I'm sorry you are sad. I hope things get better for you.
    These cuts are leaving creases. Trace the scars to fit the pieces, to tell the story, you don't need to say a word.

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