Lonesome Dove

stoneygali
stoneygali Posts: 148
edited September 2006 in Poetry, Prose, Music & Art
Nothing is wrong with me.
I look normal.
I act proper.
I talk appropriate.
I appear to be just like any other being.
Built to live.
Constructed to follow.
Accepted in Heaven.
Like all other humans.
But something is different.
Something nobody but me can see.
I feel it inside.
My deepest fear.
Seems to be coming true.
I am abnormal.
I am not like any other.
I talk like it is not me.
I don't act like myself.
I look like I am not.
Built to destroy.
Constructed to fall behind.
Condemned to Hell.
Like few other humans.
My fear has started taking over me.
My weakness has come to strike me.
Slowly, but surely it is happening.
I am driven by hate.
And consumed by fear.
I am losing everything.
Everything meaning full to my heart.
First family.
Now friends.
In time I will lose it all.
Like an addicted gambler.
Risking everything for love.
Losing everything for risk.
Life has it's price.
Mine is emptyness of heart.
I have to pay the toll.
And lose the love.
Scared away.
Like a lonesome dove.
I never meant to hurt you, mi diablo, mi amigo, but I've built up so much character I have an alter ego. I have to make a clean break & I have to do it quick because the pain you give me babe would make Cal Ripken call in sick!!!
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  • Holey Ghost
    Holey Ghost Posts: 744
    StoneyGal,. it's better to have risked all for love
    tnen never too have take the chance, at romance

    There's always another pair of feet
    that will be ready & willing to dance
    and possibly sweep you off of, defeat

    nice poem, but it saddened me
    I hope you bounce back
    and come and attack life with zeal and zest
    maybe you will, that you got this of your chest
    Create Good Things........
    Graduate of the School for Sexual Gifted....magna cum loads
  • Pearl_Jam_Necklace
    Pearl_Jam_Necklace Posts: 501
    stoney gal what a beautiful piece you've written..so beautiful...my heart kept beating faster and faster when i was reading it...it was like ...wow..i've walked down this road before...and its written so beautiful...
    ...It's only after disaster that we can be resurrected...
    it's only after you've lost everything ...that you are free to do anything....(Fight Club)

    ... I'll ride the wave...where it takes me....
  • Jamal
    Jamal Posts: 2,115
    aw man, tis is tough...
    I feel just like this and now you've reminded me of it

    I really like it, touched me and made me hink abou myself, thnks
    Surf little waves big... Charge big waves hard

    - Antwerp '06, Nijmegen '07, Werchter '07
  • stoneygali
    stoneygali Posts: 148
    sorry that you are in a position to relate with what i've written :( hang in there...... i still hold onto a thread!!!
    I never meant to hurt you, mi diablo, mi amigo, but I've built up so much character I have an alter ego. I have to make a clean break & I have to do it quick because the pain you give me babe would make Cal Ripken call in sick!!!

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