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I've been married, but never been loved...

CHANGEinWAVESCHANGEinWAVES Posts: 10,169
edited November 2008 in All Encompassing Trip
Fuck it
"I'm not present, I'm a drug that makes you dream"
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  • Black DiamondBlack Diamond Posts: 25,107
    CHANGEinWAVES wrote:
    I've recently been told that the only reason he married me was cause he thought it would of made his Dad happy:rolleyes: His Dad passed away 3 months into our relationship, but I knew him for longer...and his Dad and I really got along well.
    Kinda sucks to realize you were married cause you were 'likable' not cause you were loved:(. Seems @ 28 I've never been loved in return...go figure.

    Ahhh.. All is right in the world. I am working late and CIW is starting downer threads :D
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  • CHANGEinWAVESCHANGEinWAVES Posts: 10,169
    Black Diamond wrote:
    Ahhh.. All is right in the world. I am working late and CIW is starting downer threads :D
    Thanks for the pick me up!
    "I'm not present, I'm a drug that makes you dream"
  • Jearlpam0925Jearlpam0925 Deep South Philly Posts: 17,144
    Black Diamond wrote:
    Ahhh.. All is right in the world. I am working late and CIW is starting downer threads :D


    Yeah, Debbie Downer. Join us for Beer Couch Friday! Trust me. Alcohol: The cause, and solution to, all of life's problems!

    Like I said - this shady character will be at McGlinchey's. First shot.....first 10 shots are on me.
  • CHANGEinWAVESCHANGEinWAVES Posts: 10,169
    Jearlpam0925 wrote:
    Yeah, Debbie Downer. Join us for Beer Couch Friday! Trust me. Alcohol: The cause, and solution to, all of life's problems!

    Like I said - this shady character will be at McGlinchey's. First shot.....first 10 shots are on me.
    Where's that @? I'm in the philly burbs.
    "I'm not present, I'm a drug that makes you dream"
  • Jearlpam0925Jearlpam0925 Deep South Philly Posts: 17,144
    CHANGEinWAVES wrote:
    Where's that @? I'm in the philly burbs.

    Can't say for sure - 15th & Locust maybe or Spruce? Something like that. I'm usually hammered when I end up stumbling in there.
  • PJPixiePJPixie Posts: 3,026
    Don't believe everything everyone says. I'm sure he loved you. What's not to love? Cheer up sweetie! He has done you a favor. Life will get better, I promise!
    The best use of Life is Love.
    The best expression of Love is Time.
    The best time to Love is Now.


    I'm never as good as when you're there.........
  • Black DiamondBlack Diamond Posts: 25,107
    CHANGEinWAVES wrote:
    Where's that @? I'm in the philly burbs.
    Yeah get the car out and meet up with these guys! You need a night out!

    BTW you know I was kidding. The guy is a huge tool. You will not let that happen to you again.
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  • CHANGEinWAVESCHANGEinWAVES Posts: 10,169
    Jearlpam0925 wrote:
    Can't say for sure - 15th & Locust maybe or Spruce? Something like that. I'm usually hammered when I end up stumbling in there.
    Oh wow....this has all the makings of a regretful night;)
    "I'm not present, I'm a drug that makes you dream"
  • ladygooddivaladygooddiva Posts: 4,169
    CHANGEinWAVES wrote:
    I've recently been told that the only reason he married me was cause he thought it would of made his Dad happy:rolleyes: His Dad passed away 3 months into our relationship, but I knew him for longer...and his Dad and I really got along well.
    Kinda sucks to realize you were married cause you were 'likable' not cause you were loved:(. Seems @ 28 I've never been loved in return...go figure.
    did you kicked in is ass ...so how long you have been married ..it seems like this is the year some men show their real face ...
  • Jearlpam0925Jearlpam0925 Deep South Philly Posts: 17,144
    CHANGEinWAVES wrote:
    Oh wow....this has all the makings of a regretful night;)

    Yep...that'll happen.
  • CHANGEinWAVESCHANGEinWAVES Posts: 10,169
    ...
    "I'm not present, I'm a drug that makes you dream"
  • ladygooddivaladygooddiva Posts: 4,169
    CHANGEinWAVES wrote:
    Together 10yrs, married 6 of those.
    wow wow...i would kick more than his ass ...well there is another woman that s the way i see it ...or he wants his freedom ...
  • CHANGEinWAVESCHANGEinWAVES Posts: 10,169
    ...
    "I'm not present, I'm a drug that makes you dream"
  • Black DiamondBlack Diamond Posts: 25,107
    CHANGEinWAVES wrote:
    There is another woman...and drugs... And well that sums it up, but I would of like to have been left knowing we went into it for the right reasons and it just didn't work...not that It was a sham from the beginning!
    Hey what happened to the discussion of you getting out for the evening and no more talkie about douche bag ex :D
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  • iluvcatsiluvcats Posts: 5,153
    listen to Brian Vander Ark's 2005 live cd called Within Reach

    (originally a verve pipe song but i prefer his solo version)
    Gotta Move On

    Love is not strong
    Love is not stable
    I tried to hold it
    But I wasn't able
    I never thought that I'd be
    Saying this to you
    But what else could I do?
    Love leads to loss
    And words condescending
    Love is the pathway
    To unhappy endings
    And if I keep my chin up
    I still see clouds that look like you
    So look down is what I do
    You know it's all right
    If you cry a little
    If something inside you
    Has died a little
    You don't have to hide
    But you gotta move on
    You gotta move on
    Love leads to tears
    Tears lead to sadness
    Sadness to memories
    Memories to madness
    I never thought of all
    These things that love could be
    But look what it did to me
    You know it's all right
    If you cry a little
    If something inside you
    Has died a little
    You don't have to hide
    But you gotta move on
    You gotta move on
    (repeat)
    9/98, 9/00 - DC, 4/03 - Pitt., 7/03 - Bristow, 10/04 - Reading, 10/05 - Philly, 5/06 - DC, 6/06 - Pitt., 6/08 - Va Beach, 6/08 - DC, 5/10 - Bristow, 10/13 B'more
    8/08 - Ed solo in DC, 6/09 Ed in B'more,
    10/10 - Brad in B'more
  • ladygooddivaladygooddiva Posts: 4,169
    CHANGEinWAVES wrote:
    There is another woman...and drugs... And well that sums it up, but I would of like to have been left knowing we went into it for the right reasons and it just didn't work...not that It was a sham from the beginning!


    see sooooooooooooo forget this ass ...and enjoy your life ...
  • CHANGEinWAVESCHANGEinWAVES Posts: 10,169
    Black Diamond wrote:
    Hey what happened to the discussion of you getting out for the evening and no more talkie about douche bag ex :D
    Well once I read the beer couch thread...I thought I might be a night I regret! :eek:
    "I'm not present, I'm a drug that makes you dream"
  • CHANGEinWAVESCHANGEinWAVES Posts: 10,169
    ...
    "I'm not present, I'm a drug that makes you dream"
  • ladygooddivaladygooddiva Posts: 4,169
    CHANGEinWAVES wrote:
    Ahh trust me he's well on his way to forgotten! He just has a way of popping by when I'm feeling good and telling me something that brings me down.

    than bring him not to pooping by never again ...
  • just tinajust tina Posts: 277
    i know you don't know me, but i've read a few of your posts/threads and it sounds like you have been through so much recently. i really feel for you. if you ever need someone to chat or vent to, feel free to pm me... some of the things you have posted, i have had similar experiences. best of luck to you.
  • CHANGEinWAVESCHANGEinWAVES Posts: 10,169
    ...
    "I'm not present, I'm a drug that makes you dream"
  • iluvcatsiluvcats Posts: 5,153
    why is your ex husband stopping by? do you have kids?

    otherwise, tell him to shove his negative remarks up his butt. he's mentally abusing you.

    I agree with lady godiva except she meant "popping" instead of "pooping"
    9/98, 9/00 - DC, 4/03 - Pitt., 7/03 - Bristow, 10/04 - Reading, 10/05 - Philly, 5/06 - DC, 6/06 - Pitt., 6/08 - Va Beach, 6/08 - DC, 5/10 - Bristow, 10/13 B'more
    8/08 - Ed solo in DC, 6/09 Ed in B'more,
    10/10 - Brad in B'more
  • CHANGEinWAVESCHANGEinWAVES Posts: 10,169
    ...
    "I'm not present, I'm a drug that makes you dream"
  • geniegenie Posts: 2,222
    CHANGEinWAVES wrote:
    No pooping by either!! He used to stop here to use the bathroom or nap (his rehab and therapy is closer to here) I stopped that a long time ago.
    More recently it's been for paperwork concerning the renting of our house...and he'll be here ALL weekend moving his shit out (every last drop of it!!! :D:D) I think I'm gonna have 'other' plans so as to not be here with him, though his brother will be here and I'd like to say hi to him.

    oh what a prick! take all your possessions out of the house and then burn all his stuff with the house...........erm nah don't listen to me. i'm so sorry to hear :(
  • geniegenie Posts: 2,222
    i just don't understand how someone can be so mean, and to live a lie for so long and deprive another person of love :( i hope he gets whats coming to him.

    i can see that you are strong person though :) one day you'll find someone who'll love you i'm sure :)
  • geniegenie Posts: 2,222
    hartamh wrote:
    Believe me they are out there, and I'm married to one :(

    oh dear :(
  • CHANGEinWAVESCHANGEinWAVES Posts: 10,169
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    "I'm not present, I'm a drug that makes you dream"
  • LizardLizard So Cal Posts: 12,091
    sorry!!!!!!!!!

    hope things get better but I understand how that would sting. Or more like cut like a freaking machete!!!!
    So I'll just lie down and wait for the dream
    Where I'm not ugly and you're lookin' at me
  • mickeyratmickeyrat Posts: 40,461
    ok , lets back up a bit. He's now living with his MOMMY ,court ordered to pay the bills in the house you once shared.whether he's actually paying it or not , he's fucking up his credit. Can't seem to grasp this thing called sobriety or how to live like and treat others like a human being.

    From where I sit he's lashing out this way cuz he knows he hurts you.So my suggestion would be to not let him see IF he hurt you with his statements.this is really some punk kid shit on his part.If at all possible ,turn a deaf ear.

    And I was serious about the restraining order.If nothing else request a hearing with the Judge to inform his/her Honor that the courts ruling is not being adhered to.
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  • normnorm Posts: 31,146
    your ex is a fuckwad!

    but you knew that :o
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